Hi all,

Welcome to my humble webpage  Just some of the things I treasure in life, my thoughts my hobbies and some pictures. Well do enjoy and feel free to post any comments you have in the message board. Do hope you'll get to know a little more about me 

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30/1/05

My life is turning upside down.. I hate myself.. can't control my emotions.. my anger. I made my mum angry.. I must learn to control my anger.. Words that come out cut like knives.. I always realise it when it's too late..

29/1/05

I woke up today..I opened my eyes.. and as the reality of this world this life starts to seep into my senses.. I thought to myself.. "Why am I still alive?" Welcome back to hell..

25/1/05

Hmm I am a 多泪的男人.. Was watching the channel 8 show at 9 o'clock and there was this scene where Xiangxiang (played by Jeanette Au) was alone at home with no one to celebrate her bdae with and then she sat down n opened the present she got from her best friend (played by Michelle). Enclosed in the bdae card was actually a check of $8000 for ehr to go for the operation (to remove her Body Odour) that she had been dreaming of!! How sweet... I was actually moved to tears! I don't know why but touching moments like this always gets to me. Yah and I actually teared while watching titanic too. Hmm am I just in an emotional period now or is it just a reflection of how soft I can be? A friend of mine actually commented that guys shouldn't cry too much. Should not be too emotional at all. Maybe I need to see more of this cruel world to harden me up a little...

Anyway, here's a song which i have been listening to recently. An old song but very touching  and meaningful. Dedicate this to my close friends who have been with me through the years. You guys know who u are..  

23/1/05

A bro in need is a bro in deed. Thanks bro . Really enjoyed yesterday with ya. Good to have you join my family for dinner heh. Seemed a pretty small matter but this is what I like, simple things in life that I treasure and enjoy. I mean it feels warm (i dunno about u) to me that you are treated as a very close friend of the family heh  I sort of regret not having many of such opportunities with J when we were still together.. there was still so much in store and things we hadn't done... Anyway yeah and I enjoyed the 'Brudders talk" we had at coffee bean heh and of course the biscotti . I guess we are at a stage in our lives where we really have got to face up to the facts and make our stand like a man. And it ain't easy.. Saw many couples and youngsters all at chomp chomp and serangoon garden circus area having a good time. It's a sunday nite! Man everytime I see them I just feel so envious.. I want to be a ble to chill like them too ( Yes, QJDXJ I do want to chill you know ) But it's just so pathetic how I live so near and I don't go often. Nobody to go with. I don't lead a very happening life I guess. No HI-life. Get it? As in Hi-Bye the Hi. Not many close friends or chill friends. Except for bro heh   . I see what I yearn for in life in other people. Am I too superficial? Well not everything lah. I have yet to see people in yachts enjoying a bottle of fine champagne and strawberries.

I have not seen people living in a house on the top of a hill having a nice gathering with their long time friends and a little bbq. Many other things lah. Heh. But let's begin with Lesson 1 : How to Chill...

22/1/05

Yes it's rare for me to write twice in a day but I must get this off my chest. I feel old... Yeah, ancient. I'm an old fudy dudy. I can't accept female friends whom I know to wear bikinis! Not exactly cannot accept but yeah it's still a shocker to me. You know what I mean.. I'll feel that sudden feeling of guilt wrap around me and crush me (sounds like casey doing his thing heh ) like I've committed a sin (they too) by looking at them. I know there's nothing wrong but I guess it's the same old feeling I'll get next time (assuming I'll get married) when I look at my lil' girl (assuming I have a girl, which I do so want ) and suddenly I see this heavily maked-up lady wearing a low back anad telling me "Dad I'm going on a trip to the Bahamas with Jack, just the 2 of us" Hai it's the coming of age. Okay I agree the bikini thing is a little too much. no cause for such reaction from me..and NO it's different when I look at girls in bikinis cause they're either in magazines, posters or tv AND i don't know them! Ok but what about this?

