bin's magic

5th mc forever.

It's been ages since i updated. maybe even i forgot i had a blog. it's 1230am now, just after AGM07. i'm totally shagged out after only sleeping a few hours last night, and had a whole day today. but i thought that i'll jus pour my heart out here b4 i sleep and forget everything.

Here goes.

I couldnt believe that one year ago, I stepped into the exact same LT28, not knowing what to do, not knowing what i'm in for. typical blur yr2 who joined MC after the E3 experience. I ran for pub asst in the 5thMC elections, but didnt get it. Was approached for co-option in the same post, and i had some time to consider. almost didnt want to take it up. but i'm really really glad i did. in fact, the 2 biggest decisions i made in NUS were:-

1. Joining EthelonterII the night before the camp

2. Agreeing to co-opt as pub asst in the 5thMC

One year gone. in a flash. we had soooo many memories together. we always said we were going to step down soon, step down soon... we werent very close at the beginning... only got closer towards the end. I wasnt bonded to 5th cuz of pub stuff. not as a pub asst, BUT AS AN MC MEMBER of the 5th Management Committeee. typically speaking, pub stuff is more technical based, stuff u can do at home, on ur laptop, with programs, softwares, internet...but it's really all the saikang we do together, the long MC meetings, the crazy gathering tok cock sessions, the kboxing, the CLUBROOM CLEANUP, the etcetc stuff for CSC. also, cuz many of us joined a number of SPs in the past year, we got to know each other better working in the MC and in the various SPs.

When i heard Lixian thank the 5thMC in her speech. and everything else she had said.. I totally agreed. The experience was once in a lifetime.

When I saw Lixian's tribute video, when i saw everyone's messages to her, when i saw my own message to her... I could sense it coming. we're REALLY stepping down le. for the last time. it's our last official event together. no more etcetc stuff to do together.... though we can be around to support each other still, in SPs, in CSC events, in outings... BUT we really are no longer involved together for the passion of the club. When I saw Ching's great video... Couldnt hide the tears anymore. I knew i really really really x 1000 times miss the 5thMC so much. everyone.

This past yr, I have learnt sooooooooo much. soooo much from this wonderful gang of people. people who contributed in so many ways, in different ways, for the passion towards the club. We helped each other, supported one another, LAUGHED LIKE SIAO TOGETHER, did retarded things together...

I felt I really grew up. :)

Really thankful for this blessed year.

Although I dont know what the next yr will bring, I can only hope and pray that it'll be great too. So maybe I'll cry another round next yr, same time. haha. yes, it's a new beginning with the 6thMC. but the 5th remains as the 5th. we r the ONE AND ONLY 5thMC in CSC. (I probably will repeat this exact sentence next yr) I know alot lies in the hands of the top3 to mould this new MC to greater heights. There is the pressure, and yet i feel the excitement. :) I know 5th will always be around to support here and there, I know we believe in each other.

Bin really really will miss 5thMC alotttttttttttttt. :( very very she bu de... if only we can never end. hahahaah. (that's quite impossible)

to the pretty babe. u've always been important, and always will. really. thanks for everything for the 4yrs. and i still cried reading ur email. i should have talked to u b4 u left... sighs. thankyous!

thanks for all the gifts from the 5thMC. :) Great minds think alike, 3 of us did similar ones! :) but still love them all. it's the thought that counts. JIAYOUS everyone! :)

I cant wait for chalet next weekend, but got loads of skul stuff to pia out next week. :(

FOR THE VERY LAST TIME,

5THMC WHOOOOOOOOOOOSSSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

bin loves 5th.

Thank yous all. for making it so special and memorable.

5thMC foreva......

thanks ching for the great videos.

laugh until almost die for the first retarded storyline.

cry like siao everytime i watch the other.

before da camp!

basically we r all quite shagged even camp started. reason being:- we're a bunch of crazy ppl.

this last week was supposed to be a rest week, with no trials. only meeting, briefing, and freshie jio-ing. apparently every grp planned outings!~

i'm going to do the weekly update .....

mon: banner painting. whole day. made identifiers. went to meet mendaki. went night cycling.

tue: slept the whole day. cuz night cycling didnt sleep. woke up in evening, settled freshies stuff, update councillors. planned more outings.

wed: my only slack day. reason being, it was oc meeting day! ha! n i'm not oc! whoosh. finally can slack one day - pack stuff at home for moving. met edwin for dinner treat. :) nice meatballs.

thur: grp5 sports day. 9am squash til 1pm. lunch. went bowling. rushed to tamp jus in time at 6pm to meet amy n jf for dinner. got upset abt work schedule again. oh well.

fri: csc sports day. met more freshies to collect $$$. yay! :) played bball from 1plus to about 5pm. included my first soccer lessons with 5 guys. ha. had final kc briefing in skul after that.

sat: last day of work officially, but didnt go last minute. too shagged after all the events in the week. rested at home, continued to pack my moving house stuff. junk everywhere. went for nice supper in a F1 car. HAHA.

sun: went for milk runnn!!! :) yikes. 4km. ha. had a great day, sharing, taking photos, etc.....good exercise! went to see the amk place, came back home to continue packing, n start packing camp stuff. siannnn. pack pack pack.

tmw: precamp. day0. HERE WE GO!!!!~ DYNATOFFEE! whoooshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

i'm already losing my voice. *cough cough* been sneezing half of today as well. ppl falling sick liaos. :(

JIAYOUS ALL! :)

i wonder y i didnt blog abt gaw wish collection n proj can pub drive 1. last weekend. hmmm.

got to present gaw to all freshies during the csctalk. probably take 5-10minutes. excited!~ freshies are joining us!!!!

oh wells. wait for my camp updates.

excited!!!

scared!!!

fun!!!

cant wait!!!

chiong ahh!!!

siao ahhh!!!

scream ahhh!!!

shout ahhh!!!!

pia ahhh!!!

my group rocks.

*dynatoffee* binz out @ 1.25am the 2JULY MON

someone's watching over me!

here's a great vid. by hillary duff. from the movie: Raise Your Voice. this is the finale song, she dedicated to her brother who died in a car accident. yup very nice n meaningful :)

enjoy!

Hilary Duff - Someone's Watching over Me Lyrics

Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is just you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
Took this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That someone's watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me

Someone's watching over me

*tiredX* binz out @ 4.34pm the 27JUNE TUE

torn =(

i FORGOT TO MENTION THE TITLE OF THE BOOK:-

I KISSED DATING GOODBYE.

hahahahaha. yeah freaky title. but trust me, it's an amazing book. yeah i recommend everyone to read it! hahaha. although it's a Christian book, but it applies to everyone of us. very practical and very true.

every chapter i read i literally feel torn apart to the two opposite sides of the coin. sooo easily swayed by reality. HELP!!!!! *screams* imagine fighting with both sides of urself!!!! i read one page, then i read one sms. then one page then another sms. argh. and again. i can feel myself tearing into the angel and devil side. u know like tv dramas. HAHA. YA SO DRAMA. hais. struggle n struggle. i dont know how i managed to escape an outing today. *pengz*

i got to continue reading n praying hard.

tmw got to be at skul 8am to at night. for mass games trial in the morning, and then for gaw briefing at night. hopefully i catch some time to swim tmw. hahaha. although it's weird to swim alone in skul. see my mood tmw morning bah.

grace babe. call 995. haha. emergency hotline.

pray for more wishes for gaw as well. :)

i ate another MAC product today! after dinner with luke. we ate the NEW ZESTY LIME SUNDAE! HAHA. every week i eat something new at macs. somehow. see lah. hahaha. so supportive. imagine having to describe how the new burger tastes like. that's not very easy if u havent eaten it urself b4 right? =P

*TORN!* binz out @ 11.36pm the 19JUNE TUE

dad's day!

