The Poetry Blog

What is there to write about?  My life seems to be going nowhere fast.   And I can't upload my latest works because  I'm running out of space on the site.  It's a great day for me,  but  I must look on the bright side of everything that has happened to me in these past few days.  Everything will get better gradually,  I don't know when but it'll get better.   Everything has to get better that's how life works! :D 

I don't have anything to add.  Except this girl I Like dosen't like me back, she wants her ex-boyfriend more than she wants me and I'm being so fucking emo about the whole fucking situation.  I don't know what's wrong with me, when she's in trouble and needs someone to talk to I'm there and I get sucked back into her like a bloody fool.  But I expected this,  I knew something had to happen to make my miserable existence a little bit more miserable.  Due to the fact that I'm depressed.  I'm not as depressed as I was yesterday,  I'm taking a small break from writing.  The break is more due to the fact that I have the writer's block and can't really think of anything new to write.  Maybe I'll go work on the Crocast or something I don't know.

The Colum Announcing My Hiatus from Writing :

I was having a conversation with a fellow APer earlier on MSN.   She goes by the name The Twisted Vagabond here.   I bet most of you people know who she is.  I was talking about how I'm depressed because of a girl that dosen't love me.  It seems like that happens alot in my life.  And how  I feel that within this depressed state that I can't continue on with my writing.   That and I've been having trouble thinking up new stuff,  I hate writer's block.  I've been through all of this shit before and surprisingly I've survived  I just don't feel like I'm as good as I once was.

I know  I have fans but  I never really knew why.   I don't know, people say I have a unique writing style and that I should flaunt this gift.  As of late I've felt like all  I have been doing in my poems and song is bitching about everything and anything that has gone wrong in my life.  It feels like everything has gone wrong with my life in these past months.   I've been job hunting and I haven't found anything,  that's another reason why I feel sad and depressed, but don't you worry I won't kill myself.  So please get that thought out of your mind!

Everything that I've written, well I can't say everything.  But most everything that I've written about has come from personal experinces and battles with my own demons.  I swear some people look at me, and see a perfectly happy person that has nothing wrong with him, has no addictions and that could be the further from the truth.   I have my issues, my battles and my demons they just aren't as bad  as some and I don't fight my demons publicly,  I fight them on my time and on my turf.   Which can be both bad or good,  I've never asked for help in those internal battles, some people said I should of.

In my mind if I get help it makes me look weak.  I don't know why I think that way but I do.  I guess I'm a survivest.   I've always stated to my friends, and at one time in my life my therapist. ' I don't want your help,  I don't want their help.  I need to fight this battle alone, meaning no help from anyone.  If I die, I die.. It's no big deal.'  I look back at the quote and I see a different person.  a 15 year old kid that was lost and scared in this world.  What does that have to do with my writing?  I think that boy's coming back in me.   This isn't a full good-bye to Robert Rumery as a writer, maybe just a break.  These breaks never last long,  I always break down and write something.  

I'm a writer, that's something I can't really change.  It's like my destiny or something,  I'm just having some trouble in my life.  In 20 years,  I'm probably gonna find this entry and I'm gonna laugh at how foolish I was in my younger days.  I still do that with my childhood.   The writer comes out in me all the time even if it's in a simple blog entry or some silly idea for a movie that will never see the day of light. 

It's the same with the musician in me.  I couldn't live without my music, because without my music I wouldn't be me.   When I die, there will be a legacy that will be left behind to my children.  It may not be a big one, but they will carry on the good name  of 'Rumery'  I just don't know what I'm supposed to do in my life.    

I love my fans also.   Especially, The Twisted Vagabond.  She gives me hope she's released a book of lyrics on LuLu.com  I've seen some of her lyrics and they kick so much fucking ass.  I love all my fans,  I've countly asked myself why do I have fans.  I don't know why  I have them,  but I'm glad I have them   I love you all, and I'm glad  your there and thanks for reading  I got alot of stuff off of my chest!

Also if anyone wants some help with a poem or something don't be afraid to ask.  I'm always up to helping younger poets express themselves! ^_~

Love,  

"The Modern Day Poet"  Robert Rumery

 

Well I hope that everyone had a happy mother's day.  I was gonna post updates that day but I spent most of it with my mom and my family.  It was a very nice day indeed I got my mom and grandma a nice card.  My mother's husband got her some roses, my mom got my grandma a nice card and a cake.  If I wanted to win them over I should of bought cake.   I've added a new page to my site it's called "Stories" thats were my stories and fan fiction's will be posted.  

This Friday on the 19th  my friend Tina will be 20.  I wish you a happy birthday,Tina and many more! :)  I hope you make this year a great year as well. 

If you have any questions or comments about the site e-mail me them!  my e-mail addy is limeguy@hotmail.com

It's been a long time since I wrote something on the front page.   But if you looked at it today, you should notice something different.  Yes, I put up my friend's Online Storefront Banner.  It's right out in the open so everyone can see it and click on it.  She's a friend of mine from Allpoetry.com  The Twisted Vagabond.  She does awsome stuff with her writing!  Clink the banner and go check her out!  Also,  I uploaded "Shots In The Night (Bloody Murder"  the FWE ( Free Webs Editor) has been messing up on me.  So if I don't update that's why!  If I have to.  I'll go back to using Front Page Express! Well that's all for know!!! 

Welcome to my website.  My little space on the world wide web.   I have an addiction to poetry and that's what this website/blog is all about.  The wonderful world of poetry.  I've put some poems up on my poetry page.  You should check back often as this page is always under construction.    So thank you for stopping bye, and I hope you enjoyed your visit!