
“Jesse I hate you your always so cruel now I just can’t stand it” Ricky said as his eyes swelled with tears from the harsh pain that Jesse always inflected on his heart “like I care you little brat” Jesse shouted as a response “you could die and burn in hell for all care” and he stomped out of the room leaving Ricky to cry alone in the shadows of his room.
This was just a routine fight for Ricky it was something that happened everyday and yet he still wasn’t used to it. He hated the harsh things that would always come out of Jesse’s mouth.
“Ya know Jesse wasn’t always like this Ricky” a voice came from the bed “yes I know Declan, but it still hurts I’ve known him my whole and he doesn’t even trust me enough to tell me about anything, it was so much easier when we were kids” Ricky said to the >imaginary< voice that was coming from his bed. Ricky lay next to Declan and laid his head on his chest and softly let his tears fall against hi face. “Just get some sleep Jesse will apologize tomorrow just like he always dose” Ricky nodded and let his vision slip into the deep visions of him self and Jesse as young children when they first meet under the fireflies of the June breezes.
“Ricky you do know that one day I’ll make you mine and give you all the love I could ever cape within my heart” Jesse said as he gently stoked Ricky’s check and raised his head up gently to his and claimed his mouth in a loving kiss. Ricky opened his lips granting access to the tongue that was so desperately begging for an entry. “Jesse what about my sister, aren’t you going out with her” Ricky said as Jesse cuddled into his soft delicate neck. “I’ll never love her as I love you my dear sweet Ricky” and with that the entire world seemed to fade into the blackness that always came after he had a dream of Jesse. There was Jesse with his arms wide open in welcome to Ricky, but He began to fall into the blackness. The shadows pulled him deeper and deeper into his shadowed fantasy world of sadness, pain, and hurt. As he fell his sister wrapped her arms around Jesse and squeezed him tightly against her and gave her brother a look of total hatred that scared the life out of him. “NOO Jesse’s mine he screeched out in his sleep only to wind up face first into the star of his dreams chest.
“what the hell is wrong with you Ricky” Jesse said as he pushed him back into his bed and pressed his hand into Ricky’s paling forehead “I’ll see you after school, stay in bed you have a fever, if you get bored just read some of the books on your nightstand” and with that Jesse ran out of the room towards the school.
“Maybe he hates me because I never tell him how much I love him” Ricky said as he looked over at Declan who was posted on the bed post at the foot of his bed. “Maybe you should tell him how you fell Ricky, it might help a little” Declan said with a smile “but for now I’ll bring you some breakfast” and he glided out of the room. “Declan is right” “I’m always right” Ricky heard from the voice coming from the kitchen “smart ass but it’s true I should tell Jesse and maybe then he won’t be so mad at me any more” he said and smiled up at Declan as he placed the food in front of him. “Ok I’ll tell him first thing” Ricky said and stared to eat.