HAPPY DADDY'S DAY!!!! :)

bin loves sundays.

the only day i get to slack! and laze in bed all day!!! HAHA. shioooooooook! no work! no csc stuff! yAy! family day!!! went for dinner, and then went to watch fantastic4!! at junction8. lol. quite a short movie for a blockbuster. cant wait for harry potter! cuz the trailer was showing b4 the moviee.... ^_^

didnt really hav the intention to watch fantastic4 initially cuz the ratings werent really good, and plus, i didnt watch the first one. but anw, since we got nothing to do after dinner, dad always suggests to go for a movie instead of walking around. HAHA. the amusement park at bishan looks very nice!!! we wanted to go for it, esp the 360deg ride... looks extremely freaky. but cuz we jus had a filling dinner, so couldnt go. :( lol ferris wheel looks nice too! I WANNA GO!!!!! AHHHHH.

LOL. bro and i bought daddy a present for daddy's day. a cute massager! lols. we bought it b4 the movie, while dad was buying tix. and gave it to him in the theatre. HAHA. we gave it and disappeared for dad to open it while we went out again to buy popcorn! hahaha. anw i think i'll use it more often cuz it's cute and quite effective. hahahaa. looks kiddy but quite strong, and plus dad complained about his backache. so just nice, can use! :) we're so thoughtful right? and we bought in 5mins. hahaha.

yest went to buy my long awaited goggles! and new swimsuit! lol. HAHA. my goggles can dismantle de! cuz the degree for both my eyes are different. so i bought separate lenses, and a strap. hahahaa. got a free arena swim bag worth $26 bucks. lol. quite worth it. spent $100 got new goggles, swimsuit and a big big big bag. hahaha. THANKS DAD! :)

anw i finally got the book from baobao last fri! HAHA. this is so dumb. i bought him the book, and i asked him to lend me after he's done reading it!!! HAHA. first of all, i didnt expect myself to WANT to read the book so desperately. but of cuz circumstances change. so now i have 5 books to read. 4 books i jus borrowed from the lib last week. i read them while travelling everywhere, and at work when i'm not picking up calls.

The first chapter i read was:- Chap10: Just Friends in a Just-Do-It World; followed by Chap11: Guard Your Heart

I didnt flip to the contents page to find these 2 chapters. they literally opened up in front of me when i FIRST flipped open the book to read.

Totally God's will.

Also reading books on depression. "100 Questions and Answers about Depression". my bro said ppl are going to think i got depression cuz i read that everywhere. HAHA. but anw i dun really care, and it's a very enriching book. Very detailed, but very informative. :) I actually find it very interesting. but i wouldnt wan to be studying this for exams. hahahahaha. unlike my roomy out there.

tmw's another free day for ME! :) HAPPY! can go visit my ahma :)

*happy* binz out @ 11.53pm the 17JUNE SUN

revival or not?

hahaha. finally i'm going to type something here again. just got some new updates, non-confidental ones. haha. it's kinda tiring maintaining two blogs. HAHA.

i shall skip all past events and update recent happenings. ie. this week. haha.

mon went my grandma's place as usual. was a tiring day.. extremely. although i didnt do anything for the whole day. must be due to the fatigue that was brought over from the tiring weekend. :( met jf n grace for dinner at tampines after that, had a nice chat but it was more fun to see each other after so long. found a new way from tampines back home.

tue was late for work cuz i missed the 2 buses twice, and was using the new way to work. sighs. waited 15mins+ for 72 to arrive, and when it did, two double decker buses came together. *fuming* hahaha. oh well, i was late for 15mins i think. didnt eat anything until i was released from work at 3pm. ATE MY MCWINGS UPSIZED MEAL finally. HAHA. i've been eating macs every week ever since i started working. wad the.... -_-. every week i got new craving for something else on the menu. last week was the mcnuggets n chicken terriyaki burger. anw was a CRAZY day at work. i totally NEVER stopped picking up calls, cuz there were too many coming in. endless!! -_-. record breaking 66 QUEUES on the line!!!! OMG. siao-ness. when we finally cleared the calls, they started coming in again. this lasted til about 2plus in the afternoon. -_-"

rushed back for cluedo trial2 after my meal. as usual, ended at about 11pm, reached home at 12midnight.

wed ie yesterday. was grp5 outing. HAHA. i kinda gave up waiting for good attendance, and jus go ahead with the planned outings. else we'll never have any outings. HAHA. oh well, only 4 of us, plus some grp7 and luke. in total, 8 peeps, all OC members except me. hahahah but i totally didnt realise that until i read ching's blog. HAHA.

3 gals n we overpower the guys. ok. sandra n i were shouting n screaming more than we were singing. HAHAHA. but kris was singing. powerhouse!!!! hehehe. she only started shouting with us at the last part, when there was no more "singing" songs left. lols. only screaming ones. it's extremely tiring to shout/sing n jump at the same time. funnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn n shagged. -_- can literally feel ur energy draining out. hahaha. i think it's worse than the last time with MC. LOL. at least no other gal went, cuz that person is going to be extremely left out!!!

GROUP 5 ROCKS!!!!

after that madness, we all da bao dinner from clementi n went back to clubroom. cuz they had cluedo final act discussion. we go n come as a grp hor, although those not involved in cluedo didnt hav to go back. we can always find stuff to do at the clubroom. like cutting cloth n wish slips. HAHA. left at 10plus again.

cut here n there, on the mrt rides, bus rides.... i can feel ppl looking at me thinking why i'm doing art n craft on the public transport. but if i do it then, i hav no other time to cut. hahahah. apparently i'm almost done with my 42 wish slips to cut, left with about 10, which i'm going to finish all later on my way to work. tonight working from 10pm to 4am. :(

it's terribly hard to translate an english paragraph to chinese. -_- argh. still working on it.

luke got influenced by me when i said i'm going to quit work by end june. 2wks exactly. i prepared exact letters for us, and we're going to submit later. but i doubt they'll let us off easily. cuz they r desperate for ppl now. we probably wont be able to leave so soon. :( but we both agree that it's too tiring. to be rushing everywhere.

july after e4 will be gaw prep intense period. and prep for matric fair, for our annual magazine. plus proj can as well.... doubt i have any more energy to work. plus since both my apds are going to be busy, i think all the more i should keep myself free from work. hopefully it makes a difference cuz i'll be equally busy with other csc stuff as well. hahaha.

