artist: becky

Zen

This is a paper i wrote for my Karate class on the book Zen and the Art of Archery...


    Zen and the Art of Archery is an excellent book and I am very glad to have been introduced to it. There is much insight to be gained from the text and what I have absorbed from it transcends into possibilities of how to live everyday life. The lessons have spoken to me not just in the context of improving my karate, but improving my quality of life.
    Many aspects of the Master’s teachings that the author found difficult to grasp are difficult for me as well. I understand what certain things mean but not how one achieves them. The author had difficulty with relinquishing control. He wanted to analyze his movements instead of letting them come naturally. The master said of his pupil, “ You think what you do not do yourself does not happen.” This is a way of thinking in which I find myself stuck. It is difficult to believe things can happen on their own if you only let them. The author also had trouble understanding how to attain real detachment. This is something I am puzzling over as well. I am sure it is possible to reach real detachment with practice, but I wonder how it is done. Right now I wouldn’t be able to do it. I would try to force myself to be a blank, have a clear mind, but inevitably struggling thoughts would appear and I do not know the proper tools to let them go. I have a lot of negativity inside myself to work through and let go of if I am ever to achieve peace and move forward, a daunting task that seems almost inconceivable.
Another difficulty for the author was patience when dealing with time; how long things took to occur, and how much time he spent studying without having reached his end result.  He was consciously loosing the arrow because he didn’t believe it would do so on its own if he waited for it. After a few years of training he thought he should have achieved something already, which he didn’t know that this thought was why he wasn’t achieving anything. He did not yet let himself go and so he concentrated on his failings rather than being present in what he was doing at that moment and moving through his technique without intention.  This is something that struck close to my own life. I am always in a hurry to achieve something, feeling that I’ve wasted so much of my time not being anything, an effect of being detained from life by panic disorder, and that I don’t have time to gain things slowly and enjoy the journey. I tend to want things now and sometimes cant get past the feeling that I am so very behind that I need to speed through to catch up.
Also the author seemed to have a tendency not to trust that someone else knew better than him about where his problems in technique lie. He tried to find more complicated answers when the Master had already given him a simple one. Sometimes, for me as well, it is harder to take a simple answer to heart and you have to explore all the difficult ones for yourself before you can try the simpler route. 
A quote from the text stuck out personally for me, “ But why try to anticipate in thought what only experience can teach?” This is something I have grappled with and only reading it said this way have I started to understand it.  Every experience is new and different and should not be compared to what you already think you know. No matter how much you dissect any situation, you have not yet experienced that specific one so all your preconceptions are moot.
The quotes and teachings of the Master rang out louder than some of the other text. They were filled with such simple poetic imagery yet were very powerful in getting across his message. Some of the things he said were as if he spoke directly to me. I read most lessons as if they were metaphor for things I have experienced. One lesson the author learned was that you must fail in order to be able to accept the proper techniques and appreciate their value. A quote from the Master, “You do not wait for fulfillment, but brace yourself for failure”, got me thinking about the way I react to life. It seems that it must be true that if you are that way things cannot happen independently of you and you must always be forcing things. I have tried the one way unsuccessfully so going the opposite direction looks to be what can work out for me.
From the quote about the one end of the bow piercing the sky and the other holding the earth on a thread, I surmised that one must attain spiritual balance, learn waiting, and practice calm movements. I also learned that you cannot shoot with the intention of hitting the target. Doing it this way your actions become sullied and forced and the real target, the spiritual target, cannot be hit. The Master said the only thing that should be practiced is self-detaching immersion. I believe that he must be right, but I still haven’t relinquished that I need to practice the stances of karate until I get them down pat.
Some concepts in the book I found a bit difficult to figure out completely. I came up with my own translations to certain things but am not sure if I have gotten them correct. One is “man thinks yet he does not think.” I took this to mean that you must move with instinct and not force. Another is the focus on breathing. I have come across this importance placed upon proper breathing before but did not understand it. I used to practice it for staving off panic attacks but was never able to let go of myself, relinquish control, and concentrate entirely on breathing long enough for it to have much effect. From reading this book I have come to a better understanding of how meditative breathing helps clear your mind and relax your body so that your movements can become freer and you can become present in what you are doing at that moment or achieve a state of un-being.
The concept of the aimer and the aim being singular I’m not certain I comprehend fully. What I gathered is that you must become part of the target and let the target become part of you, that way to hit the target you don’t have to shoot deliberate ly or so far because you already possess the target because you are the target. Then all that’s left is the technique.
 A part of the text I have not been able to decode is where the artist is bringing a situation into consciousness and entering into everything he detached himself from on page 38. I’m unsure of what is trying to be communicated about how the author feels about a higher power or the intoxicating vibrancy of events experienced.
There is much that I have learned and yet not learned because I do not yet know how to put these concepts into practice. I only mean that I believe I understand the concepts. The first is that it doesn’t matter if you hit the target because it’s only a tangible success. What matters is spiritual flow through the movements. This is the way I hope I can live. Nothing would be just a means to an end. Everything would be purposeful in and of itself. There wouldn’t have to be a specific end in sight if the path is full and pure and in the present tense.
To achieve detached selflessness you have to get rid of everything you think you know, all preconceptions, everything you’ve gathered from your life’s experiences so that you can become anew with an emptiness ready to be filled and so you can learn new ways without comparing them to what you’ve already absorbed.  Also I gathered that to have freedom of mind and spirit you must let yourself become part of everything and everything become part of you and thus you are part of nothing particular so you are not weighted down. And you mustn’t break the present moment by analyzing it.
 The text about the artist with his brush who no longer knows if his mind or his hand conjured the image first, is a beautiful image to me. To be so skilled and sure of yourself and free with your movements with out even having to think about it, with out having to be consciously aware seems such a fantastic state to be enveloped by. Another way I see it is; it is not you doing the “dance”, the dance is itself manifesting through you.
Another lesson is that satisfaction in your ability cannot exist if you truly gain selflessness because if you reach Zen then it is not you as an individual who hits whatever target; it is the entirety of everything together that hit that target. Satisfaction means you have not let go of yourself because satisfaction is reflection and comparison of the present to your past. I want to gain this state of being, to lose the need to know the hows and whys and what- ifs of every action or event. I do know that, as the Master said, I need to behave as if alone so nothing can deter or distract me from my movements.
I understand better now why we are always told in class not to think, just react. I think that I will be better able now to immerse myself in the techniques of karate. I hope that I will be able to become more selfless with going through this class and also so that I can become more skilled in the class. After reading this book I am more interested than ever in Zen and believe that it is the path that I should be on.