Check this out : "My fiancee and her best friend agreed to have a threesome. With me!! I could use a little tactical information. What's your advice? - Dan K. " With all respect, lifted in all it's totality from Sep 2004 issue of Men's Health mag. What the!!  Help!!!  And it doesn't help that the reply he got from the columnist started with " I was in plenty of threesomes some years ago, and they all pretty much worked out the same way..."  !!

What's the world coming to? K i don't deny that deep inside some men, probably all men including me, we have this teeny weeny bit of desire to try such naughty things BUT! that belongs in the realm of fantasy no? I shall not comment further, I'll leave this open ended.. I can really go on and on. Maybe bottomline is I'm old lah.. BUT I REFUSE TO BE OLD!! i'LL TRY THREESOME THIS VERY NIGHT!!! Haha ok ok just joking..  In any case, I think I had better begin with bikinis first..

Will leave you guys with a tickler. Excerpt from the columnist in reply

"I've seen dozens of men enter this fantasy grinning and exit it feeling miserable. Here's why: No matter what your future wife says now, she will never forget the sight of you making love to her best friend, especially if you end up knocking her off the bed while you're doing it.."

22/1/05

I think I may have to forgo all outdoor sports which would cause me any prolonged exposure to the sun. Yeah, I get this prickly rash that breaks out once I'm under searing heat of the sun. Remnants of my heat rash from OCS?  Hai...I'm gonna be so deprived.. Say bye bye to suntan  Not like I like it alot or do it  alot but still it's sad..

18/1/05

Got the damsel back from Wenke. Thanks so much Wenke for taking care of it!  Yup finally rescaped my marine tank to make more viewing space for the 2 fishes now. Had lots of problems with the skimmer tho but finally settled it. Yup, do check them out, took pics  http://www.freewebs.com/kennethfish/marine.htm

17/1/05

It's official.. Wil's my No. 1 now! What do you mean who?? Wil! Wil fgs! Wil from Wil & Grace! Man homosexuality has never been this IN...

14/1/05

SPLITTING HEADACHE... help.. feel so miserable.. why do i feel so sick? I'm wasting away by the day.. Feel damn nua now....

13/1/05

Take away the words that rhyme..it doesn't mean a thing.. Well mood has changed yeah.. fast huh. problems problems problems.. Everyone possibly can give problems.. Everyone GIVES problems. If only there were more people to solve problems than to give problems. Life seems to have come to a standstill. It's rare but ya now i get sick of things I see. No not exactly what i want to say.. The things i see make me sick. Tired. From trying to decipher what's wrong with everything I see and how to solve it. Caught. Between the opposites in life and trying to moderate as well as i can. Lost. In this maze, this race where you are suppose to be gaining distance every moment yet you dont know what to do next. People take things too easily. Heck. It takes 2 to clap k. Friendship is a 2 way thing. I can't be trying to pick something up with just 1 chopstick. No and that something cannot be POKED THROUGH. Sheesh even my analogies suck now. Too many people to please. I'm a failure. Can't change the surroundings to suit me. Well but surroundings include people right? And how can u ever change people? You dont have the right to. I'm very tired of thinking. Every time when things seem to finally fit nicely. When there seems to be a logic and flow to it. Something has to come along and spoil the broth. Am I autistic? I don't really know how autistic people think but from what i read in "The curious incident of the dog in the night time" i just think they think too much. Er am i right? Er did i get the title right in the 1st place? Hmmm. And should book titles be in brackets? Hmm shucks I've frogotten all my punctuations and stuff. Do you really call it punctuations? Hmm... Ya and so I think I'm autistic cos I think I think too much. How i wish life would be more peaceful. there wouldn't be contradictions. Doubts. Ask a qn u get the answer. Ghost. Wanna be ghost.. wanna b ghost...

13/1/05

K quote of the day, sorrie S... 

s: "I noe how ur thing looks like..."