"LITTLE OF YOUR TIME" - MAROON 5

precisely. i cant even afford to give this. i dun even hav any spare time this week to meet up. no matter how hard we squeeze some common time. *there goes my amusement park in the wind*

forever u live in our hearts!~

*tiredX* binz out @ 7.22pm the 14JUNE THUR

not in use blog.

blog address is changed and this blog is no longer in use. until i decide to give out the address, hahaah. probably u wont hear anymore updates.

correction: maintenance of 2 blogs now. for 2 different purposes, for 2 different avenues of expression n screaming out loud. HAHA.

revival

bin is losing her voice. when i was working on sat, i had to clear my thoart during the calls i picked up. cuz my voice was disappearing halfway during the call liao. so i had to mute the phone for 2 sec to clear my thoart, cough hard, then continue to speak politely and sound ok. hahaha.

extremely tiring.

now i'm getting a sorethoart. worse.

and yet everytime i hear my fav SONGS on my ipod or media player, i stilll sing out aloud. making my voice worse. hahaha. cant help it lah.

i could feel my lungs about to burst during woship today. hahah but for GOD'S GLORY -- sing until no voice also worth it. hahaha. okies. went to the NATIONAL stadium for the pentecost sunday celebration. :) powerful prayers and worship. went with my family but then baobao came along as well.

felt so bad for pang seh-ing him today morning. i didnt go to his church as promised. cuz i was sooooooo shagged yest nite, had to rest cuz i felt like i was falling sick liaos. so i told him i couldnt join him. but in the end he came national stadium! :)

God made each of us different, unique and special. with different passion, talents, etc... and for one last time, i DO NOT LOOK LIKE A ROCKER CHICK!

hahaha. only crazy punk rocker bao thinks that i look like one. and he wans to buy me a toy electric guitar for my bday. *SCREAMS* haha. and he's spoiling my image and reputation. boohoohoo.

i watched PIRATES LIAO!!! HAHAHAHA. with my family yest nite after work. it's kinda confusing show, and even after the movie ended, my bro and i were stilll discussing some parts of the show which we didnt understand and couldnt piece together. ahahahah. i think my dad was more lost, cuz we explained so much more. he said next time he dun need to go watch, just save the ticket money and then my bro and i can tell him the whole story after watching. hahaha. cuz that was wad we were doing yest nite after the show. wondering if there's going to be pirates4? but i like this one more than the second one. and i CANT WAIT FOR SHREK3 out on THURSDAY!!! WAKAKAKA.

u know something is up when u see people STILL SITTING IN THEIR SEATS after the movie credits have been rolling for 10mins.... hahahaha. was about to leave the theatre after i went toilet... but my smart bro said, "eh got so many people still sitting... means got sthg at the end ah?" hahahah AND TRUE ENOUGH! haha. we stayed just in time to catch the last 30sec of additional footage. hahhahaa. actually it's not a big spoiler, dun watch also nothing much de. unlike the xmen3 spoiler at the end of the show. the one where profX spoke one word. hahaha.

HEHEHEHEHEE.

sentosa trial tmw 9am!!!! WOOOHOOOOO!

GOD SAYS GUARD YOUR HEART!

i realised that i didnt have to do anything at all. maybe it's all cuz i'm trying to do too much. and it's really not possible. u just need to focus on one thing. just God Himself. u dun need to cry, dun need to hide, dun need to fake. u only need to stay silent. the peace and calmness is amazing. cuz only He understands u best. He understands all u r going through, all your problems, all u r facing, ur struggles. u just need to turn to Him and humble urself. worship is the best time to reach out to Him and to really experience how much God loves us all.

God made me love music for a reason. to experience His love. :)

*shouts aloud* binz out @12.45am on the 28May MON

no more energy

duno if it's stress or tiredness. i'm losing my eyesight. yes. cant see clearly in my right eye liao... getting from bad to worse. sighs.

in extremely shitty mood today. yes and i wonder why. worked til 4am yest, almost got pscyhoed to extend to 6am. thank God i didnt. went to paya lebar to meet gaw top3 for discussion, then met CDAC and Woodlands SSC in charge for GAW project discussion. was a long discussion starting from 430pm to about 6plus. but very insightful. cleared up loads of doubts, brought our message across and decided on alot of things. eg. how we were going to go about collecting the wishes, planning the party. dates and deadlines were set. pretty tight schedule for wish cell and for them on their side, but they're really helpful and cooperative. :)

probably the biggest thing that dawned on my during the meeting was that there were sooooooooooooo many needy children from SSCs. thousands. and yet we can only help a mere 400 at max. we decided it was to be on a first come first serve basis, since we cannot grant all their wishes. once again, God made me feel so small and insignificant in His world. Yet, i'm still thankful and blessed that we were given this opportunity to help at least some of them.

the passion for the project and the passion to serve children.

anw, by the time we set new deadlines for wish... and by the time i made my way to school for cluedo trial, i was like super tired le. and plus the long trip and more time to space out and think. i probably reached schoool at 7plus, and quite late. STUPIDLY, i ran/rushed from central lib to AS7, cuz it was stated in the trial schedule that venue was at AS7. YES. and STUPIDLY i reached there PANTING and half dead, only to realise that it was STUPIDLY empty. YES. then i called and realised that they were all at YIH. YES. STUPIDLY. i called so late. STUPIDLY. i duno if i was boilng more with anger or tiredness or unhappiness or frustration. i think it was all rolled into one. and so i was so pissed with myself, i STROLLED like a tortoise from AS7 all the way to YIH. and cuz the route was soooooo long, tiring and dark, my mind was wandering again. about:-

1. wad on earth i was doing to myself being so stressed out and crazified.

2. wad on earth i was doing to my frens around me. neglecting and ignoring them? i dun even know wad i did or did NOT do to cuz wadever wadever.

3. wad on earth i was doing to make my dad worry so much everyday i come home so late.

4. wad on earth i was doing to my body, trying to make myself fall sick?! although i kinda secretly hope that i fall extremely sick. so sick that i can rest and not think or do so much.

5. wad on earth i was doing to my mind, thinking about so much nonense.

i think the pressure got so bad that i really really wanted to give up. but duh i cant. i cant cant cant cant cant cant. but duh i want. i want want want want. hahaha.

cry liao doesnt mean will make the situation any better.

didnt really go every station for cluedo, just visited a few. anw i was too shagged to think much for cluedo and had to expend much energy pretending to look energetic. probably wasnt very successful at that but it's pretty tiring trying to pretend that u're not as tired as u look.

duno if people tend to blame themselves when complaining and procrastinating, but i do that alot. hahaha. makes u feel like the lousiest person bah. SIAN.

it's just soo tiring trying to settle the top5 pointers listed above.

back home 1230am again today, and tmw working 8hrs from 10am. yeah lah all my own fault that i do so many things.

it's just not by my strength that i can accomplish anything.

going to sleep liao.

*thoughts* binz out @1.22am on the 26May SAT

untitled

watching american idol finals right now on channel5. still cant believe jordin's only 17. goodness. her voice is so powerful. although still not as pro as kelly clarkson, but she's another carrie underwood to be, cuz she loves country songs too. hahaha.

finally it felt sooooooo great to be home at 5pm today.

was so tired yest nite at 1am that i forgot to off my laptop power, and forgot to off my hairdryer power either. only realised it just now at 9pm when i wanted to use my laptop again. hahaa. my dad warned me that my lcd screen will burn if i forget to off my laptop power. just like wad happened to shaowei's laptop? haha. scary.

went to sleeeepppppppppppp some time after i got home today. only woke up at 8plus feeling so shiok. :) finally i earned my afternoon nap!

almost had to sacrifice my afternn nap today! ALMOST! cuz SL called me for immediate work within 1hr while i was still at school after external hunt trial today. will be paid $9/hr for the first 3hrs i think. if u manage to reach within 1hr from the time they called u. i hesistated for a moment, and decided nah, i wanna rest today. ANW i'm working tmw night shift. so today's my rest day ie. NO WORK!

shiyun called me up for morning call today, but i still woke up late and reached school late for external hunt trial. sighs. my neutral for grp5 didnt turn up at all. sob. anw after the debrief, we all slacked in the clubroom as usual, playing bridge, laughing... haha.

totally excited about gaw's pub. haha. yAy! :) got a pretty ambitious pub team but heh i think they can do it! although vpsp going to complain about us building stuff for csc again.. haha. but i really like the theme! :) and tanching and shiyun sorta managed to convince me today that it's buildable.... hahaha. theoretically it sounds feasible.