a poem i read at brighton......



Such a Delicious Sandwich
I
I am a liar
and im really good at it
ive developed a skill
and im sorry
no. thats a lie
my heart is as calloused
as my feet
from walking bare
all these years
i dont feel
apologetic
as long as i get
what im after
sneaky
exagerating
pretending
im just a
sheepish
victim of circumstance
so i cant be blamed
im not guilty
my only crime
liberation
of myself
from the machine.
too dim
to be devious
plotting
moves ahead
a villain on a chess board
im just so meek
honest
you'd never suspect
the embers of villainy
licking my insides
a rush
which i delight in
like an opiate
appeasing me
as i gaze
upon the skilled plays
ive maneuvered.
yes,
i am just too honest
too honest to lie
about being such a liar.

These are some writing assignments from my English class at Brookdale. Just me bragging about my wicked awesome skills!



Becky Polenberg

Writing 121

Something I Love

 

 

            Every day the splendor of nature has a way of enticing me out of the rest of the world, and allowing myself to be enveloped into it’s slowed down, less complicated universe.  It is a calming, eye opening sensation to observe and experience what the world has created in the outdoors, my animals at home, and wild animals, plants and insects. I am taken to an inner peace, engulfed in wonderment.       

            There are so many places outdoors I like to be. Fresh air and sunshine draw me out, but the details of what I see make me stay. I frequent the beach in the offseason with my dog Mocha, a German Sheppard, Lab, Pit Bull mix pound dog I adopted when I was 12. We usually have the place to ourselves. I enjoy watching her gallop happily on the cool sand, barking madly at nothing. We run together. I always stop first, distracted by the colors of the water, the possibilities that announce themselves on the horizon, the scent of air and sea and life on the wind, and the hope that I might find treasure peaking from the sand.

 I stand and stare out at the waves and the calmer water beyond. The color of the water so deep, so vibrant my breath steals away from me for a moment. Deep azure blending into turquoise green then breaking into glassy white caps on top of the waves. My eyes stare unbelievingly at the most beautiful, sharp colors, knowing this is better than any one dimensional high definition screen. The sights which thump your heart and stick in the back of your throat are in the reality outside, and you can grace yourself with

it if you stand still long enough to let it show itself.  When I’ve spent all the time I can outdoors, its time to get home to schedules and responsibility.

