Courtney Nicole She's an Angel now! * Courtney Nicole Davis Nov. 21, 1986-Nov. 14, 2006 - Young and Beautiful, Forever and Always!!!
3 years ago today I heard the same word that I had heard 5 1/2 years before - "CANCER". It is a word that stops your world from turning ... a word that causes time to stand still and all of the color to drain from your world ... a word that sucks all of the air from your lungs. I remember looking over at Court and my heart broke ... knowing what was in store for her and yet not knowing.
The past 3 years have been such a mix of emotions. It is still so hard for me to believe.
Court - I miss you with every cell in my body and I love you,
Mom
It’s been 26 months - 26 very long months since Court passed away. And, it still seems unreal to me - so strange. I have a hard time believing that this is my life - that I am living the unthinkable. Things have happened during the past 26 months that Court never knew about. I hear songs on the radio and think - Court would really like this song - - I watch a show on tv and think - Court would love this show - - I see clothes in the mall - smell new perfume fragrances - and think about Court.
Every morning before I leave for work, I go upstairs to say "Good Morning" to Ashley, Cash and Charlie. And every morning I can’t help but think how much I know Court would love to be there - spoiling them, hugging them … just loving them. I can’t help but think how proud she would be of her sister - who is following her dream and pursuing a nursing career. I can’t help but think how proud she would be of her brother who is following his passion.
I miss Court so very much - so much that it sucks the air from my lungs - so much that my heart feels like it will stop beating - so much that I sometimes wonder how I can continue to breathe. But then I make myself stop and think - about my family and what keeps me going - and I think about what Courtney endured with such grace and strength.
I am trying so very hard to stay strong. I told myself that this was going to be a better year and that I would get back on track. I want so badly to be positive about the future. I want to find joy in my life. I want to live my life.
Wishing Everyone a Very Blessed Christmas -
Please say a prayer for the warriors who are in the fight - and if you would also take an extra few minutes to visit carepages -colemanscott and leave a word of encouragement for this very brave little guy whose family's Christmas plans took a detour.
I would also ask for you to pray for the families who are trying to get through the day without one of the children.
Court, I miss you so much. Today my heart is a little more broken.....
love, Debbie
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