YESTERDAY! :) had no time to blog about it. group5 had our settlers' outing!!! :) and we had 3 guests from group7 - kris, tiong, shiyun. yAy! hm, kc and akc were late cuz we were both rushing down from work, sandra, chui ling, chee sing, joachim turned up :) total count: 9! Though there werent many 9 player games available, haha but i think we enjoyed the bone game the most. HAHA. we were like looking for physically exciting games that didnt require us to use our brains. literally. we were like so lazy to play "thinking" games, we only wanted "snatching" and "anyhow grab cards" game. HAHA. we played thAT balancing game, and laughed like mad. i think i failed as an engineer. cuz they kept saying reach my turn then the game going to end liao. cuz i'm going to crash the whole thing by taking the OBVIOUS wrong piece. HAHA. ioooppppsss. ahhh yest tired lah. got nothing to do with my engineering knowledge lorhs. we laughed and shouted and made animal sounds. hahahah.

MORE OUTINGS TO PLAN!

i wanna watch shrek3 and pirates of the carribean - at world's end!!!!!

wan watch wan watch wan watch wan watch!

AMERICAN IDOL! OMG. that last song, "This is My Now". goodness. OMG. JORDIN voice is like soooo amazing. it's soooo feeling. OMG OMG OMG. although blake's beatbox is soooo cool, and he's such a great performer, BUT BUT, jordin's voice. i loved blake's first 2 performances. but the last song, the AI new single, jordin really really really won hands down. no doubt. maybe the song just wasnt blake's type of song, BUT.... the last song, itself - enough to make my guess:-

JORDIN SPARKS TO WIN AMERICAN IDOL! :)

*happy* binz out @11.03pm on the 23May Wed

god lurves u!

when i'm weary and down, disheartened and disappointed, God always manages to reach out to me.

in amazing ways.

bao bao recently accepted Christ last week, and i'm extremely thankful to hear him share his experience. although i was extremely x 100 tired on sun night after work til 12midnite, i could still keep myself awake to hear his testimony over the phone til 3am. *when i really couldnt take it anymore - had to go sleep*

similarly, when crystal shared her acceptance with me a few months back. it was also amazing. although we dont have time to meet up, to chit chat over the phone, but simple msn messages to keep ourselves updated, to ask about how she's coping, any prayer requests etc.

bin treasures frenship and family ties alot. God knows me best and only now do i realise that God uses people around me, to show me his love for them, for me, and for everyone he created on Earth.

i counted. my 2 aunts, my 3 cousins, my 2 grandparents, my dad, my mum... all accepted Christ across the past years. in addition to that, my dad's cousin families are both Christian families too, my grandpa's sis family also all Christian.

from the past yr, i got to know more and more Christian frens, and saw more close frens accept Christ.

God's powerfully amazing.

it's official. i'm WAY BUSIER NOW DURING THE HOLIDAYS, THAN MY USUAL SCHOOL DAYS.

WHERE'S MY BREAK!

hahahah. i leave the house earlyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy in the morning, and reach home only lateeeeeeeeeeeee at night. not that i want to, but i just have to. this week:

mon:- 12nn reach school, stayed for Shiseido talk and MJ trial. went home after dinner, reached home @ 1130pm

tue:- work 10am to 6pm, rushed to holland V for group 5 outing at settlers' cafe. reached home @1115pm

wed:- 8am to be at school - this is impossible for tmw. external hunt trial

thur:- work 10pm to 4am. supposed to visit my grandma either wed or thur too.

fri: meeting gaw top3 230pm, then meeting cdac ppl with wish cell, then cluedo trial

sat:- work 10am to 6pm

sun:- going church with baobao for healing service, then going lighthouse in the evening.

better pray hard that i dont fall sick and i dont have to work extra this week.

i dun even wanna think about next week.

sob.

boo.

thank youS for the prayers and encouragement! :)

will do the same.

tmw 8am. teach me to wake up.

*JESUS!* binz out @1.00am on the 23May Wed

48hrs

AMY! come back soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

わたしは　じかん　がありません！！

どして？

わかりません！　

haha i think only my roomy knows wad i just complained. some ppl just like to keep themselves extremely busy.

anw, i decided i'm not going for any RH block outings. quite glad none of them will be reading this. hahahaa. surprising decision? not really.

不认识你不认识你!!

i happily copied this from a copyrighted source. HAHA.

不认识你不认识你!!

just that now it applies 2 people. *frustrates*

*pulls hair*

i probably dont agree that all guys are jerks. haha. but maybe those who are, are big jerks. hahaha.

on a separate point, haha. i finally TOOK CALLS ON MY OWN yesterday! although only for 2 hours. hahaha. but it was cool. and scary lah. duh! i got some chinese guy who wanted me to speak in chinese~~ hahaha. and i got some special order. without this and extra that. haha. the scariest thing was my computer system screwed up!~ while i was in a call!!! kept giving me error message and i couldnt get the order no. for the customer. was going to freak out liaos, but lucky customer was quite patient, i told him there was a problem and transferred his call to my colleague. i think he repeated 3 times for his order!! sighs.

quickly changed a computer and everything went pretty fine. i kept checking back every order i made cuz i was sooooo scared that i took a wrong order. hahaha.

bin's extremely thankful to her 3 mentors! :) who taught me ALOT ALOT during my 24hrs of training. they were all so good, and i really learnt alot from them :) they cleared my doubts, gave me confidence, pushed me to try it out myself. i said thank you very much to them after our sessions :) thank youS so much for the knowledge, for everything, for the compliments! i learnt how to deal with all sorts of situations, and they were really good! i was blessed to be assigned such good mentors! :)

cant remember wadever else i wanted to blog liao. hais. too many things to remember in 24hrs. GOD! i need 48.

i'm so tired that i forgot wad else i wanted to complain and nag about.

*work* binz out @11.00pm on the 20May Sun

busy busy as a bee

ONE WEEK. AS BUSY AS A BEE. HAHA. oh weellll.....

wad wad wad is new? hais but then again, there's still some people who are busier than me!~ boo. sobs.

got 2 bdays next week. and i havent gotten either of the presents. help!!!!!

ms bee has been busy with the following:-

- calling freshies!~ yAy! group5 has 3 guys and 1 gal confirmed. few more to go!!!

- planning group outing~ yAy! group5 going to have a settlers' outing next tue! most can make it! :) finally!**

- job interview~ yAy! got a job at MacDelivery call centre. hahaa. yes. call Mac and u might hear me. hahaa. anw i like it cuz it's a flexible time job. 8hrs, 3day week min. 24/7 round the clock can work anytime. pays about $6 to $7.50 per hour, depending on day/night shift, wkday/wkend shift. cab fare covers after 12midnite. heh. i'm working tue, sat day shift. thur nite shift.

- settling all the admin stuff for gaw, for e4. sighs. i literally spent an entire day typing and typing and typing...

- spent another day editing the video for matric fair~ yAy! finally just got it done. hence i'm slacking at the clubroom now.

- been out every day in the week. i seriously wonder how i do it. and i'm not out partying.. haha i'm back in skul twice or thrice a week.

