Wednesday, June 10th, 2009, 8:14am
Mornings are very lovely. It's a shame I'm always too tired at this time to fully appreciate them. Yeah. Darry and I went for walk a couple minutes ago. It was a pretty nice walk, minus that evil white van ZOOMING past us. It always seems like it wants to kill me. Ahh, well.. I'm still alive. Tired, but alive.
I don't feel it necessary to mention that I haven't slept yet. Oh, oops.
Yeah so, early early this morning (around 5am) I got bored with trying to sleep, so I looked through some old pictures and letters while listening to some late great PFR. This CD's not really late anymore, but it's still great. After that I played some CTR very badly. No, I don't think anybody (if anybody) will care about this.
Darry gosh freakin' chased the cat like a madman (dog) and just about gave me a heart attack just now. Imagine how the cat felt. I hate violence... in real life.
Site calls for a new layout. I'm so awful at that kind of stuff though. I don't know what it should look like, and whenever I finally get something going it doesn't work out. I tried to image map the other day, but I'm not patient enough to do it. It's probably really easy, I'm just dumb and I'm doing it wrong or something. *I'm so glad I gave up fry cooking for this.
I also ate toast today. While reading some NatGeos. Well, looking at the pictures mostly, but yeah. They were issues from 1962. Brazil has Indians that wear disks in their lips when they marry. Yeeeah. I don't know about choooooo but if I had to do that.. I.. uh... who wants sleep? I do.
Good night? Morning? Someone take my brain out of my head.
Oh, and I'm not too sad about Libby anymore. We all miss her a lot though. Darry is still getting used to being an only child, and though she has to eat her supper by herself now, I think she likes all the attention she's getting.. hm, well, it's not like she didn't get this much before, buuuuuut yeah. We miss ya Libby Lou. <3
Yesterday -which still feels like today for me- my dad bought me 4 games at a pawn shop. One I already had, Shrek 2 (yeah), Crash Tag Team Racing, and Spyro 1. I was happy about Spyro 1, but turns out it has a huge gash in it... so he's gonna take it back with all the others, hah. I decided to keep CTTR even though I kind of hate it. I don't want to sound like a crazy NaughtyDog lover, but really, it sucks. Really. Never buy it. :D Long live the classics.
I know, I'm boring. And I know, you don't care about my little obsessions with games and what not. And pretty much anything else I talk about.
Jupiter has 63 moons.
Sleep now. That's an order.
*Spongebob reference. Yes, cause I lack sleep and I've never really referenced anything before. It's exciting.
Saturday, June 5th, 2009, i don't care what time it is
Monday, June 1st, 2009, 9:30pm
Happy June day. Wait... what?! It's June already? Where does the time go?? A couple weeks ago I was wondering when Easter was going to come. Yeah. Then I realized that it already came... like more than a month before.
Today I played Croc 2 again after years. It's got very many scratches on the disk but it still works alright. Brings back lots of memories... but I don't remember it being so easy. :D Don't get me wrong, I got a game over at least 5 times. And playing it on a PS2 calls for funny glitches. Really. Hahaha. Ha. I played Spyro 3 again too. I like games. And I do do other things... do do. What a language I speak.
I'm kind of happy today. Well, not sad. I don't know if I'm happy, but I'm not sad so.. that's good? Yeah.
Well, here's another boring blog entry pertaining to things that no one will find interesting except for me.
Friday, May 29th, 2009, 2:14am *yawn*
Wednesday, May 26th, 2009. It's May 27th now but yeah. Exactly 2:00AM. :)
Speaking of tech-freakiness, I got a tablet on Sunday. Still kinda wobbly with it (Wobbly? I couldn't think of the word I wanted to say) but I love it a lot and I don't know why I didn't get one 17 years ago. Maybe cause they didn't exist. Did they? I don't know.