9/1/05

K I'm feeling terrible... but i want to write.. wanna pen down my thoughts b4 i forget.. it always happens. had a great time at Marche just now. Great to c Sum Yee n Andrew after so long. Andrew looked menacing at 1st but after talking to him, he is da same ole lad heh. Sum Yee too. Same meek gal but now obviously more vocal liao heh. The guys were talking to latecomer in no time heh. Good. So dat she wun feel awkward n also i can rest my voice. Towards e later part i wasn't really taking in the conversation but was deep in my own thoughts... I dunno.. felt very different fleeting emotions.. Hmm. I just felt reminded of the fact that love is not about jealousy but about sharing. Hai..cant really get it down in words.. You should not hold on to someone and want to possess him/her, it's not about having faith n confidence in yourself more importantly, it's too heavy a burden..too taxing to be always shielding n controlling your loved one from e outside world, from meeting people for fear of losing him/her. If you have to do that it really goes to show how unstable the relationship is. How untrusting. It's something I've gone thru many times with myself.. but well it just took a simple meal to know I can't do it yet.. I still have so much to prepare.. Jealousy happens to be one of the SEVEN sins btw ha.. Maybe it's in my nature. I'm a sinner...

26/12/04

Have seriously been lagging in my blogging. Much has happened. So much i feel lazy to write lah heh. Maybe will just breifly cover the past few days la. Firstly, I really wanna thank Wenke for helping me out so much with my baby steps into marine keeping. Wah thanks bro!  Heh..nice guy. My ShiFu hah. Finally setup my marine tank for cycling!!! Well met lots of probs on the way..but won't talk about it here la ha. I also managed to change the light for my freshwater tank. Cool white light, now the tetras look ever more delightful  My crayfish has been very gluttony recently. Gobbling anything that I drop into his lair. Papayas..lettuce..bloodworms..prawns..bread. It's really a sight to see it chew it's food. Met up with SQ and SY too for a great night out at Suntec. Ha really didn't expect to wind up at some bar at Far East Square. And what's more, I downed a shot! My first solo professional shot haha. *Gulp* haha just lidat. Cool eh  k k so I'm deprived. Oh yah and went down to support YZ at Club Rouge too. He was simply fantastic. Dream Theatre had never sounded so good. He ought to have claimed the 1st prize but Biskut, the 3 man band was awesome too. Totally... Quietest Christmas for me this year.. But my christmas dinner was great hee. Ham, sausage, log cake.. all in the comfort of home 

25/12/04

K GUYS ATTENTION

First of all, BLESSED CHRISTMAS!! I know I havent been updating my website for so long.. and for those who have been faithfully checking my website, I'm very sorrie for disppointing u for so long. News is I will be making major changes heh,  willf inally get down to redo and do my site nicely. Got to work ard this freewebs thing cos they got lots of limitations argh! Heh yah so akan datang ah kawans! 

3/12/04

Quote of the day:

海阔天空：“Play with my brother la"

3/12/04

It's been some time man.. If Melvyn hadn't reminded me, I wouldn't have known it's been so long since i wrote heh. Feeling mellow, dull now... Why are some people so rich? How do they make it? It seems you can go on forever comparing with other's wealth and you'd still not be satisfied... I mean sure, I'm blessed enough to have the want for money and not the need, but still..when I see how disgustingly rich some people are, there's always that tinge of inferiority and sadness... Maybe I just haven't met the person who can show me wealth is not that important, who can free me from this bondage/stronghold. It's the hard facts of life.. as I grow up, I begin to feel everyone is so obsessd with money, so judgemental of your wealth n status.. I admit, I am disgusted with myself for being drawn into this. Maybe it's the environment maybe the circumstances..

2/11/04

Sent my parents off to the airport in the wee hours of the morning today.. Hai.. I look forward to some 3 plus weeks of freedom but at the same time, I don't know why I always have this disturbing feeling.. 心很不安的感觉。。 It's at such times that you suddenly feel that anything can happen in this world and we really ought to treasure everyday and every moment spent with our loved ones. It seems that as I grow older, I worry more and more for my parents everytime they go overseas for hols or trips. It's no longer just about having total freedom in their absence but hoping that they have fun and no harm will come to them and most importantly, that they will come back safely and soundly...