- and it's going to get worse. yeah. tmw and fri my job training starts at 9AM and ends at 9PM. yes. 24hrs in total of training. boohoo.

- next week onwards, either i'm back at skul for all the trials, or i'm at tampines picking up calls. hahaha. my travelling time will be spent worrying about gaw and thinking about wad other stuff i have to do/settle.

*screams*

haha. if i tell u i'm excited and scared at the same time cuz of my crazy schedule, is that believable?

hahahaaha. i koped all these from tan ching~ lalalaa. gaw rocks! :)

*busy bee* binz out @7.51pm on the 16May Wed

MUM'S DAY

haha. i woke up at 7am today. without an alarm clock. dun ask me why. haha. i so bored waking up so early... although i have lots of e4 stuff and gaw stuff to do... but i was slacking watching my yang guo. hahaa. i was so bored i made my bro wake up at 730am. so that i wouldnt be that bored. hahaha.

i sleep 5hrs a day. sometimes 4hrs, sometimes 6hrs. never in my life do i ever wake up so early for no reason. haha has been happening for the past week. weird huh.

when was the last time u read a book and cried? haha. well, i tried my best to finish reading the "Chasing Daylight" book on the bus ride to skul for gaw meeting yest. i had to look away, at the scenery outside, at ppl in the bus... just to keep my eyes away from the book every other paragraph. yes paragraph. the last chapter was extremely saddening to read. really. the last chapter was by his wife. she penned down her thoughts and wad she felt her husband was going through. i'm amazed at how much she understood him. and how strong she stood by him the entire time.

oh well. i only remember fighting back my tears for the entire last chapter. he valued his family alot. he worried constantly about how they were coping, how they were going to cope after he was gone... etc. his biggest worry was his 14yr old daughter. it was the toughest closure he had to do. there was no way he could make it perfect for her. she was mature for her age, but still had to cope with the impending death of her father.

"Gene had worked so hard to find the perfect trip or gesture or gift for her to have the rest of her life... but how was that possible? How do you unwind a relationship with a child? Your child? Who's 14 yrs old? Gene kept thinking about what he needed to do or say, even though he'd done and said everything he needed to do or say, from him to her. But he could never satisfy himself that he'd done it right with her because he lacked the one final ingredient he couldnt summon, no matter how hard he tried.

time." quoted from the last chapter of the book

it's impossible. no matter how hard he tried. i would say he's blessed. because he had such a supportive family. all the way. he had the chance to "plan his last days". he changed his perspective of life, he learnt so much more.

i thank God for blessing me to read this book. This Mother's day.

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY TO my dearest MUMMY in heaven! :)

more thanks. For the precious 13yrs we shared.

*cherish* binz out @10.01am on the 13May Sun morning

tiring!

yeah. back blogging. why? cuz i cant sleep. haha. maybe i'm too excited about gaw's first meeting tmw. i duno. maybe cuz i just woke up at 12midnight. haha.

i'm not working and yet i'm rushing from place to place everyday.... duno wad this feels like. travelling all over the place. i leave home early in the morning, 8 or 9am, and get back home during the evening. usually i try to make it back for dinner. BUT i usually fall asleep immediately when i reach home and eat my dinner when i wake up. been sleeping about 4hrs the past few nights. made up the remaining hours when i get back home in the evening.

sighs. hols just started and i'm getting tired~ hahaaa. i havent even really met up with my pals. seriously wonder where my 24hrs went.

went for ethelonter4 councillor briefing today. gosh. looking at the trial schedules, i foresee myself going down to school every other day... *faints* well i'm supposed to be prepared for it the day i decided to sign up for kc. hahaa. well i like my group! :) yay! we're DYNATOFFEE!!! hahaha. and our symbol is like a TV with a csc heart in it. hahaahaha. so cute!!!! group5 welcomes all super councillors!!! :) okies. my group is great cuz it's made up of fun people! haha. all easy going people and i cant wait to see us all go crazy during the trials and camp!~ plus liming's in my group!!! HAHAHAHAHA. cant wait cant wait.

group7 did a slideshow/video for all to view. memories from E3 last yr. it amazes me how time flies. haha. looking at the photos, the fun we had, the laughter we shared, the craziness we went through. i really really really miss sentosa. the preparation, the trials, the day itself. this yr's sentosa gonna be great too!~ hehee. cuz the sentosa ic - sandra - is in my group! hahaa. cuz she really very yang guang!~ cant wait to play sentosa again!

been reading this book for the past week. "Chasing Daylight" by Eugene O Kelly. It's his account of how his forthcoming death changed how he viewed life. he wrote the book while he had about 3 months to live, from the day he was diagnosed with late stage brain cancer. and he's the CEO of KPMG in US. very insipiring book. i'm at the last chapter, written by his wife, when he's about to die. ok i stopped reading while on the mrt to school today. cuz i was extremely scared that i was gonna cry reading it and ppl are going to think i'm mad. hahahaa. actually cuz the last chapter is really saddening. cuz he gets weaker and weaker by the day... etc etc.

i read about how he prepared himself for the "transition" into the next phase of life after death... about how he prepared people around him to accept his parting. many a times, i wonder. if only i had read this book 8 years ago.

i wanted to be there to understand all of it. to be more mature about it. maybe i would have been able to cope with it better.

haha. nah it's ok. all things happen for a reason. at least God made me find this book to read it now. still very thankful and blessed for it.

death is not scary. it's wad u leave behind, that makes it so tough.

I am thankful for those memories, and Perfect Moments. even if i did not understood them back then, i do now. and cherish them even more. How many Perfect Moments have u experienced? How many did u miss out? may have occurred, but u didnt realise it.

oh well. learn from the past, cherish the memories and move on with life. we still always got to look ahead. no matter how long and winding the roads are. =) He will carry us through. Amen.

* anw, i did blog a previous entry. a long long one in fact. about my enjoyment week after the last paper. class chalet, pulau semakau fieldtrip, etc.... BUT my laptop crashed with a serious error blue screen message and shut down on its own. so i lost that post and i'm lazy to repeat it all over again. maybe another time. * haha.

i probably only remember the beautiful sunrise i saw in the morning at pasir ris. with my birthday mortal.

it's 3am! time to snooze!

*mummy* binz out @3.00AM on the 12May Sat morn

freedom!~

yipppppppppppppeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

should have blogged this yest nite, but was too engrossed with other stuff to do so. haha. 1st day after exams yest wasnt too bad!~ although totally shacked upon reaching home, but was all worth it!

first night before the start of exams, recalled that i couldn't sleep. last night before the end of exams, also couldn't sleep. haha. too anxious, too excited.

after the 2hr30mins paper..... -_-" had lunch at engin canteen before heading off to clementi kbox with my class. woot. =) total of 13 people went....quite a number havent finished their exams yet!!! haha. anw we changed room twice! Meaning.. we went to a total of 3 different rooms during the 5hours of kboxing. yea the rooms got bigger each time. the last room was at K1, sooooooooooo huge that the screen is the size of the entire wall, and u must walk RIGHT UP to the corner of the room to dedicate ur songs. the seats are toooo far away. cant even see the screen dedication. yups, so big that 10 people can dance in the middle of the room. HAHA. YEAH> so big. imagine. we had 4 mics in total. 2 wireless. HAHA. YEAH> so big. hahaaha. to think i went kbox countless number of times, i've never such a huge room b4. haha.

