Monday, 29th January 2007
Hey, i know i am not blogging much lately but thats mainly because i dont have much to tell you guys. My life is doing ok, still have to hear back from school though <<. Thats the only thing thats bugging me. If i dont get an certain amount of money from the goverment to go back to school, well, then i cant Oo. And so far i am only getting about 70 euro's. Thats 840 euro's in a year. Wich means i need to pay 120 extra (year) for school. Thats not such a big problem but i have to pay for my own health insurance <<. Thats like 107 euro's a month. And my phone bill wich is 20 euro's a month and i play darts and that will cost me about 40 euro's a month. So counting that up i need to make an extra 167 euros ATLEAST a month. This means no extra cash for going out or anything. I am currently walking a newspaper round in the morning but i dont know what i earn yet. It should be about 120 euro's. Thats still 47 euro's short Oo. So... i need to call the ib-groep and let them know i cant make it on only 70 euro's a month Oo. Maby my parents can help me pay for it but.. they dont have alot of money ether.
Besides that problem life is good :P. I am playing pristontale again and my archer is lvl 78 now ^^. I am in an all archer clan and highly active on there forums and stuff. Its fun to do :P. And i am thinking about making a new layout for the site too. A little smaller Oo. I think this side is too big Oo. I need to place some new links and update a few pages, add a few pages xD. Well you'll see ^^.
[Edit] I called both the ib-groep and my school and i got great news ^^. I got my intake conversation tomorrow at 14:15 Oo. Its kinda scary i guess but i knoe ill do good and get accepted in it. The most scary part about it is that they are trying to place me in a HeadYear. Wich means that i am gonna do 3 years in 1 year time Oo. They think i maby can do it or maby even do the normal study but already being placed ahead of it all. But i think its best if i do the HeadYear or just start over. Since i dont know if i fit in with a class who have known eachother for a while. Kinda makes me the outsider Oo.
The ib-groep part was kinda easy. I called them up and asked them about my papers and they said to me that if it is not cleary stated in the papers that i dont get that extra cash that i still have a chance on it but it just needs to be processed. I also asked the guy on the phone howmuch a family needs to make for me not to get extra cash for my education. The answer was 2900 euro's. Well lets say my parents bring in about 1700 euro's so i should be good ^^. Ill tell more about it tomorrow or the day after ^^.
~DarkYuna @ 22:33 ||| none - none |||
Wednesday, 17th January 2007
Meh, i dont really wanna talk bad about anyone now but i need to blow of some steam <<.
Maby i should not trust people anymore. I see things happening to me wich makes me raise one eyebrow and just feel like slapping them <<. For instance, lying people. The worst kind of people. Then we have the people who just make you hate them with the stuff they do and then 2 weeks later or even the same day they act like nothing has happend.
But first the people who act like nothing happend. They do things too you that seem so fucking unfair. But then later they just act like nothing happend and just wanna carry on where they left off. Maby i should just let these people slide out of my life, since they dont really distribute to it anyway. They are the sweetest persons, dont get me wrong, but i just feel like choking them from time tot time <<. Maby apologies would be nice but they dont do that i suppose. They just act like nothing happend wich irritates the fuck out of me <<.
Then the dishonest people, the worst of the worst. I so fucking hate it when somebody lies to me. I mean, dont they think that if they tell the truth i wont like them? What are they so afraid of. Today for instance, rick (michelle's ex-boyfriend) came over because he "badly" needed his keys back because his parents wanted him to or somthing. So he came over here and i waited for him at the station, gave him his keys back and stayed with him for about 3 hours. Thats the least i could do since he came all the way over here just for keys. But nooo, he lied <<. He only did it because he wanted to see my sister again. Since he feels like wanting her back and she did not even wanted to see him because she said to me if she saw him she would slap him <<. So she did not come along in the first place. WHY does he think that he cant tell me he wanted to come over here just to see michelle. I would have done the fucking same thing for him and even would have tried to get michelle over there even though it would not have been the smartest move <<. Now i feel like i have spent a fucking 3 hours of my life just wasted away just because he cant be honest <<. I could have done better things today.
You dont understand the look on my fathers face when he found out i was with rick that afternoon. Well, if you know my father you would understand <<. I was just trying to be fucking nice and i end up being used as some sort of gate way to my sister. So what did i learn about all this? Not to trust people anymore? Nah, i learned its best to stay away from people who lie about all sorts of things. Just need to figure out when they lie...
~DarkYuna @ 22:48 ||| Green Day - American Idiot |||
Friday, 5th January 2007
Cleaning madness Oo. My mom wants the entire house clean (wich needs to be done really badly xD) and i volunteerd to help :P. We took down all the christmas stuff yesterday. I never knew how much junk i could squeeze into small boxes! I think we need to get rid off alot of stuff because its all old and not really good to look at anymore :P. But i guess my mom is a fan of saving alot of stuff Oo. We have like these 2 wardrobes full with stuff downstairs wich is mostly all useless. We need to search those out too. I think almost 80% of that stuff can be trown out xD. Plus that i need to clean the bathrooms, bedrooms and the usual vacuming and stuff. And now i am not even talking about my own room (A).
The last few days i have mixed feelings. About everything Oo. I mean, its a new year and i wanna start it off really good. I think i am though. I stopped nailbiting (wich is a huge thing for me xD) and i am gonna start school again if all goes well this time <<. I just hope i get a message from that soon and from my scholarship thingy. I really need full funding or else i can kiss my school goodbye Oo.
I just wish a new year would not mean such a big thing, and i guess it doesnt really because its just the day after another i suppose. But everyone is making a big deal out of it. Everyone is thinking off stuff they want to improve, get better at or start whole new things. I dont want to be the only one who is left behind, stuck in the same pattern for the rest of my life. Just like a neighbour of mine. He passed away all of the sudden with no reason at all on the 2th of January. Nobody saw it comming. It scares the hell out of me since he was only 62 years old. My father is 59, i mean thats not far off Oo. What if i do the same as my neighbour, he never stopped working or took some time off to do fun stuff and enjoying a free day off. Before he could change all that, he died. I just dont want to wake up one day when i am 50 or somthing and realize i did ABSOLUTLY nothing with my life. I just wish i knew what i wanted in life. Would make it alot easier to do xD.
~DarkYuna @ 00:38 ||| Green Day - Boulevard Of Broken Dreams |||
Wednesday, 3th January 2007
Hey just a quick little update on how my new years eve was! Ow but first Happy New Year !!! . Anyway it was my first new years eve away from home and i really enjoyed myself. There was alot of stuff to do, we where darting and ofcourse the beer was free from 8-12. So i had maby 8 beers or so and nothing was wrong yet untill people started serving me green palm. Wich kinda of a mixture of Wodka, Cognac and 5 other strong drinks and only about 15% non alcohol stuff Oo. Only, i did not know until i had a few of them down Oo. So i was seeing double at that time and it kinda freaked me out <<. So i just sat there untill it passed and i i tried drinking cola to get a little more sober but it did not really work so biking home was not a option for me that night xD. Fortunatly a friend of mine offered me a place to sleep nearby :P.
Anyway i was gonna keep it short. Ow and if you have not noticed yet. New layout ;).
~DarkYuna @ 19:53 ||| Adema - Giving In |||
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