Anyway, came back and slept and slept...and...slept.. Wah haha, now i really understand the meaning of "slept like Death.." Don't know why I was so tired! Maybe due to the long hours standing yesterday in the clinics and also for Das De's tutorial. I came back and slept till 11 or so I think, then after fumbling about, went abck to sleep til about 3pm!! K, so it is fated that I skip school today but there was nothing important.. My CG mates must hate me for self-declaring a 1 day hols haha, but I was really tired. Hols means no work right? True enough I lavished in dilly dallying and lounging around the whole of today. No Apley no ortho watsoever, which is VERY SINFUL... but as if I am normally so conscientious haha. Sauntered over to the prata shop opposite my house. Hmmm... nothing better than crisp pratas and a mug of hot teh tarik ona  rainy day like this... Heavenly! Came back and tidied up my desk, whacked Max Payne 2.

Later stil got to pick my sis up at her work place around 12 plus..

31/10/04

Just came back from shopping with my parents. Something very disturbing I observed on the streets. Man just in Suntec alone, I spotted at least 4 gay couples. They look good, they look hunky, they are very fashionable, they are well behaved and well mannered..but there is just something not right you see.. Just something wrong with the picture. Am I really that parochial? What age are we living in now? Hmm...I'd say definitely The Age of Uncertainty..we're probably uncertain about our sexuality...

30/10/04

Wah haha. Wanna hear a 冷笑话？ Courtesy of Dabian... Man he is ultimate..

30/10/04

Just came back from J's bdae. Wah haha I'm really beginnning to enjoy the guys' bdae parties ha. J's was exceptionally fun heh. Well to start off, I always go crazy at the pool table haha. It's like the MASK played by Jim Carrey. I'd transform into this Hao Lian Gia and piss everyone off with my arrogance haha, but it's soooo much fun!! Patpong's legs are weak with too much of nocturnal activity the night before, probably explains his disgusting timing of 6 plus minutes today in the speed pool challenge haha. Then there was food and talk and GOSSIP. For some reason I'm beginning to realise Med people love gossips haha. What with Wenke and his CGH gossips plus what is this I hear??? HS is gonna start blogging soon??? Har? What's the title? Oh... BITCH CENTRAL. Ah hahaha... Interesting. I must say I have one of Med Fac's most powerful gang of gossipers ah haha. And then there's the famous trio M, C, MY. It's just hilarious looking at MY and his bearie good looks haha. C is...yar.. C haha. M reminds me of Lucy Liu. Cool and sharp and quick and funy too ha.  

27/10/04

Here are some words of wisdom and food for thought from a good friend..JT

25/10/04

Happy Birthday 朱茵  Hope you'll have a wonderful time and many happy returns of the day! Hai...actually ever since I watched 射雕 back in my sec sch days, I've since forgotten about you. I can still remember then, I was so infatuated with you. Yeah, a huge part of it had to do with your brilliant acting as 黄容. You had really brought life to the character with your superb acting skills. Now, I'm again reminded of you as I watched the serial all over again in the past week. I must say it was a trip down memory lane... But I guess this time its different. Different in a sense that I've grown up, perhaps more mature and I know now that the character and the actor are totally different, and perhaps even more importantly, the whole story is but a fantasy, a fictitious legend and that this life has got no place for such dreams and fantasies... I don't know why these 武侠小说weild such great influence over me. Everytime i finish watching or reading one, I seem to not be myself.. you know the kind of feeling where you feel detached from this world and you long so much to be in that era living among those characters. I guess it's not a bad thing as in people can momentarily be lost in this fictitious world and get some solace and escapism. I still am mesmerised by your beauty and wonderful portrayal of 黄容 and I believe I'll always be each time I watch the show, however I've come to face the fact that you are after all an actress and that you may not in real life be anywhere similar to the character. It is the character that I admire and adore, not you. Still I am very curious, what kind of a person are you? It is interesting how people become interested in a particular actor or actress just because their role in a certain fim or show has touched them. As I said character and the actor are 2 different entities but still there's something that draws people to want to find out more about the actor/actress whom they have never noticed.

