AUTHOR'S COMMENTARY: I had a LOT of fun writing the first chapter of Blue Bloods because it was based on true-life experiences. Me and my best friend Morgan used to go to this club called THE BANK which was the only goth club in New York. Unlike a lot of NYC clubs, it was an all-access kind of place, there were no snooty velvet ropes and no annoying traders commandeering tables and ordering $500 bottles of vodka. But a lot of the descriptions of the club was making the story very SLOW. So it had to go. Here's one of the earlier versions of the first chapter.
Every weekend the club was filled with hundreds of black-clad teenagers humming, swaying and drifting to the Trance music's lazy, intermittent rhythm. Already that night, the line in front of the club wormed down the block, a raggedy mix of thin, neurasthenic girls swathed in oversized blazers and gypsy skirts, and pretty, frail boys wearing eyeliner.
"Why did I wear this skirt, I hate this skirt," Schuyler muttered. She didn't know why she was so worried. The Bank was the last place in Manhattan that wasn't overrun with celebrities and wannabe celebrities and the gawkers suitably star-struck enough to pay money to be near them. The Bank was too corny, too earnestly weird, and too cheap for that. The days when passed-out WB starlets were found in the VIP room were long gone. Which was the only reason she had agreed to go. That and the promise of dancing in The Pit (a mosh pit behind the teller windows).
Just then, the line began to move. Oliver grinned. She was glad she hadn't chickened out on their evening after all. Even though she could never really say No to Oliver. Aside from her grandmother, he was the only one in the world who cared about her. She took a step forward.
She should never have let Ollie talk her into buying a fake ID—her first foray into identity theft! It was a Maryland license, easier to duplicate because unlike the New York kind, it lacked a watermark. Oliver coolly surrendered his Hawaiian one—another easy state, Dylan's connection had assured, since few bartenders in the city knew what a real one looked like. Schuyler blanched as the stone-faced doorman slid the cards under the infrared machine.
Nothing happened.
It felt like time had stopped. Then just like that, the doorman suddenly returned their cards and waved them forward.
Schuyler exhaled. She and Oliver exchanged a restrained look of glee.
They floated inside the club, feeling heady from smell of the beer-sweat and musk, the music slithering into their blood, already making them dizzy with the sopoforic sound, powerless to the pull of the relentless bassline. They were inside.
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BLUE BLOODS/FIRST CHAPTER: ALTERNATE ENDING
AUTHOR'S COMMENTARY: My original idea was to end the chapter with the end of their evening. But in rewriting, I realized that getting IN the club was a good place to end it. Sometimes it's better to say less than more.
It was almost five in the morning, the technical end of the evening, (since by law, the nightclub had to close, but it opened again at six until noon for the dawn crowd), and Schuyler took one last lap around the balcony, looking for Oliver. It had been a manic, surreal night. They'd wandered around the club for hours, taking in all the strange and delightful sights—the downstairs bazaar that sold all kinds of rubber bracelets and studded jewelry, the hang-out room by the co-ed bathrooms where six-foot-tall drag queens repaired their makeup and gossiped about the DJs, the upstairs lounge, where Schuyler had sat, Indian-style by the floor-to-ceiling windows to get some rest, and two frat boys in alma mater Ts and new Diesel jeans ('alterno-seeking-tourists from the tri-state hinterlands' Oliver called them) tapped her politely on the shoulder and asked, "Got any?"
Schuyler was flattered to have been mistaken for a drug dealer. She liked The Bank. She liked the fact that someone had fashioned a bed out of the metal chairs by the balcony and was snoring loudly on it. She liked how empty it was—she and Oliver rattled around the topmost floors like pebbles in a big glass jar, lost in an Alice-in-Wonderland funhouse. She'd been disoriented for a minute there, when she'd turned the corner to the ladies' room and encountered a blank wall instead. For a moment, she had no idea where she was. The walls were suddenly bright and clean instead of dark and grimy, and in the distance, she could hear the soft sounds of typing.
A tall man came out of the shadows. He was handsome, with a fine crown of silver hair. He was wearing a well-cut English suit and looked completely out of place at The Bank. He locked eyes with Schuyler for a moment.
"Hey where are you--?" she tried to ask.
But as soon as she did, he disappeared into the darkness.
And then the noise faded and when she blinked her eyes, she was in the shadowy recesses of the nightclub again. Still, it didn't scare her. Absurdly, The Bank felt like home.