ANYWAY, was a pretty tiring 5hrs spent. quite a number of times a few of us were about to fall asleep inside. haha. heard various singing.... and some screaming. hahaa. before we went in, i actually thought we were be split into two groups since we had so many people. but no, we didnt. hahaa. toooo big a group, in toooooo BIG a room, may not be a very good thing at times. hahaa. BUT ANW, i learnt a number of new songs. =)

luo zhi xiang's hip hoppinggggggg songs~ it's amazingly NICE when u can sing it to the beat!!!!~ with the cool voice. HAHA! not many people can do it, and that's wad makes it different! =)

okies enough nagging about kbox. ha. we went for dinner after that cuz we were all starving after being cooped inside for so long.

wad a really tiring day but fun too. cuz we discussed about our upcoming chalet, bbq, and fieldtrip. this weekend!!!~ *cant wait*

TODAY>> went to watch spidey3~~~~ YAY! =) watched with my family at shaw towers. managed to book tickets!! yayyyyyy. was pretty nice, about 2hr+ show. more drama, more action, more enemies, better acting, better storyline and plot, more emotional....pretty lot more than spidey2. haha. *or maybe i just cant really remember wad spidey2 was about*

somehow, i dun wan this week to end. got activities everyday.... cuz this is my only "true" break for the 3 months. sighs. next week all the "work" will come in, includes gaw & e4. haha. seems like i got alot of admin related stuff to settle. duno why.

i cant sit still. always busy. duno doing wad. and yea, since when am i not busy. haha. even during hols i must keep myself so busy. why do u keep doing so much stuff? everything's somehow or another, "a part of my business".... HAHA. yeah. i wonder. how did i get myself involved in so many things.

i gave it a second thought. but ultimately, i couldnt afford to. i gave up the opportunity that was probably right in front of me. an opportunity to have fun, to experience, to really enjoy life out of singapore. maybe, if only i considered it more carefully, i may have gone. really sighs. always thought i'm too homesick to be able to venture out. boooooo. ur words knocked sense into me. sooner or later, i have to get out of the tiny island of singapore. why didnt i realise it earlier! obvious fact that i missed. totally. come to think of it now, i even think that giving up all of my holiday plans are worth it. it's just whether or not i WAN to.

i knew it all along. and i missed it. now the opportunity's gone and it's not coming back. any other time going wouldnt be the same as this hols. BOO!

*sob* binz out @11.36pm on the 1May Tues night

Boo!

as usual. i'm bored studying. haha. n here i am, typing more uncomprehensible stuff on my blog. haha. roomy suggested to rename my blog to itsasecret.blogspot.com. hahaha. oh well. maybe i'll do that after my last paper on mon. now still copying my compiled notes into my helpsheet. =P

watched abit of slam dunk anime earlier, while copying my notes. haha. extremely funny. although i read the completed manga collection twice, but watching is another pleasure altogether. haha. sakuragi kun is extremely funny, he makes u LOL at all the stupid n retarded things he does. HAHAHA. but of cuz he's NOT my fav character. i only like shuai and cool guys = RUKAWA!! hahaha. he's super act cool!~ but very pro player. i like the 3 point shooter as well, but he hasnt started playing yet cuz we're only at disc2 of the 13dvd set. lols. brought it for my bro as his bday prezzie, but duh i get to watch everything as well!!! HAHAHA. wonderful prezzie. lols. but i wasnt the one who wanted to watch it desperately k. hahaha. i just dun mind watching it~ =)

cant wait for hols. haha. mon 11am!~

it's terrible to have 5 papers everyday for the past week. now is the only time i feel i can breathe. slept extremely shuang in the morning today, knowing that i dun have to wake up early to study. hAHA.

anw my dad's away during the weekend, so i'm at my grandma's place now. *happie* hahaha my bro's trying to psycho me to go play basketball with him. i think he watched too much slam dunk. he went to take his basketball and pumping it now....booooo.

oh well. stop nagging and start mugging~

CANT WAIT 3 MAY!!!!!! WAKAKAKAKKAKA.

*excited* binz out @7.36pm on the 27Apr Fri evening

fan bu wan de xia tian! =)

19 yrs old. composer. reminds me of tank, although he seems better looking than tank. hahaha. nice cute song.

Y =)

not in my hands

exams time. had 2 papers yest. another coming up later, another tmw, another the day after. yups my papers are back-to-back. lol. cant wait for thur 11am, after jap i can go home n sleep....mon last paper, just need to prepare my cheatsheet. ie. compile all my foolscap paper notes onto one piece of paper.

dun know wad to blog about anymore.

life is boring during exams.

everyone's exam-ing.

everyone's bored.

that includes me now.

tell me wad to blog.

dun feel like studying.

boohoo. my sorethoart is coming back!

i like cute songs! she attempts to dance! haha.

*boo* binz out @12.20pm on the 24Apr Tue noon

thoughts & worries

think too much. = worry too much. i need to focus and study. else i'm going to regret vvvv BADLY. sighs. help!

decisions made hurt others. i can only hope they understand, and get over it soon. wad else can i do? cant show much concern though i really wan to. it's like stabbing you then asking you if it hurts, and if you need any first aid. DUH! (exaggerated example lah)

hope you guys understand.

excited about gaw, at the same time, worried. ha. i keep reminding myself about all the stuff i need to get done. duno why. subconsciously. i think i need a personal assistant to remind me. i'm getting extremely senile and forgetful.

WE ARE ALL GONNA MISS SLP SOOO MUCH. SIGHS. :(

i'm determined to source my bro's prezzie. how? lol.

*forgetful* binz out @12.20am on the 17Apr Tue morn

flashbacks

seeing others in your past experiences/situations. i can only barely understand the uneasiness, the pain, the disappointment, the hurt, all rolled into one.

boing to approach the one year mark.

thinking back. i can only sigh more. Believe in wad the Lord has planned for you, everything that happens for a reason, for you to fulfill His purpose.

only can tell u to jiayous!! :) you can do it!!!!!

i can still recall my impulse thoughts. i die die wanted to leave raffles hall soooo badly. i wanted either one of us to disappear totally from the face of this earth. so that i wont ever have to face him. (impossible fact) i was sooooo sure i wanted to leave my roomy alone, dump my concert tech head responsibilities, leave the pile of raffles hall crap behind me. i was boiling with anger, madness, and a whole lot other nonense.

more anger than hurt? perhaps bah. i only know that i can hide my hurt/sadness very very well, but not my anger. ha! i just scream at anyone who dares to come close. i shutted out from allllll my close frens who were so concerned. yet i could bear to shun them all away. the toughest period, i chose to go through it alone. Countless times, i questioned the meaning of life.

i mastered the act of looking through him as though he's invisible, transparent, and non-existent to me. totally. i just did that yest nite at supper. haha.

yup it almost impossible to still remain as frens. i'm sure alot of ppl are going to agree with me on this. haha.

at the end of the day, i believe it's a blessing in disguise. you'll be proud of yourself, and be thankful to God. He never let me see them together. not even once.

it's going to take another million years to open up the stone-cold-hard heart again.

