Diary 2009
May
3 2009
At
a certain point, there came to me the very powerful impression
that I am rejected by God. This terrible thought pierced my soul
right through; in the midst of the suffering my soul began to
experience the agony of death. I wanted to die but could not.
This letter from Saint Faustina describes in
part that which I experience every day and have experienced many
times throughout the years.
During the night for many long hours I am continuously bombarded
by demonic forces, deafeningly loud and foul mouthed.
They insult me, they insult God, they insult the Pope and the
Church and the swearing is the worst you can imagine.
They
attack physically and painfully and deny me any rest, on one occasion for
twenty eight
hours.
I am left drained and with a terrible
sense that I am worthless and surrounded by hatred. I feel complete desperation. To
escape in death would be a blessing yet I cannot die.
It is like living in Hell.
In
this way Our Lord shares with me His own terrible Suffering and by
allowing them to do this to me, He shares the horrific insults and
mockery He endures every moment because Satan leads so many to
hate God.
Eventually,
by God's Mercy, I fall into an exhausted sleep, but Our Lord
cannot sleep nor escape the hatred for a second.
During
these attacks Satan revels in filling my mind with lurid images of
violence and things indescribably evil and repulsive, all the vile
things that he sends to the world in his hatred of God.
The
images are sickening yet it is what Our Lord sees on His beautiful
earth every day and He finds these wicked deeds intolerable. He
calls them Abomination.
He has not a moment of rest from this evil day or night and
all the while He gives good things to all His children.
He
calls each one to prayer but has no response from many.
He warns us not to follow evil yet His pleas are ignored and many
souls are imperilled.
He allows our guardian angels to guide and to pray for us.
He provides our food and shelter and everything we need yet many
do not show an ounce of gratitude for His love for them and even
deny His existence.
Our
dear Lord is heartbroken.
He asks that we pray every day and offer sacrifices in reparation
for the many sins of this world.
In
the Land of the Pharisees
Our modern world is little different from the time when Our Lord
lived and died on this earth. Everywhere we see hypocrisy.
Our Lord has stated 'This earth is as Rome'. I will explain a few
matters we must consider very carefully for it is crucial for our
souls to do so.
Killing - the Law of God clearly states Do Not Kill.
Across the world we see millions of abortions of the unborn taking
place.
Many people are
rightly offended by this evil practice and do all they can to have
it removed from national laws.
Sadly these same people, even some in Holy Orders, have been seen
to support the death penalty and the killing of people in wars
they claim are necessary to provide security for their own people.
This is fallacy and blasphemy.
The Law of God does not say you may kill in order to protect
yourself. It says simply and clearly DO NOT KILL. There is no
caveat attached to Holy Law. The penalties for disregarding it are
the most serious we will ever face.
What is more important?
Killing people who threaten you in order to save your own life or
the lives of others and which will lead you to eternal damnation
or following the Law that will lead you to eternal peace in
Heaven.
Why do people assume that God thinks like man? Man is not a
god though he often assumes the role in his self deceit. Man is no
more than a small part of God's Creation. He is called to be a
true son, to be holy, yet he thinks he knows better than God and
lives his life in his own way showing complete disregard for the
welfare of his soul and for the souls of those he drags down with
him to the Abyss.
He often pays lip service to faith, pronouncing himself to be a
good person with strong beliefs yet he ignores holy values and
instructions that have been given to this earth since Creation.
I have recently seen the most appalling hypocrisy by supposedly
good people who are unwisely instructing others to condemn
abortion yet condone or even support killing in other forms.
Do not make the mistake of following such misguided leadership or
you will accompany them to the Abyss.
Satan is real, Hell is real and Judgement is real.
Do not be led by the blind. If they choose to follow Satan, pray
for them that Our Good Lord will open their eyes before it is too
late. Many souls are being lost every day. Some leaders, whether
secular or spiritual, are leading in the opposite direction to
Heaven. Be aware of the traps.
We have been warned. Holy Law is not only carved in stone, it is
set in the heart of Our Most Holy Lord and Father, Almighty God.
Saint John
14.15 If
you love me, keep my commandments.
Saint Matthew
Chapter 23
23:15.
Woe to you, scribes and
Pharisees, hypocrites,
because you go
round about the sea and the land to make one
proselyte. And
when he is made, you make him the child of
hell twofold more
than yourselves.
We must ask
Our Lord’s forgiveness for all sin in the world
Stonehenge
Some
time ago Our Lord told me that this ancient monument in England
was built and used as a Temple of Worship. It was neither pagan
nor a burial place and people travelled from the surrounding areas
to worship there.
30 July 2009
Today Our Lord confirmed to me that disabled children in North
Korea were being taken from their families and killed in
experimental facilities where they test nerve gas and other
noxious substances.
I have previously written about Martin, a good young man who
uncovered corruption in his workplace and having notified
police, was immediately arrested and taken to prison, from where
he was taken to one of these places and put in a glass walled
room which they then filled with nerve gas, killing him.
This is happening to many people and the ages of the children
have been confirmed to me as being as young as three to four
years old. I was shown one young victim, a little boy who was
suffering from cerebral palsy. They carried him into a glass
walled room and switched on the gas. He died immediately and as
with all the poor victims, is now resting peacefully in Heaven.
This is one of the many vile ways in which Satan attacks Our
Lord today. His demonic cruelty knows no bounds. His works are
abomination itself, and all for one purpose, to inflict as much
suffering as possible upon Our Lord and to take His children
away from their intended home in Heaven to live in the Abyss
forever.
His battle is fierce and constant. His rule is one of terror.
Please pray in reparation to the Most Holy Sacred Heart of Our
Lord for the many evil cruelties Satan causes in our world and
pray that he will not take one soul with him to the Abyss.
19 September 2009
Satan's battle against prayer
For the past few months Satan
has interrupted my prayers by many different means. It
makes me very angry that he dares to do this and it seems he
will never stop his attempts to prevent God's children praying
to our Father in Heaven.
Thankfully Our Lord hears all prayer and always responds in
spite of the demonic attempts to waylay us.
I have learned that what I suffer in that my prayers are
constantly interrupted, is also being suffered by Our dear Lord
as He speaks to His children. Satan turns many people away from
prayer and lures them with the things of this world so they will
not pray, attend Mass or Adoration nor even think about a Higher
Authority calling them to attend to His Words and obey Divine
Law.
It is a fierce battle but we must persist in our attempts to
become the holy and loving children of our good Father
Our Lord is suffering appalling agony because of the
violence in our world. He told me this and I later suffered a
severe demonic attack that kept me sleepless for 28
hours.
Pray that Our Lord's voice will be heard and
that the nations will listen at last to what He requires of
them, and become peacemakers instead of warmongers.
Tragedy of child abuse
A 12 year old girl has
died giving birth in Yemen. The baby was stillborn. She
had been 'married' at the age of eleven to a 24 year old
farmer in exchange for a sum of money given to her
parents. This is the custom in several places and is
abomination in Our Lord's sight.
In a similar situation many young
girls are force fed milk by their mothers until they vomit.
By overfeeding their daughters and making them fat the
parents say it will be easier to find them husbands.
The parents of all these poor children
see nothing wrong with their evil practices and their laws
allow it.
In one recent case a young
lady was kidnapped and forced to marry a stranger in
Tajikistan.
It amounts to children being 'sold' by
their parents as if they were livestock.
The victims are very unhappy,
forced into a life they did not choose.
Our Lord will not allow such terrible
things to continue.
Customs may be centuries old but those
who follow evil ways will answer to Our Lord for the
suffering inflicted on children in their care.
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