I'm out in the living room cause I'm serious about the dehumidifier thing. I'm going to attempt to go back into my room now. EEK there it goes moaning again. Okay.. here I go.. *goes* ... *after grabbing all the crud I brought out here with me*
Okay hi. That took me way too long. It's so hot in here. And so noisy. And everything is moved around all weird. I don't like it. That machine just winked at me. Ahh it's so hot in here, I feel like I'm in an oven. Stop complaining Leah and just leave, sheesh. Okay fine! I will! Ahh, it's so nice out here. I really don't know how I'm going to sleep tonight. Not that I sleep anyways. I'm ranting and this is boring and pointless.
Now, on a serious note, I'm kind of upset with myself. Not because of something I did to anyone else, but cause of things I'm doing to myself. I've probably said this a billion times, but I'm too hard on myself, I need to quit it. I'm doing the best I can right now (though I could probably do better.. oh, well, see? There I go again!). Life's been really harsh and the fact that I'm still alive and sane (sometimes) is GREAT. I've had a hard time, and I came out of it alive. Well, I'm still going through it.. but I'm still alive, so yeah, there, I'm da bomb, darnit!
Alright, enough with the after midnight stuff. That rhymes. I always rhyme without trying to. My life's like a Dr. Seuss book.
Tuesday, May 20th, 2009. It's 5:25am!
I have changed a lot since 2008. Even the very end of it and beginning of this year.. Since these past few months have gone by, I have become a different person. I don't know if it's good or not. But I'm always too hard on myself.. ALWAYS. Eh. I'm so self absorbed, I know. Ahh, I think I'm tired. 5:30.
Oh, and I realize that 'This is my blog I guesses' is down there. I think it's funny. Ahahaha. I should try to sleep.
Tuesday, May 19th, 2009.
A couple hours ago, I was really restless, so I started rummaging through my stuff (I usually do this regularly, restless or not... I have a lot of stuff). I found some old drawings from way back when I was small, and some more recent ones (2006). Ahaha, let's just say I had some imagination. Err, I still have the same one, but yes. I remember when I was 12 I wanted to throw all of them (the drawings) away. Most of them are gone now, and I regret it. I'm glad to have atleast saved a few things (which is not really a few, but compared to everything I've ever drawn, it is). I don't draw enough anymore. Heck, I don't do anything enough anymore.
While going through all my beloved crud, I came across my stuff from THAT school. It made me upset to see the things, and it was hard to not rip everything into pieces. Yep, very hard. Which is why I ripped a lot of things to pieces. I've still a huge mess to clean up in the morning.. or uh later today. The things I haven't ripped (yet) have at least one sarcastic comment replying to a teacher's feedback on my work... and as you can probably guess, it wasn't the best feedback. I know it's probably such an immature thing to have done this, but AHAHAHAHA IT FELT SO FREAKING GOOD. And who said I'm mature?
4:35 now. I've taken so many different things and my mind just won't shut up. It chooses to be active at night, and I don't know why. I get most things done at night. AND the weirdest thing is that.. even if I'm exhausted, like now, I still CANNOT sleep and my brain just keeps on going like it's running a 400 mile marathon. I'm listening to Crash Bandicoot music because I'm still a little obsessed with the games. And they've got really good music, anyways.
My mother had plans to wake me up at 11 and take me out.. I mean, not kill me, but, like, uh you know. I AM tired, if that wasn't clear enough. I don't know how on earth I'm going to explain to her the giant mess of trash that is to my right. Ahh. 4:41.
I don't really know what else to say right now. Strange, since I've got so much on my mind all the live long day (and night). SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP! I'm talking to my brain so please don't get offended.
Well then I guess I'll shut up now. Ciao. Oh, I suppose since that's such a commonly spoken Italian word that the English spell checker doesn't think it's foreign and weird. Whassamattayou? Oh well, see, that one is foreign and weird.
I know for a fact that I'm going to read this later and be like say whaaaaa?
Bye.
Sunday, May 17th, 2009.
The end.
Monday, May 11th, 2009.
I didn't do much today. I still feel pretty rotten, but it's not as bad as yesterday. Well, I kind of felt better earlier than I do now. I barely have a voice. Gosh this is all depressing. Hm. Oh, yes, I did actually figure out that I'm not a complete idiot though. Yay?