*thinkingggg* binz out @12.12am on the 17Apr Tue morn

immune system

havent been blogging. ppl starting to nag that i'm not updating this boring blog of mine. not that i dun wan to keep it up to date, or include some nice beautiful photos.....my retarded phone and laptop cant seem to connect to each other, while being able to connect to other devices respectively. haha. no idea why. my stuff are becoming as cranky as their owner.

had about 8 interviews at one go on monday. kinda tiring to have so many continuously within hours.

tue had jap lessons, tuition, mugged at clubroom at night. couldnt sleep cuz i sneezed throughout the night, and had to keep waking up for tissue papers. terrible feeling to be so tired and yet not be able to sleep well at all.

wed was feeling shaky in the morning, due to last night's traumatic nose blowing incident. couldn't really climb out of bed, took panadol, felt blows of hot and cold, went to clubroom for more interviews and top3 discussion. mugged for jap oral. went for election forum in RH, 11pm to 1am. went back to my room at 130am, fuming mad. about to shout at anyone. stupid comments made on election forum by one of the presidential elects. made me so pissed off, i wanted to shout back at him in the mic. he was saved by the hon gen sec who said it was the last question for the night. else i would have expressed my utter disturbance right there and then. oh well, was really not feeling very well, and had to put up with this nonense. anw, i talked to him about it, since i know him personally, shortly after i went back to my room. thanks for giving me that total disinterest when i was nicely telling you about the matter. you just helped me make such a easy decision as to who my votes go to.

wed nite, after accumulating a whole ball of fire in me, my stomach started to give problems. "Colic" i wonder wads that. bloatedness in your stomach, running to the toilet and getting constipation. could hear the rumblings (not hunger pangs) in my stomach. felt my stomach was having an internal war. roomy listened to my stomach and told me it sounded very noisy, like there was firecrackers inside or sthg. haha. took medicine and went to sleep for 4 hours.

thur, woke at 8am for project presentation. 10.18am jap oral test. 8mins of traumatization. had Q&A from tutor, then a short conversation with my partner based on the topic we randomly picked, then 3 separate role plays. -_-

1. exams have ended. invite your fren to watch movie. suggest a date, place, where to meet. (my fren told me her exams havent ended, she's unavailable on the day i suggested, and immediately once we managed to set the time, day, place to meet, my teacher snatched our cards away and switched to role play no.2.

2. ask the directions to the public phone.

3. ballpoint pen shop. i was the shopkeeper, my fren was the customer.

our conversation topic was our favourite sport/music. hahah we talked about playing tennis together, cuz we both liked it. HAHA.

all that in 8mins. i think we screwed up at some parts.... wrong vocab/nervousness/particles!!!! ahhhhh it's like u dun have time to think. our tutor kept asking us to speak immediately once we got each of the questions. haha we needed some time to think of wad to say... and she was quite tensed up about the 8min time limit for each pair. so much so that she dropped our question cards twice when passing it to us. HAHA.

JAP 1 over in a flash. will i do JAP 2? sem4 over in NUS. sighs. saddened*

traumatization of jap oral + 4hours of sleep the night before = zombie me today. wanted to go out with bro cuz today's his birthday, but we decided to go out tmw instead. he's tired, i'm very tired, and we couldnt find a suitable place to go. plus he has skul tmw. oh well.

tried to catch forty winks from 6plus to 7plus, but ended up settling quite a bit of gaw stuff. hp kept ringing with sms/calls, couldnt really sleep. when i did, i think it was 8pm. woke up at 10.45pm to realise that it's all dark in the room and outside.

3am now, cant sleep, cant study. wad to do? blog.

nag.

my immune system is down. will fall sick anytime. how.

almost fogot to mention, he lost the election. results just released not long ago.

*tired & dizzy* binz out @ 3.55am on the 13Apr Fri morn

deadlines

loads of deadlines to remember. going bonkers. haha. projects.....assignments, submissions, term paper....lab....how come suddenly got so many. hall application acceptance, minor application, project presentation, 0_0 it's kinda madness. i got to check for the entire week and plan in advance...lols exams coming and i still got so much stuff to do!!~

did a rough gaw timeline overview...haha and realised that it's quite packed! in fact, very packed. haha! a project to look forward to =) JOIN US!!! hehehehe.

my jap classes are coming to an end!!!! SOB X 10000 AHHH....no more nihongo!!!!!! sighs. last week was the last TC session!!!~ no more conversation!!! sob sob sob. next week is ORAL TEST! *faints* stress. haha. my frens asked me y am i stressed about it when i already s/u it. HAHA. i duno. cuz still need to practise oral mah. confirm will gan cheong like mad during the test!!!~ so many grammatical structures to remember!!! today's TA lesson, sensei was already testing us....kept asking questions individually to get us to reply, and converse with her. 0_0 and we had to practise coming up with conversational topics based on looking at some pictures! goodnesss. i shall practise one topic conversion everyday from today onwards. HAHA anw i've got jap peeps around me in hall. isshoni ganbatte kudasai! quite amazed at the amt of jap vocab i learnt in this semester, being able to converse very simply, and asking directions etc..... YAY!!! =)

so sad that i'm gonna forget everything once my lessons end. soooooooooooooooobbbbbbbbbbbbbb. boohoo.

looking forward to this weekend, although i got lots of stuff due next week. term paper, lab, project presentation.... cuz it's GOOD FRIDAY! =) yipppeee. going some church event on friday evening, and also promised gracie i will go sun healing service. i HOPE and pray hard that i have enough time to finish all my work!!!~

bro's bday coming soon ORH! it's april le! sighs. still duno wad to buy him.....bro! give me hints!! lols.

maybe, if i dun go for IA in yr3 sem2, instead opt for VIP during next yr's 3months hols...i can have more time to study more JAP! hahahaha! and probably more time to clear stuff like UROP and biz management modules during that semester.

who knows wad other commitments i'll have next yr? cuz going for IA means my entire sem is gone! no time to study other interesting modules or be involved in other activities! that's quite saddening. haha.

yay! quite happie i got allocated kuok. and not raffles. haha. lol sick of hall life. 4 semesters is more than enough. feel like puking liao. HAHA. kuok = quiet, can study better....and plus more privacy. biggest adv, NEAR TO ENGIN! plus near to "tasty corner" -- my daily supper trips. LoL. but maybe due to some unforeseen circumstances, i might just not stay on campus at all next semester.

In all you do, Commit to Him and Trust His Direction and Purpose for you.

time to get back to work!

*busy busy* binz out @ 6.09pm on the 3Apr Tue afternn

productions

haha. watching productions from the audience seat is just plain weird. i only enjoyed the dances. the storyline was quite typical, but acting wasnt there. haha. not critisizing them, cuz they are after all, performers, not actors....just felt weird watching the acting. 0_0. must be concert's influence. hahaa. i learnt to appreciate live acting on stage, when u feel like u understand the actors/actresses feelings...somehow, i can just feel the difference...hahaha. after watching countless rehearsals, shows for 2 concert semesters...*this is wad u get* :P

was watching all the lights, changes, chases, sequences, and what not....saw and knew wad was going on behind the tech room. haha. i must be crazy.

was listening to the mixing, only lead actors had mics, the rest couldnt hear them. mixing when there was live band/singing performances....hahaha. okies fine. i shant complain too much.

was paying attention to the singing. some were good, others not as good. some had amazingly powerful voices.... some were off rhythm, off key. others had close to perfect performances. pretty wide spectrum of singers. haha.

could see that backstage was not coordinated. audience kept waiting, backstage ppl were inexperienced. overall coordination had loads of hiccups.

yea, how to enjoy a show at this rate?? 0_0

had flashblacks about concert. was great. had dreams about next concert. was bad. LOL!

