6-29-05

Damm...it's been a while, huh? Unfortunatly, I have no updates for you people. But I do have a rant. And it concerns E-fiction.

For those of you who know the whole deal going on at E-Fiction.org, then you'll understand what I'm about to talk about. If not, then you'll learn when you go there.
I am sure that most of you that come to this site come from E-fiction. I noticed an increase of visits once I put the link to this site up on my proflie there out in the open. Anyways, here's what I need to rant about. And I apologize here and now if I offend anyone in the process, and for my French, but I am really digusted with the way people are acting right now, and, hey; this is a free country, this United States of America. So, I can express my opinion freely on this issue.

I don't know why so many of you are making a big deal out of the anonymous reviews, a good author doesn't need reviews because she/he *already* know their fics are great. The best authors I know write from their hearts to please no one else, but them selves. You are your greatest critic. That statement above was made by Teddy, in her second post in response to all the anti-Mezzy comments. While in a way that's too true, some authors -I being one of them- need the reviews for clearence.
Now, I am not saying that I disagree with her, I am just saying that for some people, they can think they are good writers all they want; but just themselves saying it won't cut it. I just started to re-read my fics and actually enjoy them. Before, I was afraid to read over my stories and be disappointed in what I wrote. But, with some of the reviews I got, it truly inspired me to go and read over my fics - and enjoy them - and I lost that fear of losing something that linked me to my deceased father; the fear of walking the path he put me on and not being able to fufill his -or my own- dreams of being a writer. For example:

soccerchic91588 January 08 2005 - 11:11PM 9: Chapter8: It's Showtime! Signed
Damn, you sure do know how to leave a cliffy, lol. And, I'm sorry that that one chic left that one review.. That's never happened to me, but I would be a bit pissed if it ever did. Anywho, you are SUCH an awesome writer! I love reading your story.. Don't quite know if you have anymore (note to self; see if there are more stories), ahem, yeah, I've just read the chappie with the mystery Shadow Realm summon thingy. yeah.. lol, well, hope you can update soon :) Beverly

I've gotten numerous amounts of reviews stating that I am an awsome writer, how the reviewers love my fics, and the like. I've even gotten a few reviews stating that I inspired people to write. I can't even explain in words how that makes me feel. Now that I got that off my chest, I just want to state that I am netural in the 'war' that is going on at E-fiction. Which leads me to my next topic of discussion.

I am not taking sides in this animalistic war. I see the problems from both angles; Mezzy is banning the anonymous reviews for good reason, and the some writers are rebelling because the believe it's unfair. Mezzy is making new rules for the site for good reason; to make it a better place for the authors. What benifit does she get out of it besides to pay for the site with her own money? I have my own site (obviously, if you're reading this) , but I don't pay for it. But I can say for a fact that it is a pain in the ass to keep up with, even if it is free, so I can just imagine what it is like to be actually paying for it. Now for those of you who are acting immature and calling Mezzy a whore, and anyone who supports her bitches *coughOki_Julecough*, then I have four words to say to you Grow. The Fuck. Up. I am so sick of hearing all this bullshit about Mezzy; you're judging a person you don't even know in a very uncivilized way, and frankly, you're acting like friggin animals.
Now, if any of you who were acting like children about this issue are reading this, you're probably like "Oh, lookit her; she's being a hypocrite!" -which I doubt you would use those words, based off of what I have see of your coversational skills- then all I have to say is; look at you. You guys are sitting there, calling someone you don't even know a "bitch" and a "whore", just because you can't get your own fucking way. That's ridiculous! And it's human nature to fight back! So, of course you are going to be judge on the way you handle the situation; THAT IS WHY YOU ARE BEING CALLED IMMATURE CHILDREN!

As for why I am calling you animals, it's because you're ACTING like them. The human race may think they are the smartest things on the planent, but in reality, they aren't. A doliphin -which is a mammal, the same as a human- is just as smart. And, human CAN go back to their animal instincts. For example, in a life or death situation. But this isn't a life or death situation. So stop acting like rabid animals and attacking poor Mezzy, and act like a civilized human being! For God Sake's, are you human, or animal?
The point I am trying to make is that you're making a big deal over something so small that could be discussed in a civilized manner. It's all just drama bullshit, really I have enough drama in my life; I don't need drama on a site that I can post my work and actually be happy. Honestly, no one needs that. We all have enough problems of our own to deal with, and we don't need something so insignificant as a rule to cause stress on our lives. Without even knowing it, you're playing a game right now; the game called Life. And with every game comes rules. You either follow them and win, or break them and lose. Despite the fact that you may not like some of the rules, you need to do the best you can with it. Why? Becasue Life is unfair, and Life can be cruel; you don't want it to be cruel, so deal with it to the best of your ability. Shit happens. Life goes on. Deal with it. And for good riddance, get the fuck over it.

We are staritng a pointless war on E-fiction, and frankly, I'm getting sick of it. And I'm sure I'm not the only one. If you can't deal with the new rules so much that you have to lash out at Mezzy, then just do everyone a favor and get the fuck out. MEzzy was gracious enough to keep the site up and running, for US, THE AUTHORS. She could have just let the site go, and shut it down. God knows *I* would have by now, with all this drama bullshit and people running their mouths. But now, she kept it up for us, so we could have a good community of authors able to post all sorts of stories with all sorts of catgories on there for free. From CYOA's to a kiddy cartoon. And this is how we repay her? By disrupting a once peaceful community with a pointless 'war'? I'm really disappointed and disgusted with people I call "my fellow writers" who have made rude comments towards Mezzy and taken this issue WAY out of hand. I really am. It makes me sick to think that people could be this cruel to someone who's just trying to make this site a better place for us. Personally, there isn't a better site out there to place your works than E-fiction. I have accounts at Freedom Of Speech Fan Fiction (fosff.net) AND AnimeSpiral (animespiral.com), and they suck, in my opinion. I have NO reviews for ANY of my stories, on AS, and of FOSFF, I have TWO reviews on one of my most popular fics there. That's a sad, sad thing, compared to all the reviews I have at E-fiction.

So please, I ask you all; just please, please drop this. A little quote: ~
People Change

Things Go Wrong

Shit Happens

But Life Goes On

Please take that to heart. I really don't want to have to find another site becasue of some people's immaturaity and stupidity on a rather pointless issue that could have been solved with a few civilized opinions instead of becomign a full blown out war. If you would like to comment on any of this, then you're welcome to do so at the journal I'm providing. This will be posted there as well. Once agian, I'll leave the link.
Bonita's Journal

Thank you for your time.