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In the midst of “To Do” lists at home, I still have pieces of nature to distract and absorb my attention. I have my animals. Each day I wake up to Mocha, her happy face and wagging tail telling me good morning and also that she is waiting for me to get out of bed so she can have it to herself. This is the kind of thing I really enjoy about my dog. I have only trained her to listen to the things that keep her safe, aside from that I just want her to be who she is.  She’s a real buddy, always talkative, always happy and ready to play. She’s absolutely gorgeous too: soft, floppy ears, medium length, dark brindle coat, long tail that curls into a circle, and intelligent, comically expressive face.  I can see real soul coming through her round brown eyes. When I stop to really look at her, I can’t believe that a creature can be this perfect.

I love to just watch her sometimes. She sits out on the back porch watching the sky as if she’s contemplating deep thoughts and when she doesn’t know I’m watching, I see her basking in the warm sun, rolling around the grass, barking to herself.  When we take walks she stops to smell flowers in the grass.  It brings a calm over me, a peace, to see her enjoy these simple pleasures and to know that she is here in my life.  I feel the same with my epileptic cat Scout.

Because of the epilepsy, a neurological disorder that causes seizures, he is a bit unusual. My sister gave him to me and I am so thankful because he ended up with someone who can give him the care he needs. Scout is such a unique cat and always very entertaining. He is like a tiny acrobat, always leaping and doing midair flips out of the

 

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blue. Then he perks up his ears, has this comical expression as if someone’s just insulted him, and takes off running like someone’s after him. After his antics he spends a lot of time napping. Scout is the most luxurious napper I’ve ever seen. He lounges on his back, paws curled up with the most serene face I can’t help but sidle up next to him to stare. He’s very much a pretty boy; long white and gray fur, huge, round green eyes that stare into space, a tiny pink nose, and long, flowy tail. Watching him always makes me feel so relaxed and if I have no obligations to tend to, I’ll curl up with him and let myself fall asleep. It’s such a great feeling to feel an animal enjoying your presence. Scout always grabs my arm, rubs his face against my hand, and falls back to sleep holding on tightly. There is no easier way to fall asleep then when I’m watching one of my animals. I feel their slow breathing and soft fur against my arms and watch their closed eyes and small contentedly grinning faces. The rhythmic heartbeat against my chest is my lullaby. As I drift off I imagine the only thing better than this could be if we were out in a meadow.   

            I’m always eager to go any place that is full of trees and grass and wildlife. When I know I’m going to a park or any place new, I usually take a camera so I can capture pieces of what is there to take and keep forever.  I love to find small corners of beauty hidden in our everyday world. A lot of times what I find is some kind of nature. I’m always finding interesting and wonderfully beautiful insects. I like to hold them in my palm and observe them observing me, antennas lightly tapping my skin, legs tentatively prodding as they walk. I have found insects that I didn’t even know exist; brilliant

 

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emerald green shield bugs, an oversized helmet headed moth, and a long, thin moth of shockingly bright orange covered with a grass green pattern.  I enjoy having these

creatures hang around for a while after I find them. They are so delicate and engaging I automatically slow down, and they slow down and seem to become comfortable on my skin. Oddly, when its time to send them off, I always have trouble getting them to leave. 

Other times what I find in nature are the captivating patterns created by plants. The soft greens of ground covering plants, the leaves overlapping and intertwining. The black silhouette of bare tree branches, spreading out fingers of skinny twigs and small berries against the twilight of an autumn sky.  In my yard I enjoy walking barefoot on the moss, and rub supple leave between my fingers to feel the delicious softness. As I walk in my neighborhood I stop to breathe it all in, the majesty of nature that is right out at the end of my walkway.  What I most long for from nature is the chance for one on one contact with animals. When a wild animal catches my eye, the challenge begins. If I am still enough, if I approach slowly enough and can communicate that I am no threat, perhaps they will stay and allow me to come closer into their presence. I never do get close enough, but even just seeing the animals from a distance ignites a thrill in my nerve endings which always leaves me looking for more.

            With the swell of pleasure I feel in my chest and the lighter feeling I get in my head every time I experience a piece of nature I know this is where  true peace and happiness lie.  The interest sparked in me by the outdoors, my animals and every wild

 

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creature has inspired my appetite for studying science. I plan to get a degree in zoology so I can interact with every species of animal.  I am eager to learn everything about our

world, but my personal Zen lies in nature. Allowing it to penetrate into my being, I feel simultaneously inconsequential and a part of everything, with the potential to make a difference.  My soul can never tire of the fulfillment it feels from absorbing all that nature has created.



