Fairies and Moonbeams

As you will see from the different pages on this site there are fairies and moon images everywhere. I have always loved the night time, and everything to do with moons and stars. One of my favourite books as a child was MOONDIAL by Helen Cresswell http://homepage.ntlworld.com/john.seymour1/ukbookguide/Series/Moondial.html

It is a time travel book based around an old historical house in the countryside.

The night time has always facinated me. When I was younger I stayed at my granparents house in the country side. When it got dark you could see thousands of stars in the sky. Living in the city the sky was never the same. Maybe another reason I loved the night time was I had vey bad hayfever as a child. The summertime was the worst but my favourite time was the evenings and night, my hayfever  only affected me during daylight!

WhenI read Michaels autobiaugraphy called MOONWALKER one of the the lines that really touched me was when he said that " he thought that he always felt lonely even though he was at the top of his career". I really understood what he was saying as, at that time I was always alone, it wasnt until I left school that I become more self confident started developing into how I am today.

In January 2004 I travelled to LA to support Michael at the start of the nightmare that became 18 months of hell. That was a really unreal time. On one hand we were there to support Michael and show the world that we believed in him. That was something I never thought I would have to do. On the other hand it was also the most wonderful time, as I managed to have one of my dreams come true. At that time Michael had left Neverland and was in hiding. That didnt matter to us, we still spent almost 4 days outside Neverland showing the world that no matter what we supported Michael in his time of need. As it was winter, it got dark really early, about 4pm. One of the things that I will always remember from that time is being outside Neverland watching the sun set and seeing the moon and stars soo clearly. It was one of those magical times that I will see forever when I think of Neverland.

In March 2005 I once again travelled to LA. This time it was different, as I went  one my own . I was going crazy, being on the otherside of the world with a n 8 hour time difference. Everyday at 4pm, (and usuaslly I was working) I would get really nervouse and shaky. At time it would be almost impossable to concentrate at work, knowing and yet not knowing what was happening in Santa Maria. I was also getting really frustrated at the way it was being covered in the media, as I knew from the fansites that not all of the information was being reported acuratly. I decided to go to Santa Maria really for my own piece of mind. While I was there I met up with Jayne and Sam from England. I have known them for a few years , we always meet up at Michael events. You can read Jaynes account of our time in Santa Maria in MY ADVENTURES. As you will see from that report the most amazing, wonderful thing happened to us there. Michael invied all the fans who were at Neverland one day after the court  into his home. Unbelivably I was one of the lucky fans.

I will never forget that day.Even now I am still in scock when I rember that day. I never thought I would ever get inside those famous gates, yet not only was I inside the gates but for about 2 hours I was actually in Michaels house. Every other time Michael has invited fans into Neverland, they only go to the fairground and theatre, he never invites fans into his house. That day was soo special and it felt soo right to be there. Eveyone was really respectful  towards Michael, his family and staff. I think we were in so much shock that we just couldnt believe what was happening and where we were.One image I will remember forever is Michael opening the front door of his house for us and inviting us inside.

When I came home I decided I wanted to get a second tattoo. I decided to wait until after the trail as it would add to the meaning. I had got my first one at the start of the trial and I thought it would be really special to get the second on at the end. I decide that being in Neverland was something so amazing to happen to me that I would base the second tattoo around that. I have always loved the Neverland symbol of the boy on the moon but to make it more unique I decided to cover up the image of the boy with stars. So now ,on my back I have my version of the Neverland symbol.

Fairies to me seem real and unreal at the same time. They almost look human but then when you look closly you see that they have special features. I first started notice fairies when I was very young. One of my favourite books and films was Disneys PETERPAN.  The fairy in that story is TINKERBELL. As I grew older I  loved collecting fairy pictures.When ever I made a scrapbook/diary for Michael I alwys had fairy pictures in it.