I am a 44 year old female,I have been married for going on 27 years,I have 2 daughters Christina age 26 and Cheyenne age 24,I have 1 son Donald Bonham 2nd (Bubba) he would be 23 right now ,but he was killed in an auto accident at age 18 on august31,2003 I miss him so very much! Bubba's 2 cousins Michael age 23 and Haley age 11 were also killed in the accident along with him.I have 2 grandchildren Nathan is 5 and Alyssa is 1 ! I was beaten by my daddy when I was 5 years old on up,I was also mentally abused by him,I learned to forgive him a few years before he died in 2001.I was raped by a boyfriend when I was 15 (he was 21)my parents should never allowed me to date someone so much older than me! I was pregnant by age 16, married and gave birth to my first daughter by age 17.
My husband had severe brain damage from a motorcycle wreck in July of 1990 he was 28 at the time and I was only 25,he had to be taught everything all over again,I was the one that took on this very hard task,all 3 of my children were still in elementary school at the time!
I worked in the medical field for several years and I loved working with the mentally retarded at the state school,they are all still very special to me.
I believe that what does not kill you, just makes you stronger!!!
I have several websites:
www.freewebs.com/ellansworld
www.freewebs.com/bubbamemorial
www.freewebs.com/candice15
www.myspace.com/texasmomma1

What helps me to cope with things is to write poetry and I have written tons of it and I am writing a book right now

you can read my poems and the first 4 chapters of my book at the link below!

http://allpoetry.com/TexasMomma

Ok here I am a grieving mother,my son Donald Rene Bonham 2nd (Bubba)was killed in a wreck at age 18 along with his cousins Haley age 11 and Michael age 23,a 16 year old young lady was also killed in this wreck she left a 4 month old son behind and Michael left a 2 year old daughter and 8 month old son behind.

The wreck happend August31,2003 but it still feels like it was just yesterday!It hurts every day knowing my son is gone and I will never see him get married or have children,he was our only son.

We have 2 daughters Christina is 26 and Cheyenne is 24,we have 1 grandson Nathan he is 5 and he has a baby sister Alyssa she is 1!

My life will never be the same again,it is like you have to try and change everything in your life,I will never be happy again although sometimes I can smile or laugh.

Some days the pain of my son being dead is harder than others,like a roller coster that never stops!

A lot of family and friends think I should be over it,but the truth is I will never be over it because I can not go back and change the fact he was killed!

I really do not expect anyone to understand my pain unless they too have lost a child.

I would love to leave this world and I probably already would have if my daughters,husband and grandchildren did not need me so much and I am still here thanks to my friends I have met on the internet that have also lost a child and the ones who have not lost a child but try to be supportive and understanding.

The holidays are really tough!!!!!

View my poetry at Allpoetry

This is a picture of me and my husband (my son Bubba is above us)

My son was killed at age 18 in a vehicle accident Aug.31,2003,

we miss him very much and I made this website for Candice because she

was friends with my son.

This is My son Donald Rene Bonham 2nd (Bubba)

This is a picture a sweet lady framed for me

of my treasures of the last day of my son's life!

A PIECE OF YOU