*crazie* binz out @ 11.07pm on the 31Mar Sat nite

pretty babe! this is for you!

haha first of all, you dun have to be disappointed that u werent there. it's cuz it's about gaw that's y i couldnt ask u about it. yups. but anw now no prob le. i sorted out my thoughts. hahaa. if you ever get to be the PD of any proejct, i look forward to that day....then i'll volunteer to be ur apd. haha. seriously. bet u dun wanna leave csc without leading a project on ur own rite? :P

i went for CAC production. i heard the ppl from voices. 0_0 those who performed that nite werent good leh. kinda bad. very bad. hahaa had to close my eyes and ears. i thought voices was supposed to be good....but this was bad...maybe their good ones didnt perform. hahahaha.

anw go for it ya. ur PD supports u. heh :)

GRANT-A-WISH 2007!!

HERE WE COME! :)

*excited* binz out @ 10.54pm on the 31Mar Sat nite

ANOTHER WEEK AT SKUL

nothing exciting happened at skul as usual, though had a pretty emotionally stressing week. did not have dinner at comm hall the whole of this week. i think i just set a record of that. after 4 semesters at hall. haha.

mon = cant remember why

tue = tuition

wed = CAC musical production

thur = meet SP for dinner @ subway

fri = went my grandma's place

had something on almost every afternn/evening of the week. how to find time to mug at this rate????? goodness.

CAC production --- went to support my fren who was in D'Hoppers. i liked the dance. the hip hop dance, jazz-cum-hip hop = jiphop? damn cool. :P i always thought hip hop looks so fun. yea interested to learn, but some ppl forever saying i look like spider. 0_0

cuz of you i hate the guitar now *HMPF*

"lousy ger" really so lousy meh. sometimes i'm just tired of the bickering...just goes to show wad u know is not even the TIP OF THE ICEBERG! hahhaha. wait til i unleash my poweRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

wait n see. u'll fly back to mars. HA!

when u're in need, ur frens disappear. i turned my head in many circles, i see no one in sight. i thought hard, and none. how many will understand? some dun even bother. ever felt like u're telling ur fren something, but ur fren is not even really listening to u? i lost the frequency, besides the jokes.

alone in human sense.

blessed in God's way.

I got the call i needed, and got through it all. without my frens. yes. a blessing in disguise.

i wan to leave hall. really ironic. i was hesistant to leave after yr1, cuz of the people. now i WANT to leave, cuz of the people. weird~ just dun like the feeling.

iI got it. it matters to me, cuz it matters to you. if i knew it was going to be soo impt to u, would i have given it up instead? still a leader!! 0_0 is the difference THAT great? sighs. was damn sad when i read ur post. didnt mean to demoralise. felt like i took it away from u. i hope u're not comparing us. to each one's strengths and weakensses. hais i really duno y like that.

*confused* binz out @ 1.45am on the 30Mar Fri nite

fun weekend

ahhhh slacked the whole weekend. mugged til 4plus am on friday night. had to make myself feel abit better after not studying much for the whole of last week. haha. got nagged at when i went home too. lols. was told not to sleep too late everyday, cuz i'll regret it in time to come when age catches up with me. hahaha. it's true bah.

went sentosa on sat. went to see the 4D magix. went underwater world. was fun. wads 4D magix? = 3D plus more close up 3D. ie. having the 3D object right smack in your face, centimetres away from you. everything seems to point directly at u. haha was interesting. plus shaking seats and WATER spurts..... 0_0 totally unprepared for that. haha. underwater world was equally great, spent an hour plus just walking around the aquarium looking at the sea creatures and fishes, and getting amazed by all of them. heh. i wan to see the dolphins!!!!!! :( missed the dolphin show cuz we bought tickets too late. sighs. must go there again on the 1st of june.

went for 5th mc dim sum buffet on sun lunch. VERY VERY WORTH IT for $17 bucks. EAT ALL YOU WANT dim sum buffet...hahah especially since we went in a big group of 11 people, really ordered rounds and rounds of food. haha. i think we ordered AT LEAST 10 plates of pork ribs. cuz every round we ordered more. hahaha. it's damn nice to just sit around, chit chat, laugh around, joke around....instead of having a meeting everytime we meet up. HAHA. anw we ordered like 10 mango puddings + 15 sagos for dessert. haha. goodness, the table was like filled with alot of dim sum. eat until cannot move lah. haha.

lets have more outings! :)

*happie* binz out @ 6.05pm on the 26Mar Mon evening

Grant-a-wish 07

probably didnt go as well as i thought/hoped it'll be. but i'm certain i really want to lead this meaningful project. whether as pd/apd, i dun mind either. it'll be the best if we're both in top3, and that we'll have someone else who works well with us too. :) *keeping my fingers crossed*

i duno why i'm hesistating about going for attachment in yr3 sem2. my classmates are mostly going then. maybe that's y i shouldnt? i wana do more jap modules if possible, wana do more biz management modules... wana do more csc stuff. all my "potential commitments". i really duno wad else i can do in csc. ever thought that i'll miss working in the MC, wana do another term, but i cant be running for VP/P...hahaha. still wana do ethelonterV...lols i really think i'm mad.

i'm so bored if i dont do anything else but study. haha. enjoying stressing myself out? already thinking wad to do during the 3months break. ethelonterIV, work, travel? the cruise sounds very interesting. haha or am i getting tempted by the wrong reasons? i duno either. i miss catching up on my drama serials, reality shows, anime, and comics!!

really wana earn my kbox treat. or maybe it's just a passing remark that i shouldnt take it to heart. haha i just need to work hard to improve my results this sem! :)

where's the motivation coming from? GOD! where's my direction!

on a separate note, my poor bro fell sick over the march hols. and his block tests are this week. aiyohhs. still having fever, after going to the doctor's twice in 4days...goodness! :( is it partly psychological? i wouldnt be surprised. hehe. JIAYOU bro :) ganbatte kudasai!

*hoping* binz out @ 4.30pm on the 19Mar Mon morn

ai zhuan jiao

爱转角....Corner* with Love :) Love luo zhi xiang and Da S's chemistry in the show. haha forever quarrelling!! so cute! lols damn funnie. if only guys are as cute as luo zhi xiang when quarrelling. lols.

it was all a dream. too many dreams to know which is true and which is not. -_- too nice to be true. unforgettable night.

so similar yet so afraid that it'll have the same ending.

skul =(

Went for my 4th marketing tutorial today, and realised that the next marketing tutorial is going to be my LAST tutorial for the semester. -_-" was reminded of the LAST schooling day of the semester, 13April. That's in less than a month's time!!! goodness. no idea wad i've been doing the whole semester.. weeks gone by and i'm like a lost sheep.

sobs. been a tough semester. struggling more with myself than the modules themselves. must have been too overworked for too long. anw, i checked my cca points a few days ago. despite slacking in hall, not doing anything at all.....i still have enough points to stay next semester. maybe just at the cut-off margin of points. due to all the points i got from csc. =P didnt realise that i've got to make another "am i going to stay or leave raffles hall" decision again!!!!!!! *faints in despair*

shopping x 2. sing-a-long x 1. dinner out x 2. supper x a few times. am i thinking too much again? or am i dreaming about it even?

is it weird that i dont find it weird?

i tried a day without contact. somehow it never seemed to realise. am i weird or is it just weird?

*shucks* binz out @ 11.18pm on the 16Mar Fri nite

About Layout

Getting bored of my old layout, decided to give it a change. Nice purple color, nice magical feeling, nice cute anime character on the layout, which I happen to have no idea who that is. haha.

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