Becky Polenberg
Eng. 121
On the Street Where I Live

 

 Occasionally I like to go back to my hometown and wander the streets where I grew up.  I lived in Red Bank for over 17 years of my life and it’s the only place that has ever been home. It’s very different now, when I go there. The people I remember, the places, are all gone or changed. But I can still see and feel everything that used to be there, bringing back ghosts of memories that leave me with a melancholy feeling of things lost.
    The hardest place to see is the house I grew up in. Its so different; the front room where my sister and I would play as children has been torn down and turned into a large porch, our old garage has been demolished and replaced, and the front yard has been landscaped. It’s hard to accept that someone else lives there now; every inch of that house is still encoded into my very being.  I can still recall very clearly every aspect of my old home.
    I walk in the front door, the feel of the knob as it recoils after turning, the cool glass pane against my palm as I push in. Then I’m in the small enclosed porch with the unfinished ceiling and bare bulb hanging down. I open the next door into the foyer, the bells hanging from the knob jangle.  All the sounds of home hit at once; the creak of the stairs, the hot air blowing from the heater grates, the click clack of my dog Max’s nails on the wood floor.

I walk through the kitchen, out the back door. The steps are cracked and crumbling, the screen door screams and bangs shut. My calico cat, Panzy is sitting on the

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top step, enjoying the fresh air. We sit together watching the morning light rise around us. The resonating clang of church bells drifts over to us. It’s a reassuring sound to me, the light hearted, happy notes absorbing into my skin.

Back inside the house, my family would be there. We’d all spend time together in our living room that my parents set up special for us kids. There was one wall that was all shelves to hold all of our art supplies, books, toys and the television.  There were big windows covering the other two walls always with spider plants dangling in front.  I remember Friday nights in that room, all four of us gathered around a steaming pizza and fizzy glasses of Pepsi, watching TGIF. It wasn’t anything extraordinarily special in the retelling, but when I was there it was the greatest feeling in the world. Everything was secure.

            Saturday mornings I’d awake early to the sounds of pans on the stove and Moody Blues on the stereo. I could the pine sol mop water as I descended the stairs to sit in front of the heater grate to let the warm air blow against my feet and face. Later when the cleaning was done and the house got quiet, I could hear the train whistle as it pulled into the station a couple blocks away. The lonely, breathy sound still brings back the memory of when my mom, my sister and I would walk over the station to pick up my dad when he got home from work. We would look under the train at people’s feet on the other side and try to guess which one was him.

As I wander further down my old street, I recall the neighbors I had growing up. My street was filled with strange characters.  There were rumors of hauntings on our

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block and it seems that maybe the street was built on an ancient burial ground There was one abandoned house a few houses down from me that all of us kids were sure was haunted.  One sunny summer afternoon, the young man who lived there came out on the front lawn, crazed, and started to pour gasoline over the lawn. The whole neighborhood watched, not knowing what to do. He was just about to strike his match when the police grabbed him. No one has lived in that house since.  Of course there was also a rumor told to my family by our older neighbor, Mrs. McAlary. The patriarch of the family that lived in the house before us died in the house and was supposedly haunting it. She thought our family was a bit strange and reasoned to herself, and us, that it was old Mr. Soul haunting us.

All of our neighbors weren’t strange though. There were two I was especially close to. They were a young couple named Ton and Cruise. My sister and I would go to their house to hang out on lazy summer afternoons. They would teach us Spanish and let us play with their dog, CoCo. I recall the scent of spicy food cooking and the smell of the cement walls on the outside of their small bungalow. We’d spend hours over there playing with CoCo and swinging in the hammock on their screened in porch.

I always look at the Cirillo’s house as I pass by, hoping to see them again. My family was very close with them, and my sister and I grew up with their daughter, Nicole. As young kids we would write and perform our own short plays and make it an event by taking up a sheet on a threshold for a curtain, setting out folding chairs, and inviting all our parents.  We had that kind of old fashioned neighbor relationship with them; we

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could always count on the other if we needed to borrow a cup of sugar or an egg, or to get patched up if we scraped our knees.

Every good, untainted memory I have happened while I lived on that street; it’s where I learned how to ride a bike, its where I met my grandpa when my mom found him after 30 years, its where we found our cat mittens who gave birth to Panzy, its where I was proposed to by the neighbor boy when I was 6 years old, it was where I could come home to my family and know that everything was okay. As I drive away I take one last look at my old home. I drive away from childhood towards a different world, full of struggles and the unknown.



