Diary 1999 - 2002

While I haven't been writing the actual words of Our Lord I have been making brief notes of certain things for my own use and some of these are written below. These Gifts continue to the present day. Every day I learn more about the many wonderful Gifts which Our Lord and Our Lady have given to holy Church and of the many Blessed people who received them and passed them to us. Today I see Saint Therese of Lisieux near me. I now understand better than I did at the beginning about Divine Blessings given since the founding of holy Church and the intimacy of Our Lord with His children on earth. I am never for a moment removed from the sad knowledge of the very intense Sufferings of Our dear Lord and of Our Lady. Throughout this time of learning I have been allowed to discuss the different situations that arise politically and internationally every day. At times it seems that war is everywhere. There is killing in all places and a very great Apostasy. Our Lord is calling each one to prayer, repentance of sin, fasting and penance. It is not His wish that even one soul be lost to Him. He wishes us to live in peace and in holy Love, as one family in the loving care of Our Heavenly Father. We must ask forgiveness for our sins and for the sins of the world and return to Love Itself, who is Our God and Father, our Messiah and Saviour, our Refuge and Salvation.

I saw Saint Anthony of Padua walking in the cloisters while reading an illuminated bible.

I was shown the Icon of Our Lady of Sorrows.

An icon of the Christ Child, and from it the hands of the Christ Child were extended towards a man who appeared to be in sin. The Christ Child held out a Golden Book to mankind and He spoke the words - 'Be Peace, Make Peace'.

There is war today again between Israel and Palestine.

I was blessed to see Saint Therese of Lisieux.

The Papal pilgrimage to the Holy Land ended today. While in prayer, I saw Pope Pius XII standing beside me and later I received a vision of Pope John Paul II and Pope Paul VI.

Today again I was blessed to see dear Padre Pio in my room, smiling and happy and I remembered how, several years ago, both Padre Pio and Saint Francis of Assisi had appeared before me on a cloud, speaking the words 'Veni, amore'.

I see the statue of Our Lady in the convent in Akita. It is weeping.

I see Vicka in Medjugorje.

Today Our Lord revealed to me that Saint Jude, Saint Bartholomew and Saint Timothy had all been killed by the sword in Asia

Dear Padre Pio stood beside me again today as he often does. God be praised.

When I spoke with Our Lord today about Joseph Stalin and the slave labour camps in Russia I clearly saw the holy Wounds on my hands. Services are being held today in Russia and Poland to commemorate the lives and sufferings of the victims of this evil.

Today I read that Our Lord had granted the Great Blessing to be a victim soul to Sister Maria Natalia of Hungary in 1940. Our Lord told her that He would not rest until Our Lady was acknowledged as the Victorious Queen of the world.

Following this I was blessed to see a Crown of twelve gold stars above the head of a statue of Our Lady. The twelve gold stars represent the Holy Apostles.

In a holy vision I saw the Church of the Nativity in Bethlehem. Upon a pillar in the church is painted the Face of Christ. I saw real tears flow from the eyes of this painting.

While in prayer I was shown a vision of The Divine Mercy with blood pouring from the Sacred Heart of Our Lord. Frequently I see [on my picture of the Divine Mercy] that tears flow from Our Lord's eyes. The statues of Our Lord and Our Lady also shed mystical tears very often.

It is a long time since I wrote in my books but I have made notes from time to time as Our Lord spoke on different matters. I will include these later as they are all dated. Very often I have seen tears flowing from my statues [mystical tears] or in visions of Our Lord and Our Lady. The most important message for the world today is as we have been told now for many years. Our Lord and Our Lady are most unhappy. The world has largely ignored this wonderful invitation to return to God and to prayer, given by Our Lady in Fatima and now in Medjugorje.

Our Lord has spoken so clearly to me about the violence, with each killing or war that has been reported and that I have seen or read about. He does everything possible to help us to avoid war and bloodshed but Satan is strong and is determined to destroy everything that God has made, this lovely earth and all of us. Satan knows his time is limited and his aggression is very real. He has succeeded in enticing many souls to follow him. Few these days who die pass directly to Heaven and sadly very many go to their fate with Satan. It was never any part of the Divine Plan that we should be more willing to follow the one who despises God than we are to follow in the steps of Our Lord Jesus Christ who gave His own life to save us. When Satan tempts we have recourse to prayer, by which we are protected from evil.

