I created this website to inspire and comfort others. I know first hand how it is to get through a rough time. To sit back and watch someone you love especially your child fight to live is a very hard to say the least. I wanted a place for parents to find a shoulder to lean on, and know that they are NOT alone! Other people do care and prayer can work miracles. I hope to get prayer requests on here, also a prayer chain. So please take the time to look over this site, say a prayer for children like Angel.
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By Erma Bombeck
Most women become a mother by accident,
some by choice, and a few by habit.
Did you ever wonder how
mothers of children
with life threatening illnesses
are chosen?
Somehow, I visualize
God hovering over earth
selecting His instruments for progagation
with great care and
deliberation. As He observes,
He instructs His angels to make
notes in giant ledger.....
"Armstrong, Beth, Son,
patron saint Matthew"
"Forrest, Marjorie, daughter,
patron saint Cecilia"
"Rutledge, Carrie, twins,
patron saint Greard."
Finally, He passes a name
to an angel and says,
"Give her a child with cancer."
The angel is curious.
"why this one, God?
She is so happy."
"Exactly," smiles God,
" Could I give a
child with cancer a mother who
does not know laughter?
That would be cruel."
"But, does she have patience?"
asks the angel
"I dont want her to have too much
patience
or she will drown in a
sea of self-pity and despair.
Once the shock
and resentment wears off,
She will handle it."
"I watched her today,"
said God. "she has that feeling of self
independence that is so rare
and necessary in a mother.
You see, the child I am going
to give her has its own world.
She has to make it live in her world
and thats not going to be easy."
"But Lord, I don't think
she believes in you," said the angel.
"No matter, I can fix that.
This one is perfect,
She has just enough selfishness."
The angel gasps,"selfishness?
Is that a virtue?"
God nods."If she can't separate herself
from the child occasionally,
she'll never survive. Yes,
here is the women
I will bless with a child
less than perfect. She doesn't realize it yet,
but she is to be envied.
She will never take anything
her child does for granted. She will
never consider a single step ordinary.
I will permit her to see clearly
the things I see....
Ignorance, cruelty, predudice...
and allow her to rise above them."
"And what about her patron saint"
asks the angel,
his pen poised in mid air.
God smiles and says....
"A mirror will suffice."
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I remember watching TV and crying along with the parents of sick children. Never once did it cross my mind that I too will have my share of heartache. The first thought after my daughter Angel was diagnosed with cancer is "This can't be happening, this happens to other people" I fell to the floor in the most unbearable pain I have ever known. I thought back to the day she was born. How my husband and I left for the hospital as a couple, then returned as a family. How can I take her back to the hospital as a family, then return to my old life as a couple? I knew that was not an option. I felt so guilty and hopeless as my child faught for her life. Would I have traded places with her? Of course I begged God to do so. When my hope was almost lost a my mother-n-law told me "God doesn't give us more than we can handle" I thought how can I handle this? Then I began to realize that God knew me better than I knew myself. She also told me "You can't have a testament without a test" those words I now live by. Who would have thought that a child so small could teach so much about life. She taught me Faith, Love, Compassion, Understanding, and how to smile no matter how bad life seems. I must say this has made me a better person, I never take anything or anyone for granted. I learn now to take it one day at time.