Becky Polenberg

March 19, 2008

English 121

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            We hear the band playing from a distance; a four piece ensemble of jazzy, upbeat, simple woodsy music. It’s a party, and the only ones invited are Grandma Pearl and me. As we approach closer to the music, a whole wonderful, untouched forest emerges. The drums beat joyfully, the oboe pipes in loudly, the cymbals crash, and the accordion sings melodically. The quartet is two inch tall ceramic bunnies, each brought to life by me and grandma’s imagination.

            When I look at my bunny band I am instantly transported back to when I was a little kid, safe and happy inside my grandparent’s house.  The sounds, sights and smells rush back and embrace me. It’s a sunny day, yellow light pouring in through the curtained windows as the family sits at the dining room table: my parents, my sister, my grandparents, and I. A medley of aromas fill the house: the fat-leaved rubber plant by the window, my grandma’s perfume, Tabu, the decorative soaps in the bathroom, and the deli meat and rye bread we are about to enjoy. The food is spread out; plates and cups full of diet caffeine free Pepsi at each place setting. I hop up on a heavy wooden chair I don’t fit into yet; the seat too large, the arms long so and I can hardly reach my dish even when I scoot all the way in. A gentle breeze breathes in past the vertical blinds, bringing the scent of the wide open yard of the apartment complex.

            When we’re finished eating and everyone has left the table, the bunnies appear. Grandma would make an assortment of different toys back then. She made reversible dolls that would be Little Red Riding Hood until you flipped her inside out, and it was the

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Big Bad Wolf. She sewed together the soft bodies of porcelain dolls and attached the head, hands, and feet. We played with these too as did my cousins, but the bunnies were just ours. I don’t remember exactly what games we played with those bunnies, I imagine we would make music noises and pretend to be playing for a crowd. What I do remember though is that she always played the “mama” bunny. Her’s was the tallest and only girl. Mama bunny wore a purple dress with apron, and played the accordion. I always played my favorite bunny out of the remaining three. Mine wore a long sleeve orange shirt with a white ‘Y’ pattern on it and held a gold oboe type instrument to its mouth. Then there was the drummer wearing his drum around his neck and a springy green shirt with white polka dots, and the bunny holding his cymbals out wide and wearing a yellow shirt, red vest and black bowtie with white dots. Each bunny has blue eyes with lashes, white fur, pink nose and they all had broken ears that were glued back on except for the one with cymbals who was in perfect condition.

            My grandma died when I was about eight or nine. Shamefully, my one aunt and her daughters showed a horrendous display of greed in trying to take as many of my grandmothers left behind things as they could. I remember the sadness and disgust I felt at such a young age, seeing them paw through all the toys only wanting to accumulate them so no one else could have them.  Then I saw my one cousin about to take the bunnies, my bunnies, grandma’s bunnies. I didn’t have a claim to any of those other toys, although they did have sentimental value to me, and I didn’t want to be grabby like my

 

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aunt and cousins. But I could not let them have this last link to my grandmother. I scooped them up just before my cousin could and stashed them so no one saw. I don’t think grandma ever brought them out for anyone else but me, and that made them all the more special. They’re a tangible link to a bond only we had; happily smiling grandma Pearl and her “sunshine face”, as she called me.

            In the past couple years my family has moved twice. In packing and moving I lost track of my little band. Every time I remembered that I didn’t know where they were, I went searching through boxes to find them. Last week I finally and miraculously did.

 It’s strange how it happened. That same day I found them my mother was talking about my ongoing search to a woman she works with at the Monmouth Museum. The woman, Mary, has an abundance of little trinkets she likes to give to people, and that day she gave my mom two little plastic bunnies to give me to help me find mine. I didn’t know about this until my mom came home to find me searching, yet again, for my figurines. I took the plastic bunnies with me to the basement, and their luck worked! My mom pointed to a box I never checked and there they were! The only disappointment; the mama bunny wasn’t there. Now, my thought process may be a bit unconventional, but sometimes I believe there are forces in the universe that make things happen, like how I finally found my bunnies. Sometimes the universe conspires to help you. Coincidences, déjà vu, dreams, sometimes lead you to exactly where you’re supposed to be at that moment. With that wide open frame of mind, I speculated as to where the missing

 

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figurine is. I can’t imagine it being in another box, and if I don’t ever find it, I’d like to believe my grandma has it. Perhaps through the spectral plane she came and took it from that box so that she has a piece of our time together to keep with her.

            Our tiny band, minus one player, now sits atop a shelf in my room, in their rightful place finally. Their intent little faces bringing some much needed joy and nostalgia back to me. There’s a bit of sadness in the faces too, because it is such a short span of memory of my grandma that I do have. And the memory, I’ve discovered, is not as sharp as it used to be. Still, one glance and my mind is transported back to those days that still fill my heart up. With my memory guardians out of hiding now, perhaps they might replenish the graying bits of my childhood spirit.