Many do not confess their sins and are therefore unworthy to receive the blessing of Our Lord's Precious Gift of holy Communion. Many do not pray, their lives being only of this world with no thought of life beyond and showing no gratitude for the Gift of Life or He who sustains our lives. We are being taught that it is acceptable to kill infants in the womb, to use contraceptive methods to prevent life, to end life in the sick by euthanasia, that scientists are able, and are therefore apparently allowed, to create life in a test tube or to use the new method of cloning. We see now surrogate motherhood and the use of artificial methods to preserve human embryos. Homosexuality is considered normal in some quarters while civil 'marriages' between people of the same sex are taking place. People are even have surgery to change from one sex to another. NONE OF THIS is acceptable to God.

Holy hour, a very precious Gift, is abandoned because people are too busy to spend time with Our Lord in prayer. The Rosary prayer is sadly neglected too. In some churches The Blessed Queen of Heaven is almost ignored apart from Christmas Day. In schools the young are not being given Christian teachings and in some places are actively prohibited from worship. The holy bible is not read daily as it should be and family prayer has become almost nonexistant. ALL THIS MUST END.

Our Lord asks of us only this - 'Pray, fast, repent your sins and live in holiness as I am holy'. 'Return to the Father who loves you'.' I am Peace ever, I am Mercy ever, I am Pure ever'. 'I am holy Love ever'.

All war must end, all killing and cruelty must end. 'Love your neighbour as yourself' is required of everyone, as it has always been. Starvation of God's children, all forms of neglect, are against God's holy Law and those refusing to help the suffering in times of famine or as a result of war or a natural disaster, WILL answer soon to God, as will all who follow the evil one by their selfishness, disrespect, disbelief and the many others ways mankind has been taught by Satan of insulting and deeply offending Heaven.

Today again I saw tears on Our Lord's face when I prayed for the victims of a serious bombing in Bali, Indonesia. Jesus wept!

In recent weeks I have been subjected to demonic attacks when I pray. They can last for hours, particularly when I am trying to sleep but Satan thinks I have no right to rest. This is happening on a daily basis now where before it was not too frequent. These attacks are physical and verbal and accompanied by either Satan himself or his demons who show me snakes, lizards, spiders and other things in a very frightening way. They say appalling things and taunt God continuously. They are unbelievably hateful. I know that as I am suffering these attacks, though not during all hours of the day, Our Lord is being subjected to all the horror Satan can inflict upon humanity and is suffering unbearably and continuously.

I often see dear Padre Pio in visions, as I do Saint Francis of Assisi. They are silent visions. Our Lord kindly grants me visions of saints at particular times, if I am reading about them. I was shown Saint Therese, the Little Flower, sitting in a chair in the garden writing her lovely poems. There are similar visions of other saints. Visions are always bright and clear, as the dreams are, and the colours intense.

Our Lord confirmed again that the book written by Louisa Picaretta 'The Divine Will' is a true Gift from Heaven.

Someone asked 'How can God suffer now He is Risen in Glory?'. He suffers because of evil. He is our good Lord who loves us and does not want to lose us or see us come to harm.

I am reminded again, as I am every day, of Our Lord's love for us, by the physical warmth which spreads throughout my body very rapidly. I asked Our Lord many years ago why this happened and He replied 'It is warm love of Heaven'.

There are other physical Gifts at different times, the pain of the Crown of Thorns and of The Scourging and the Five Holy Wounds of Christ Crucified. Another great Gift I have received on occasion if the Gift of Tears when I suddenly weep without having caused it. The beautiful fragrances too should be mentioned. Roses or violets have accompanied Padre Pio and have been given on other occasions, and when Our Lord showed me Mary, the sister of Lazarus, anointing His holy head I smelled Oil of Nard. This is a very beautiful fragrance, light and similar to myrrh.

Some time ago I was shown Padre Pio lying in his coffin, with and without the face veil. I believe his body to be incorruptible. Today I see him hearing confession but cannot see the person who is confessing.

When I pray, Our Lord shares with me His concerns of the day insofar as if there has been a bombing or natural tragedy, He will speak of it with me. All our concerns are the concerns of Our Lord and nothing escapes His attention. Alongside every scientific discovery, every unfairness, every tragedy He is deeply involved with us. I thought years ago that God was far away. I could not have been more wrong. Our Lord is so close to all of us, like the breath in our own bodies. We do not know how fortunate we are nor how dearly we are loved.

I have been made aware again today of Our Lord's close Presence. I was writing a letter to a friend in my prayer group and suddenly I could see Our Lord standing very near me. He has been seen like this several times today. He did not speak. Yesterday however, I received a spoken Divine Blessing for a friend who runs a Lay Apostolate and for everyone concerned with her in this important work. Although I am most fortunate to see Our Lord with the eyes of my soul, it emphasises for everyone that Our Lord is so near to us at all times in our Lives, even if unseen.