She was alone. Dylan had gone for a smoke and had never returned, and now even Oliver was missing. He'd promised to get another round of drinks, but that was hours ago. It wasn't like him to leave her in the lurch like that—she'd been looking forward to splitting a ride back uptown and having an early, ravenous breakfast of pancakes and milk shakes before he dropped her off at home. She tried his cell again. No answer. She didn't know what to do. Stay or go? What if he'd already left?
So she bundled up, folding her hands underneath her armpits, cold in her thin sweater, walked downstairs, to the front, past many posted signs that warned NO RE-ENTRY! EXIT FINAL! LEAVE AT YOUR OWN RISK! before finally finding the swinging doors that led outside. She stood in front of the sidewalk to hail a taxi.
Oliver could take care of himself, and she could do the same.
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AUTHOR'S COMMENTARY: In re-reading this, I kind of wish I had kept some of it in. Especially seeing the old guy (who turns out to be Charles Force later). But like I said earlier, the chapter really needs to end with Sky and Ollie getting IN the club. After that, it's just extra...
This chapter reminds me of how much I love nightclubs. The part about some guy sleeping on a few chairs upstairs? Totally true. I always felt very at-home at New York City nightclubs. We used to go to this after-hours club called The Sound Factory (which then became Twilo and now I think is closed). And I looked so at home there that nightclub newbies thought I was a drug dealer! Because who else looks at home at a nightclub right?? Like Schuyler, I felt flattered. It just showed that I belonged there. Sound Factory was the place where Madonna hired all her dancers. We would see them at the club (we knew them from the documentary). It was this illicit, fabulous, only-in-New-York kind of place. I loved it.
Wow. This is really fun. And I found a great deleted scene in another file which I'll post tomorrow!
xoxo
Mel
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Another Deleted Scene: Aggie’s Death
AGGIE'S DEATH/ALTERNATE DELETED SCENE
AUTHOR'S COMMENTARY:
Here's another cool deleted scene I found in the hard drive. This was a very early version of Aggie's murder. In this version, Aggie is Schuyler's friend, not Mimi's (as it is in the final book) and she's also Dylan's girlfriend. I cut it and changed it because it seemed too much to have Schuyler be very close to the murder victim, also it took away from how intense her friendship was with Oliver. Also, in my mind it seemed like Aggie was a lot like Schuyler and we couldn't really have that. There's only one Schuyler! I also didn't think being at the hospital really added anything to the story. Much better for them to find out about Aggie's death Monday morning at school.
It's weird, in re-reading all these cut scenes, I realize that my editor was so right: WRITING IS A PROCESS. You have to write your way through the plot problems to realize what the story is really about.
The story about The Closet (also called the Land of Nod in the final book) is absolutely true. There was a certain nightclub in New York where if you passed out, they put you in the back, and if it looked like you had OD'd, they would dump you in the ER, taking you there in the club's "ambulance" otherwise known as the nightclub owner's SUV.
I cut this pretty early on. I didn't think it added anything to the story. But it's fun to see here, isn't it?
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They think I have something to do with it. Bliss couldn't help but notice the way Dylan's friends—Schuyler Van Alen and Oliver Hazard-Perry, were looking at her. The way their eyes had gone from assessing the situation to assessing her. She'd been a step behind Dylan when he ran outside. All of them had climbed into the taxicab, Jack Force and that loser girl-Schuyler up front, while she'd had to squeeze in between Dylan and some guy wearing eye shadow in the back seat, Dylan's girlfriend Aggie—that's what he called her—stretched out lifelessly on their laps.
The rest of the trip was a surreal nightmare—the cab screeching up Broadway, past red lights, the driver cursing at them, and as soon as they'd arrived at the hospital, a squadron of doctors, nurses and emergency personnel scrambling, and Aggie immediately whisked away on a stretcher and none of them allowed to see her.
That was half an hour ago. The five of them were sitting in the plastic chairs in the waiting room, still waiting. Bliss wondered how long she would have to stay. It's not like she knew any of these kids, she'd just met them all that night. But Jack Force was still there, and he didn't know them either, so it seemed rude to want to leave.
"She's not dead," Schuyler whispered. "She's not." Aggie, please don't be dead, please don't be dead. Schuyler prayed. But god, she'd certainly looked dead. Her eyes had rolled to the back of her head, and her lips were purple. Her skin, normally so pale already, was almost translucent. And all through the cab ride, Schuyler had searched vainly for a pulse without finding one.