           



Becky Polenberg

Eng. 121

Fairy Tale

 

 

            There once was a prince. He was not like all the other princes you have heard about.  He was a bit dark, a bit of an outsider. His father, the king, did not care about his son’s individuality; he still forced the prince to do normal prince things.

            One day, while the prince was deeply immersed in painting, a very un-royal thing to do, the king barged in and said

             “I have a task for you. This is your last chance to step up and be normal. There is a princess who has a curse upon her and you are to go and rescue her.”

 He told the prince the story of the princess who was asleep. Her whole kingdom succumbed to the curse of a witch and they all slept for ages inside the kingdom covered in vines. Many princes had tried before to cut through the vines, but they were too thick and none succeeded.

            “I have no interest in princesses. They’re so…traditional. This girl will be no different. Why don’t you send one of my brothers? This is more their thing,” replied the prince.

            “You’re going. This is your task. I will not have you tainting our royal reputation any longer. You will rescue the princess and you will marry her and you will be normal! If you don’t, the kingdom will be very distraught over your disappearance. Understand?”

            So the next day the prince reluctantly set off. He hadn’t a choice, his life was being threatened. He rode his black steed down winding, tangled forest trails while trying to figure a way out of this predicament. He couldn’t run; palace guards were escorting

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him. Maybe he could find a way to not marry the princess once he rescued her. He could disappear when everyone was distracted with fawning over the newly awakened kingdom and lead a new life, which was not an all together unattractive option.

            Finally the prince arrived at the vine covered kingdom. He sighed resignedly and got to work trying to hack through with the sword his father sent him with. But everywhere he swiped his blade, the vines just grew back. It was getting tedious. The prince decided to walk around the perimeter of the kingdoms walls to see if there was another way in.

            As he walked he found a small door hidden in the vines. No one else must have seen this for as he cut, the vines dropped away without struggle. He pushed the door open and crawled through. The grounds of the court were completely empty. He walked into the castle. Still he saw no one, but he heard a low thumping coming from the dungeon. He drew his sword.  He crept down the winding stairs and was shocked to find that the kingdom wasn’t asleep at all! There they all were, having a rave in the dungeon. The prince strode in to check it all out. As he did he realized something else; these people were all zombies. “What is going on here?” he thought. He looked around for the princess.  He made his way through the crowd and there she was. She was darkly stunning. He approached slowly. She was a gothic goddess. He was in love.  She was definitely his type. She looked him up and down and grinned, “Lets dance.”

            The price was completely overjoyed to find that the princess actually wasn’t a zombie. She related her story to him. An evil witch had put a spell on her and the

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kingdom, but after so long the people of the court came into a waking sleep. They adapted, evolved. Except her. She was asleep for a long while until one day the spell disintegrated because the witch’s power had weakened with age, and the princess just awoke the all these zombies. “And I love it!” she said. “They were all so boring before, but now they all know how to have fun.”

            The prince had finally found his perfect princess. The prince never went back outside the castle walls. He wanted to let them all assume that he failed at rescuing the princess along with all the others. And they did. Rumor spread through the other kingdoms that the witch’s curse was too powerful and claimed another life.

            The two stayed together in the zombie castle, enjoying their art and music. They didn’t rush to get married; that was too cliché for them. They did, however, live very happily, and mellow dramatically, ever after.

 

 

Becky Polenberg

Writing121

Hate Crime

 

 

 

            Our society is composed of an abundance of diversity. Unfortunately, diversity is sometimes accompanied by hatred. The term “hate crime” has been adopted to label criminal acts that are committed against people who are targeted merely because something about them differs from the perpetrator’s skewed vision of what people should and shouldn’t be. Using the “hate crime” label is a much needed step toward raising awareness of and combating a huge social problem.

            Hate crime laws apply to criminal offenses such as; harassment, terroristic threats, assault, and crimes against property. These crimes, while already deserving of punishment, are dealt with more severely if they are proven to have been committed out of the perpetrator’s bias toward a person or persons because of their race, color, religion, national origin, ethnicity, sexual orientation, or physical or mental disability. Some would say giving added punishment to hate crimes is counterproductive, elevating one victim’s plight above another’s.

