This writing is probably a bit strange...was just feeling nostalgic and bothered by my lack of activity and direction at the current time. It's easier to figure out what you think sometimes if you just write it down and work through it. (Sorry about the formatting, can't do it)

Sitting here

Just wishing time would stop

Or at least slow down

Just not ready for the next step

And wasn’t ready for the last few I took

I know what I need to do

What I want to do

But can’t bring myself to do them

Scared that if things change

They’ll get that little bit worse

I’ve got no excuses

I’m not in a special situation

My problems have been dealt with millions of times before

By people all over the world

It isn’t regrets that bother me

It’s just the knowledge

That things happen that can’t be recaptured

And that things won’t happen

Unless I get over the past

A past that I don’t want to let go of

Will never want to let go of

Letting go can lead to forgetting

And I can’t take that chance

Those memories define me

Make me who I am

Who I was, and who I want to be

So I’ll just do my best to carry on

Deal with things not by getting over my past

But keeping it in my heart

Knowing whatever I do now

Can never change what has already been done

I find myself here still staring at you

Racking my brains thinking what I can do

I can’t begin to imagine

You know what I’m feeling

I’ve told you I love you and believe that it’s true

Dreaming of spending my whole life with you

But there’s something I can’t escape from

And don’t even want to

So if you want the truth I guess it’s fine with me

To understand my love you’ll need my history

So be prepared

It won’t be that easy

I’ve got no heart to break

Not too much love left to take

You’re not moving too fast

But I’m stuck in the past

It went four years ago

And it’s showing no signs of coming back

I’d like it if you held on to see where my life takes me

But I’d better warn you I’ve seen no changes lately

And I don’t ever expect

To fully recover

I’ve got no heart to break

Not too much love left to take

You’re not moving too fast

But I’m stuck in the past

It went four years ago

And it’s showing no signs of coming back

(This is probably not very good...I just wanted to try writing a song that wasn't entirely about relationship feelings)

I want to write a song but keep myself to myself

But what’s the point in writing if it gives me no help

I like to find out what I think by writing it down

But I don’t want my secrets spreading all over town

So I sit in my room wondering what I can say

Like I need to make sure that I avoid any hate

Anything personal I’ll let slip right by

I’ll create an image, say I’ve snorted a line

On a night out I pull 20 times

Take 5 of them back; stay up all through the night

I’ll boast to my friends about my sexual stunts

Get out my phone and show the pics of their…(Interrupted by…)

…What the hell’s the point in saying all this?

What’s there to get from lyrics that take the piss?

I’m wasting my time writing all of these lies

Here are some truths, fuck that stereotype

On a night out I smile politely

Find somewhere to sit and drink my pint quietly

Talk to my girlfriend, with whom I’m exclusive

Forget all those tarts; I want a relationship

I asked you a question that you didn’t want to answer

It’s been a week now and I haven’t heard back from you

I just want to know what you are thinking

I’m beginning to wonder what I must have been drinking

To think I’d get a good response from you

I’ve tried once before I’m on attempt number two

This time you got roses and a message as well

Any reply would be better than this hell

So come on and help me out

'Cause in my mind I have got no doubts

I know that I need you

And I know that you know it too

I just need to know where I stand in your eyes

Come on and tell me if my dreams are all lies

If you tell me the truth I can start to accept

The way things are and try to lose my regrets

But still you refuse to dash all my hopes

I’ve tried for some time but I’m struggling to cope

With all these emotions that I’ve had to endure

Never knowing if you’re a part of my future

So come on and help me out

'Cause in my mind I have got no doubts

I know that I need you

And I know that you know it too

I asked you a question that you didn’t want to answer

It’s been a week now and I haven’t heard back from you

I just want to know what you are thinking

I’m beginning to wonder what I must have been drinking

To think I’d get a good response from you

I’ve tried once before I’m on attempt number two

This time you got roses and a message as well

Any reply would be better than this hell

I just need to know where I stand in your eyes

Come on and tell me if my dreams are all lies

 If you tell me the truth I can start to accept

The way things are and try to lose my regrets

But still you refuse to dash all my hopes

I’ve tried for some time but I’m struggling to cope

With all these emotions that I’ve had to endure

Never knowing if you’re a part of my future

I just need to know where I stand in your eyes

Come on and tell me if my dreams are all lies

If you tell me the truth I can start to accept

I try to write ‘bout something else than you

I wonder what else I could do

If I didn’t waste all my time

Building hopes and dreams

Just to have them torn down

I’d like to get out and go for a drink

It would be great just to have a think

About something different

Rather than just you

And all of this heartache

But I just can’t get off your scent

Even though my aims are all well meant

Throughout all this time

I’ve got a one-track mind

So moving on isn’t an option

Even though staying here’s not fun

I’d like to leave this all behind

Anything at all

That reminds me of you

But I just can’t get off your scent

Even though my aims are all well meant

Throughout all this time

I’ve got a one-track mind

I see you everyday

But I don’t know what to say

To let you know…Just what I want now

I try to get it out

But I’m too scared to shout

My love to you…’cause I don’t know if you’re interested

Just give me a break

Oh give me a chance

To take you for a meal…Or even to dance

I might not be the best

But I’m out to impress

‘Cause you…are more than worth it

Oh, just let me in for a while

Let me see that smile-on-your-face

My heart starts to race

My dreams run away

And I just want to say

How much I need you

And how I’m still after you

How much I crave you

But still I can’t get to you

‘Cause I’m too shy…So you just walk on by

My nerves are a wreck

And I’m stuck in a rut

So much you need to know…but I haven’t got the guts

Need to know how I feel

See my emotions for real

And then you’ll know…just what I’m going through

Oh, just let me in for a while

Let me see that smile-on-your-face

My heart starts to race

My dreams run away

And I just want to say

How much I need you

And how I’m still after you

How much I crave you

But still I can’t get to you

‘Cause I’m too shy…So please stop walking on by

Flowers - A James Harding Poem


I am me,

You are you,

I bought some flowers,

Just for you.


I found out,

I had no chance,

I was so sad,

I wet my pants.


The flowers,

in their pot,

were left dying,

left to rot.


My urine,

that was spilled,

made the soil acidic,

fllowers easily killed.


But shock,

a new girl on the scene,

and she is,

not so mean.


My flowers,

will surprise her

so off to the garden centre,

for fertilizer.

He sees the life he wants,  

He knows it's in his sights,       

Of course it won't be easy,     

But he knows it's worth the fights.

The dream of love and happiness,       

The dream of peace and joy,

Everything he could have wished for,  

Since being a little boy.

He's had this sort of chance before,  

And watched it pass him by, 

The thought of his own stupidity,      

Could almost make him cry.

Love doesn't grow on trees,   

It blossoms from a flower,

But if he doesn't plant the seed, 

His dreams will soon turn sour.

He's had this sort of chance before,

And watched it pass him by,

But this time he will take his chance,

Or else his hopes will die.                                                                                                                        

I long to be loved

To be cared for, to be hugged

To be special- be the one

Who someone sees as their private sun

To lift them in the morning

To tuck them in at night

To be their guiding star

Whenever there's a fright

To open  up and share

With one whom I can really bare

my soul, my fears

And help dry up my tears

One who means the world to me,

(that is, outside my family)

and stays here for eternity

Helps prove to me that romance isn't dead

And remains with you in heart and head

Shows me what it is to yearn,

and, as my soulmate, helps me learn,

My coyness isn't cute or clever

But as an obstacle means I never

Find intimacy that I dearly need

To love and to be loved would be enough indeed!