Anyway Athena I hope your current BF Paul treats you well. God Bless!

This song brings back nostalgic feelings for me and I dedicate it to you. Cheers 

sdyxz2-2.rm

24/10/04

Hai... Hols have come to an end. Actually it's just 1 week. But well in this week, I discovered a 人生大乐趣---watching TVB 武侠剧. Wah, it's really a very relaxing and enjoyable thing man, to lie back on my bed and watch the series in the comfort of my room. Actually I've watched 射雕英雄传 on TV back in 1998 I think. I can still remember waiting for Mondays to come and I would be in such a good mood throughout the whole day. But now it's a totally different experience because I have all 44 episodes in my hands and I can just go on watching disc after disc HAHAHA, no more waiting painfully for the next episode. Wah...really 人生一大享受，to lie in bed and follow the story throughout the whole day. You can call it a VCD marathon haha. And I finished the whole serial in just 3 days!!

However, the bane of getting started on such serials is that when I reach the end, there's always this profound sense of sadness and feeling so lost... You know like, suddenly there's nothing else to look forward to. The curtain's drawn, the show has ended, the light's off. Hai... And as if the 打击 is not big enough, I just found out that 朱茵（who acted as 黄容） is with Beyond's lead singer. I don't know but I think she deserves someone better? The fella's 40 for goodness sake... But well alot of the celebrities lead very 杂lives.. Cohabitating..Drugs.. 

22/10/04

Wow. Feeling super high now. Eh.... haha!! My opening line  <-------  was exactly the same as the previous entry . Deja vu. Anyway I feel compelled to update my website ( I still maintain that it's a website not a blog) because I just found out that EW has a blog and she has linked my website too. How sweet . Now I have 2 links to my website, the other courtesy of So that means people may actually pop into my website and which means I have to 整理 my website abit and start updating it. And yah unfortuantely I'm not part of the big family at blogspot so q difficult to add links to theirs. But I'll try..

LiQi  http://florecitos.blogspot.com/

Delice  http://toastnkaya.blogspot.com/

Hong Yee  http://www.chillamee.blogspot.com/

On SgI

Frankly speaking i enjoy watching SgI not because of the contestants but because of the judges. I mean yeah in the beginning it's exciting and interesting to find out more about the contestants; trying to understand what kind of a person he or she is, but after a while we all find their styles all too familiar. The sense of excitement and surprise is no longer there. Maia is our hot sexy dance robot pop queen whose moves are starting to appear rather familiar week after week. Her genre of music is so obvious. Likewise for Sylvester and Daphne. Can anyone tell me why the supporters spell it SLY??? It's driving me nuts. SLY is pronounced as sss-ler-I. It doesn't sound anywhere near SYL-vester. I don't know about the chap but I certainly don't like people calling me sly. The one contestant who has started off very well trying to maintain that level of suspense and excitement is probably Olinda. She has managed to capture attention by enticing viewers and the audience with her promise of some feminine transformation which would culminate in her wearing a skirt. i think her strategy has been very successful, even with the judges! But nah, I don't buy it man. What's the big deal? In the first place I wouldn't want to see her try her hand at being feminine.. Yes I always advocate more feminity in women, but since you have been this way for more than half yr life, why bother to change? I would rather she maintain her uncouth tom boy image, though frankly, one which people are getting quite sick off at least in Singapore. Soon my friends, soon, all the hype will die down after the whole thing and people will realise how silly it has been. K I'v really digressed alot. yeah back to the judges. So as the novelty of the contestants wears off, I started to turn to the judges. To my surprise I found them more entertaining than the performers. With the passing of each week, I find that they are more and more like a bunch of CLOWNS. Dick's the worst. He's a total joke. Sometimes I really wonder if he knows what he is saying. I mean if you don't have anything to say or comment or if being the first judge to comment gives yr Pentium 486- 64Mb SDram- brain too little time to churn out anything that makes sense, shut up. Douglas O...hai, soemtimes I really pity him. It seems that he just cannot connect with other genres of music. He has a low tolerance of and capacity to appreciate any other types of music other than rock. At times, he just looks as if he is desperately trying to squeeze some comments and like Dick's they are often . And do you all notice most of the time, the comments by the judges are simply too vague. So vague they remind me of those cheapo daily horoscopes that try to sound mysterious and give vague implications of yr life such that anything can seem to be a fulfillment of a prophecy. poor contestants, each episode, they are faced with 4 bogus charlatans trying to dish out fanciful fortune telling strips. Brudders! Jokers lah.....