But, let’s look at the offender instead. Deeming an act a hate crime brings awareness to the problems of prejudice. The public has a right to know why a crime was committed so that we can learn from it. If we do not know what is truly going on inside the mind of criminals, we cannot fix the problem. These crimes of prejudice can be used as an example for everyone to see how bad the problem has gotten and that it shouldn’t and won’t be tolerated. Society needs to know that bias and bias crimes are wrong, if for

 

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nothing else, so that the next generation growing up doesn’t learn that hatred is acceptable and unchangeable.

Hate crimes isolate victims and attack them not just physically but psychologically. Hate crimes deserve stricter punishment because of the personal nature of the crimes. Every crime is not the same when victims are specifically targeted.  Petty crimes such as vandalism become something more malicious when they attack a person’s ethnicity, race, sexual orientation, or physical or mental disability directly. Take for example simple vandalism. If you found your car spray painted with nonspecific graffiti, you’d be angry and want the vandal caught. Now imagine you’re Jewish, and the graffiti on your car is swastikas. This is a huge difference. You’d know you were singled out. You’d feel afraid, violated, wondering what’s to come next. It would bring thoughts of what happened to your people in the past. Would you not want this latter perpetrator to be punished more severely than the former?  These types of crimes do deserve to be singled out and given harsher punishment because the victims are singled out and harshly attacked. These victims need recognition of their plight. If the crime is treated like any other, victims will feel more isolated and it will look as though society agrees with the criminal’s prejudice. If the victim and the crime are not acknowledged the victims fear or pain might turn to anger and hatred. They might then develop a bias toward a group they associate their attacker with and could possibly turn to hate crime themselves. It could be argued that psychology and emotion have no place in legislature, but they do already

 

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come into play in our legal system in how sexually based crimes or crimes against minors are dealt with.

Having the hate crime label is also a form of public awareness as to who is being targeted. It can help protect people. If a certain group is being targeted, making it known will enable those people to take precaution to keep safe so they don’t become victims as well.  If history has taught us anything, these acts have to be stopped before they become too large scale and out of control. Just think of the people who could have been saved if hate crime laws were in action during the holocaust, black slavery, or during the time when Chinese and Irish immigrants came to America and were being attacked.

           

It’s a disheartening fact that the people, who you read about in history class being targeted, are still being perpetrated against now. The type of ignorance and hatred of back then is still around today and the ignorant have also found new differences to hate.  The specific types of attacks against these people; hate speech, hate symbols, etc,  belittle the struggle and plight of a whole people and cause them to relive what happened to their ancestors.

            To deem an act a hate crime is has to first be proven. The negatives of hate crime labeling are that people do try to abuse the label for their own gain and you could be identified as prejudiced due to the stigma of just being accused. While these are understandable points against having a hate crime legislature, it doesn’t change the fact that stigma and false accusations will still arise even without people having a law to use

 

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in their argument. Abuse of the label just shows us that the abuser has a bias toward whoever they are accusing. With the hate crime label we can better pinpoint where hatred

is coming from, explore it, and through knowledge find ways to develop understanding in everyone.

 

these are some reviews of movies from my film class at brookdale

Becky Polenberg

Cine 105

June 10, 2008

Georges Melies: Antirealism

 

 

Broadly divided, most films can be placed into two categories; realist and antirealist. Realism concerns itself with documenting what is real, or representing things as they really are in life. Antirealism is focused on the abstract, speculation, and fantasy. Realism is representational. What we see conforms to our expectations of what is true. Antirealism is more subjective and explorative. When studying the development of antirealism, one name appears as the most influential of the genre; Georges Melies.

            George Melies’ career spanned fourteen years and over 500 films. His interest in art started early. As a young boy, Georges would sketch portraits and caricatures of his teachers and classmates in school. When he was older, Georges is said to have taken private lessons in painting. By the time he was ten, he was constructing sets out of cardboard for marionette shows he would perform before an audience. Around that same time his enthusiasm for theatrics ignited brighter with his first trip to the theatre where he saw the famous magician Robert-Houdin.

            When he was in his twenties, Melies frequented theatres where illusionists performed their tricks. Georges knew this was what an art he wanted to pursue. A first step for him was taking lessons from a man who owned a magician’s shop. Here, he had the opportunity to showcase the skills he was learning to small audiences. Then another opportunity presented itself. In 1888, Georges’ father was retiring and leaving the family

 

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business to his sons. Georges decided to sell his share to his brothers and used the money to buy the theatre where his passion was first sparked; the Theatre Robert-Houdin.