A few years ago, with Our Lord's help and blessing, I opened several prayer groups on the internet. They are full of good people from many different nations and not all are Catholic. The age range is from 80 to 16. I am pleased that through these groups, we have all become friends who pray together and support one another in times of trouble, and these groups were formed to be similar to the early cenacles held by the Holy Apostles in Jerusalem. People today have been asking me about fasting and have seriously suggested that they offer to fast from something other than food, perhaps by not watching TV. Our Lord has made clear that when He asks us to fast for the sake of our immortal souls, He requires us to fast with bread and water replacing all meals on that day. We in our prayer groups have consecrated our lives and families to the Most Holy Sacred Heart of Our Lord and to the Most Holy Immaculate Heart of Our Lady and have offered ourselves and our lives as victim souls.

Many times again I have seen Our Lord today. It is consoling that He is always so near, as He is to everyone. I was also granted an answer for a friend and Our Lord blessed her.

Again today I am blessed to see Our Lord, among other more secret visions. Thankfully I am always in His Presence. Yesterday I saw Our Lord with raised right hand give the Divine Blessing while His left hand was laid on His Most Holy Sacred Heart. Today I saw Blood flowing from His right palm. I often see the tears on His holy face and Our Lady weeps too. I am reminded again of His words. 'This earth is SO evil'. There has been more killing. Jesus wept.

For the last three days 700 people have been held hostage by gunmen, heavily armed with bombs, in Moscow, Russia. The hostages are begging for freedom. They are all very afraid. The 40 young men and women who are holding them prisoner have threatened to kill everyone and blow up the theatre they are in unless the Russian government agrees to remove its troops from Chechnya. The war in Chechnya has been fought very violently for many years now. The city of Grozny has been reduced to rubble, and other towns have met the same fate. I have watched Russian fighter jets bombing and the battles have been fierce. I am praying for peace. Today again Our Blessed Mother gave us a beautiful message through Her young saint in Medjugorje:

Our Lord spoke to me many times in the past about this war in Chechnya. Satan is the cause of all war.

Today in prayer I was given a strong fragrance of roses when Our Lord blessed the writings of Luisa Picaretta.

In the past few days while the Russian people were being help hostage in the theatre in Moscow, I saw blood flowing from Our Lord's right palm, tears from His eyes. He also made the Sign of Blessing for all people.

This evening I saw a Crown of Thorns on my statue of Our Lord. There IS no Crown of Thorns on the statue but it was very very real.

Today I suddenly found the palm of my right hand burning, until it became very painful. I have not known this happen for quite some time. Later I saw Our Lord in tears.

Today as I prayed I saw that the icon of Our Lady of Sorrows was shedding Mystical Tears. A few moments later the Christ Child wept. Almost daily I see that Our Lord and Our Lady are weeping. The world is ignoring the Tears of Heaven, either by not believing or not caring. This is the work of Satan. He is very ferocious in his attacks on all of us and his daily attacks on me are most unpleasant. The more I try to do regarding holy work, the more vicious and longer lasting his attacks. I do not fear him but I do not like the attacks nor what I hear him say to me. He has the audacity to interfere with my sleep, causing many long hours of wakefulness when I am very tired. Often he send me snakes and other horrors to interrupt my sleep. He tries to assault me physically every day. Thanks be to God he does not succeed in his evil aims of turning me away from God. The more Satan attacks, the closer I draw to the Source of Love.

I was blessed to see dear Padre Pio kneeling in prayer at the moment when he received the Wounds of Christ. I saw Golden Light touch his hands and as it did the Wounds became visible.

I see Our Lord on most days. Today I clearly saw that I was in the Most Holy Presence of Almighty God. He is indescribably beautiful.

As Midnight approached Our Lord called me to prayer when He kindly Blessed me with His special blessing of Peace. Our dear Lady most graciously gave me Her holy blessing and I received loving greetings from all members of my family who are in Heaven. I prayed for the Will of God to be done on earth, for Pope John Paul ll and all who serve in holy church, for the sick and all who suffer.

I saw Our Lady shed tears and Our Lord weeping at the plight of His children and the appalling evil and apostasy on earth. On this, the Holiest of days, the Birth of Our Lord is almost forgotten, swept away under the tinsel and bright lights of celebration of Mammon. In some places in Christian countries, Christ has been banned by His own children. A famous charity has refused to allow any sign of Christ's birth, to avoid offence to non-Christians, while a major broadcaster has shown a blasphemous film about the life of Our Blessed Lady. Vietnam has banned all Christmas celebrations. Tanks have, however, moved out of Bethlehem and the people may now attend Mass in the Church of the Nativity. This is Our Lord's Gift to His people.

I add here the Blessing of Our Lord and of Our Blessed Mother.