"Yo, dude, I'm telling you, she wasn't breathing," Dylan argued.
"What happened?" Oliver asked, hunched forward, dark circles beginning to form around his eyes.
"I told you, I went out to get a smoke, and when I got back inside I couldn't find Aggie anywhere," Dylan explained in a slightly defensive tone. "So I looked around, tried calling her, texting her, nothing, so I just hung out, I figured she might be in the Pit—you know how she likes to dance down there." The Pit was in the basement of the Bank, so crowded and dark it would be impossible to find anyone, especially a tiny girl who was slam-dancing by herself. "So I thought I'd wait it out. Then, I dunno, I kind of passed out somehow. When I woke up, and I was in this little room that was locked."
"The Closet," Oliver said wisely.
"I guess. It was small enough to be a closet," Dylan nodded. "And there were all these people passed out back there."
"It's where they put the wastoids," Oliver explained. "So the club doesn't look like one big slumber party."
"They do that?" Bliss asked, Thaydewthaat? She cleared her throat. Damn her accent. "Why?" She'd never heard of such a thing.
"Usually they truck them away in the 'ambulance'—Big Rob's Cadillac with the big trunk, dump them all at the ER. But that was starting to cost, and mostly the kids weren't OD'd, just out of it." Oliver shrugged. "They'd wake up, and well—what a long strange trip, right?"
"It's disgusting," Schuyler said, although she'd always found the practice funny, until now.
"What did she take?" Jack asked.
Dylan looked up, startled. "What do you mean?"
"She must have been on drugs, right?"
"No," Schuyler said emphatically. "Aggie's straight-edge." It was one of Aggie's quirks, like her obsession with proper afternoon tea at the St. Regis. Aggie even had a blue-pen X mark that she scratched on her left hand every day to remind herself of her dedication to sobriety.
"Totally." Dylan nodded.
"And how did you get involved?" Oliver asked, looking straight at Bliss. Bliss knew they were all wondering the same thing. Something about Dylan's story wasn't adding up. He'd gone for a smoke—yes—but he hadn't mentioned for how long—the two of them had ended up talking for ages in that back alley. When they'd smoked every last cigarette they had between the two of them, he finally went inside, and she'd secretly followed him—because after meeting him the last thing she wanted was to go back to Mimi and her demands at Block 122. Dylan hadn't noticed.
She'd wandered around The Bank, alone, fascinated by how dank and disgusting it all was—the floors were covered in slime, and in contrast to Block 122, everyone was so ugly, when suddenly she'd heard screams from inside a wall. She'd found a door—unlocked it from the outside—Jesus, they locked you in there—and Dylan had burst out—his dead girlfriend in his arms.
"I was with a friend," Bliss shrugged. Let them wonder. Why did she owe them an explanation? Why did they have to look at her that way? She didn't kill her.
The ER doctor who'd taken Aggie in emerged through the swinging doors in his green scrubs. "Are those her friends?" he asked the nurse. Schuyler and Oliver approached him. "Is she OK?" Schuyler asked, her voice quavering.
The doctor slowly shook his head. He began explaining—it looked like an overdose—not quite sure what had caused a fatal reaction like that—cardiac arrest, pulmonary failure—extreme loss of blood—the doctor said they were very, very sorry, they did everything they could, but she was dead upon arrival.
Schuyler twisted her hands onto the wings of her cardigan, not hearing or comprehending the words—but when she heard "failure to resuscitate" she crumpled into Oliver's chest, heaving sobs that racked her small frame. "It's Ok, It's OK," Oliver murmured, soothing her, holding her to him, holding her up as she threatened to slide down against the wall.
Dylan turned to the side and quietly threw up on the floor.
"I think we uh, should probably leave them alone?" Bliss asked, elbowing Jack.
Jack nodded, his face grave. He walked towards the huddled duo. "I'm sorry about your friend, Schuyler." He said, putting a hand on her shoulder.
Schuyler, lost in her grief, nodded through her tears.
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A lot of my writing is influenced by people I knew in real life. A good friend of mine in college used to be straight-edge and he would mark the inside of his wrist with blue pen with an "X" all the time to resist the temptation of drugs and alcohol.
The scene at the hospital was also totally inspired by a similar event that happened in college, when a friend of mine broke his ankle, and the whole gang of his friends waited in the waiting area for him to get fixed.
I'll try to post more deleted scenes, but I really have to get back to writing Blue Bloods 3: REVELATIONS!!!
xoxo
Mel