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THE FRAGILE
If you do not have an eating disorder, or are in recovery, I suggest you leave. I am not trying to help you develop an eating disorder.
ANOREXIA IS A DISEASE, NOT A LIFESTYLE CHOICE. Wednesday, January 31st, 2007
Open. Still adding pages. Be patient! Some amazing quotes In truth, you like the pain...Your ability to withstand pain is your claim to fame. It is ascetic, holy. It is self-control. It is masochism, and masochism pleasurable to many, but we don't like to think about that. We don't like to think that a person could have a twisted autoerotic life going on...experience both at once: the pleasure of beating the hell out of a body shackled at the wrists, and the pleasure of being the body and knowing we deserve each blow -Wasted, Marya Hornbacher You begin to forget what it means to live. You forget things. You forget that you used to feel all right. You forget what it means to feel all right because you feel like shit all the time, and you can't remember what it was like before. People take the feeling of full for granted. They take for granted the feeling of steadiness, of hands that do not shake, heads that do not ache, throats not raw with bile and small rips of fingernails forced to haste to the gag spot. Stomachs that do not begin to wake up in the night, calves and thighs knotting in muscles that are beginning to eat away at themselves. they may or may not be awakened at night by their own inexpelicable sobs -Wasted, Marya Hornbacher |