After all, I am working on making myself over.

No excuses, no bullshit, just me.

And if you don't like that.....well....

I'm not sorry!     

I've spent most of my life trying to please others.  Now it's time to make myself happy and do what I enjoy.

I have discovered that I love activity....running, racquetball, kickball, tennis, swimming, you name it.

So, here is a quick background on me.

I wasn't fat growing up, not a little bit, not at all.  I thought I was (but that's another story for another day).

When did I start gaining weight?  Back when I started college.  Gone were the structured mealtimes, coming in was the once to twice daily fast food meals.  I didn't gain much at first because I was still an active individual.

Then....I became sedentary, and my eating habits didn't change.  That's when I gained about 50 lbs in about a year and a half.  Not pretty.

But, after enough talk - I decided it was time to take action.  I joined Weight Watchers.  I gave it a try, lost about 13 pounds fairly quickly.  Then, I went on vacation and gained it all back.

Time for try #2 after maintaining 186lbs for about 6 months.  That went about the same way...except I didn't lose even 10 pounds.

Now I'm on try #3.  I will get it this time, I truly will.

The difference this time is that I found exercise.  I found running.  I love to run. 

So, we will see how it goes, but hopefully with some hard work, luck, and a positive attitude - my fat will decide to not stay in my company any longer.  After all, I'm sick of it - now it's time to prove it.