*cough*
I HOPE THAT SOMEONE GETS MY MESSAGE IN A BOTTLE YEAHH.
*COUGH* aack.
I don't have nothin' else to say.
Er yeah, guess I'm goin' to New York. Here I come, obese pigeons.
*cough* Bye! *coughcough*
ANYWAYS it is/was mother's day. I didn't fall asleep until 9 (in the morning) so we went to me Nana's house around 4 and spent the rest of the day with her. She's supah. Me father and I took our mums out to dinner (Chili's baby back ribs). I'm tired. I keep getting distracted. It's passed midnight now. I like it passed midnight.
Someone I don't know tagged me in their photos on facebook. I'm not going to remove the tag cause I find it funny. I don't like sneezing. Achoo. I have a cough now and I'm losing my voice, yay.
Don't know what else to say um um um um um hm.
Alrighty guess it's time to work on the site some more. I hope.
Well, now I remember why I quit making websites. I'm a terrible web designer. Ah well, this site isn't really for looks (even though I wish it looked good), it's just for me so I can rant about pointless things. ANYWAYS..
Two of the games I ordered last week came today. :D CTR and Crash Bandicoot 2. I'm happy. I missed these games. Now all I'm waiting for is Warped and a PS1 memory card. Ahaha, yeah. I'm obsessed with Crash again. I get obsessed with things too easily. It's always one thing after another... Hahaha. Ha. I'm so obsessive!1!!11!@!!!1!@1! Yeah. I'm a human, what can I say.
I had a whole bunch to say when I logged into freewebs-- er, webs-- and now I don't really remember anything. By the way, sorry if I rant about Crash and how much I love these games. I love these games so much ahajsdhkwerjhtkerjhzsdfsa. :D
M'kay, guess that's it for now.
It's 2AM now..
I have a runny nose. I'm putting the tissues in an empty cereal box cause I was eating frosted flakes earlier.
I miss my Libby.
We had to put her down today. I didn't sleep the whole night before (not that I sleep at night...) cause I was so sad. She was doing really well for the last two months (when I needed her most, so I'm thankful for that), but then she kind of became... immune to her medicine and it wasn't helping her anymore. She was having a really hard time, especially these last few days, but still she wagged her tail and give us kisses. Ohh. What a great dog. I miss her so much. She gave me some really wonderful memories. She wasn't just a dog, she was my friend. Is my friend. She helped me through one of the hardest years of my life. Thanks for staying with me a little longer, Lib.
Hi. Sometimes I forget to put the time of day up there.
Note to self: Don't write stuff down when you're tired.
Hi. Well, today a pipe burst inside the wall and flooded the house. My computer got wet and I got really upset. Compy's fine now, just had to let it dry. I'm telling ya, I'm too attached to this thing, it's not healthy. So what have we learned today? Well, I learned that nothing lasts forever, that things aren't as bad as they seem, that I'm a tech freak who cries when my precious electronics get hurt, and also that dehumidifiers absolutely terrify me. Hmm, I think that's all. Yep.
You might as well stop making a big deal of me being up all night cause it doesn't look like it's changing anytime soon. I just thought I'd write stuff since I've got nothing else to do. What to write.. I don't know. Words.
This is my blog I guesses.
It's almost 4:30 in the morning right now. Been trying to sleep since midnight, but obviously I can't. So I will write.
Strict people make me very angry. I despise them. I want to smoosh them all like little sugar ants. SMOOSH THEM!!!
What's wrong with my sleeping schedule? I'm fine with it. Everybody else thinks it's weird.
Sunday, May 10th, 2009.
I've really been avoiding working on the site. It's been easy to avoid it though, I've been playing video games. I'm working on playing them less... I hope I can somehow get along with the web design soon cause my site looks awful. Aaahhh inspiration, where art thou?
Wednesday, May 6th, 2009.
Goodness, it takes me way too long to finish a layout.