30/9/04

Wow. Feeling super high now. Dor just gave me n M a super heavy dose of CHOCS!! Ahh!! Chocs r aphrodisiacs u guys know? Heh it was a fun nite out! Had nice dinner at Thai Express with da rest of the guys. Talked about the usual memories of HCJC again heh. And then we had this very nice ice cream also at Paragon Basement before we left. Just me M n Dor. It was really warm to just share a cup of ice cream with frens n chat. I mean it may seem like a very trivial thing but the joy derived from that few moments is unimaginable... Really felt close and warm again... And we proceeded to Serangoon Gardens to have coffee bean but the manager told us they'd be closing in 10  mins. So we sauntered over to this Hainanese Restaurant which has just opened. Ha and we ordered a few dishes just to munch. Funny thing, Dor actually under the pretence of going to the toilet, wanted to pay but M n I pre empted her and paid first haha. Then I sent Dor back but we stayed in the car in the carpark at her block listening to all the songs on my CD in the car ha. Actually if M had not commented, I wouldn't have noticed how crisp and clear my sound system is! Heh learnt to appreciate a good sound sytem. Yah and finally after like half an hr we went up to Dor's pl cos i was going to leak! And that was where the action began... She whipped out her chocs.. approached us silently from the lateral...slid open the cover and SHOVED the CHOCS in our FACE!! Haha but boy were they good  Me and M 不知不觉almost finished the entire tin ok. And that's e reason y I'm so high now. It's 3.10am n I'm still up!

PLease help ex convicts lead anormal life. This is a sincere appeal to all those who look down and ostracise jailbirds, drug addicts, the fallen.. Come on! Give them a second chance. Who has never made mistakes in their life? If we are condemned just for a mistake in life, how sad is this world? Of course you may say it also depends on the severity of the mistake. It is easy to forgive a child who has lied. However we should be mindful that by forgiving and accepting those who had committed great sins, it just goes to show how big a heart we have and how magnanimous and loving we can actually be. It says alot about ourselves too... So please.. support the once fallen, give the repented a second chance and for once be a true loving being..

P/S: D'you guys know why is it the campaign of yellow ribbon? Haha I didnt get it at first too but after a while...the oldie "tie a yellow ribbon around the ole oak tree" began to ring in my mind. 

16/9/04

BENJAMIN ROCKS! Man I don't understand what's with the judges. It's like a domino effect they're so unoriginal. I seriously doubt if they know what they are saying. Once Dick sets e trend then our Lian will just parrot... Douglas well he has his own views but eh tends to be too grouchy. Come on lah give'em a chance! Dick!! How dare you say Benjamin was out of pitch! If even I as a guy liked his stuff, this must show that he has got something! Man...

2/9/04

The thing about blogs is you've got to censor a lot of the stuff you wanna say cos you never know who is reading.. That's why i hate blogs. Imagine having your diary online for everyone to see! Saw a Jacelyn Tay special on channel 5 during dinner. Hmm she could well be the perfect YSS if not for her icyness. Oh man, she drives a BMW 7 series.. Pan Lin Lin who is still looking ever so good even when she's into her late 30s is my next choice but her features are not pure and "neng" enough. Oh well, SY you are still the director's top pick! Haha  K I got lots of things to do over the weekend and guess what?!?! My Yi Tian is back in the video rental shop!! Woo hoo! Oh dear, now really beginning to ahve 2nd thoughts about starting on this serial.. will I have time? Especially with so much to do... But I can't live without my YSS..

On overseas relationships..

I think it's really kinda difficult.. I mean people already have problems when they are seeing each other everday, how to endure the miles? Think it takes a super strong relationship you know. SY if you ask me again and now that I've had time to think about this issue, I think yes couples can survive such long distance thing PROVIDED they have not just started. I mean the first few months or years ( I can't really put a cut-off ) are pretty crucial to a relationship. I mean I'm always a practical person...sometimes too practical (but at times too unrealistic). The way I see it. If you shelter a seedling and let it grow up to be a strong and healthy tree, it can definitely survive any harsh winds or storm. Likewise, a deep-rooted relationship reinforced with trust that emaniates from a long-standing strong understanding between both parties can most definitely survive like what 6 months/a year apart or even 2! However if the trial comes even before the seedling can take root, what are the chances of its survival? Sorry I'm a very superficial person. This is what i think lah.. If you have just started out as in the example you quoted me, think it's gonna cause more harm than benefit. Really need time to "fa zhan fa zhan" and get to know each other and find out all the things you love him or ehr for. This kinda love is stronger. But there's really no harm in letting the other party know about your feelings (before you go overseas or sth) and you must be clear that it's different from starting a relationship. Example : got a friend who likes this guy, they know of each other's feelings but the girl wanted to wait til like after A-levels to further develop anything they have. So ya theoretically they have not started, but they know of each other's place in their hearts. Aiyah i should really stop rambling about relationships and what little I know. It's such a touchy subject.. 问世间情为何物...

28/08/04

Hmm went for JT''s party. Surprise party suppose to be ha. But think she was pleasantly surprised lah. Wah really think she has good friends who take the trouble to give her a surprise party. But think she was prob already up in the clouds lah with Divad on the set heh. Went with WD, ha got a huge dose of WD humour again. But well did get to know more about him  The MAN behind the joker face heh. Find that I've got a decreasing tolerance for weird people... It's really bad.. hai. How can I be more accommodating towards others?? I'm getting from bad to worse.. Life's just tough. Anyway, strangely, after seeing JT with Divad, I felt a strong sense of relieve? Am very happy for her  . Just felt a very "alone" kind of 感觉。 Which I like very much. heh autistic kids (like Christopher in "the curious incident of the dog in the night-time") often like to have this feeling of being alone too. I often imagine myself with a huge backpack and walking along a long and winding dusty road with the wind of uncertainty and change blowing in my face... Such vignettes constantly provide me some form of wellness heh psychologically...

26/08/04

Just watched the singapore idol. Ha man really beginning to like some of them. People like Dwayne and David. Very amicable faces always smiling. Makes you feel at ease. Hmm think they'll definitely be talent scouted if they can't be the Idol. Olinda is really a "Made in Singapore". So obvious... and I'm not even saying she has a QC stamp... Hmm, no harsh feelings, just feel that SI should be a little more presentable, have a little more depth in character. Dick is a dick. And Douglas O is a tad too "ÒÐÀÏÂôÀÏ". Ken please say masses in stead of mass can? Wah make me thing of lumps and bumps as in GS when u say "mass". Anyway fyi, both mean the same thing and can be used but masses will bring people faster to the actual meaning of "the people". Er, the other lady judge...hmm wats the name...Ah..Bah! Doesn't matter. Damn this is really starting to be like a blog... Eww..

LiQi's blog                                      http://florecitos.blogspot.com/

HongYee aka Wenke's blog           http://www.chillamee.blogspot.com/

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