            During this time the pioneering inventors of film were hard at work developing the new art form. Camera Obscura developed into film photography, which evolved into series photography, and finally motion picture photography. In 1895, the Lumiere brothers, another pioneering force in early film, showcased one of the very first public screenings of a motion picture. In attendance was an awestruck Georges Melies. This was a new frontier for art, a new medium to explore. Immediately Georges wanted to purchase one of the Lumiere’s Cinematographes, but they weren’t selling. He wasn’t deterred. Melies soon discovered that someone else was crafting a projector called the Theatrograph, which he did purchase. Later he would come up with his own Kinetographe.

            Melies started out making realist films; documenting things as they were actually happening. Then one fateful day, a technical problem Georges experienced while filming a city street opened the floodgates to an evolution in filmmaking. While filming with his hand cranked camera, the film stock jammed. After fussing with it he got the camera going again. When he later viewed the film, Georges discovered that the people and vehicles on the street metamorphosed; men became women, carriages became trolleys. The first special effect, stop-motion, was discovered.

            Employing special effects in his films, Melies developed the genre of antirealism. He used the tricks of stop-motion, double exposure, fade-ins, fade-outs, and dissolves to

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delve deeper into the theatrics of magic. Furthermore, he developed the idea of editing together separately shot scenes instead of just recording continuous action like you would see if you were watching a stage play. Even today, with all of our technology for producing special effects, it is captivating to watch Melies’ works such as Un Homme de Tetas, in which multiple exposures of film are compressed into one to create the illusion that the magician is interacting with many copies of his own head, or The Conjuror, where you can see early stop motion at work. The most famous of his antirealist special effects films is Le Voyage Dans la Lune (A Trip to the Moon). In this creation, you can actually see the way the dissolve is employed, the film going slow enough so that you can see the way the individual frames overlap. The film became famous because of its comparatively long length of running time and the variety of new techniques employed. The sour faced moon with a rocket in his eye is one of the most widely plagiarized symbols, becoming an icon for evolution in art media.

            Georges, more interested in the artistic value of his work than profitability, experienced a decline of his career.  He stayed on his own path and did not continue to evolve with new developing technologies, deciding instead to perfect what he already pioneered. Audiences began to find his work outdated and not as exciting as the more complex visual effects of filmmakers like D.W. Griffith.

            Much of Georges Melies works were lost due to the instability of the film stock used back then, and, it is rumored, because he himself, in an emotionally irrational state over the loss of his career, had some of it destroyed. He left the film industry and retired

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to working in a toy and candy shop. In the 1920s, visual art was immersed in a surrealist movement. In 1929, avant-garde cinema proprietor, Jean-Paul Mauclair, happened across a stash of Melies’ films. Intrigued, Mauclair wanted to know what became of this cinematic revolutionary. He tracked down Melies and helped the world rediscover this lost magician. Georges’ surviving films were restored and played for a new generation of moviegoers. He finally got his well deserved recognition when he was awarded the Legion of Honor in 1931.

            Georges Melies contributed so much to the development of narrative film. He pushed a new medium forward to realize its potential to be a great escape into a fantastical world where illusions can create limitless new worlds for us to escape into.



Becky Polenberg

CINE 105

Citizen Kane Analysis

 

 

            The classic film, Citizen Kane, tells the story of Charles Foster Kane, the great newspaper tycoon.  The story takes place mostly in New York, spanning over 60 years. The plot spans a few days.

            The film opens on a dilapidated, eerie estate plastered with “no trespassing” signs. We see a close up of a man’s mouth whispering “rosebud”, followed by a close-up of a snow globe dropping from his hand to smash on the floor. A nurse comes and covers the man’s face with a blanket, telling us he is dead.

            Next, there is a jarring cut to a loud newsreel and an announcer’s voice telling us Charles Foster Kane is dead. The newsreel, as well as the preceding death scene is the exposition leading us into the plot to come. From the third person narrative of this newsreel we learn who Kane is. Most prominent is the reel is Kane’s pleasure dome, Xanadu, a supposed monument to himself that he started to build during his second marriage. Xanadu was Kane’s own private world, too large to measure, filled with a vast collection of whatever he thought would make him happy. We learn that he is the greatest newspaper tycoon, with 37 papers as well as radio networks, grocery stores, factories, paper mills, ocean liners, and gold mines. Despite his riches, Kane came from humble beginnings, which the film goes into later. As a newsman Charles Kane got involved in politics, but never held office. He was accused of being a fascist, a communist and was hated by as many people that loved him. His political career was completely ruined when a scandal arose during his senatorial campaign. He was married to Emily Norton, the president’s niece, and was caught in his supposed “love nest” with an amateur singer named Susan Alexander. Soon after the divorce from his first wife, he married Susan and built her an opera house. This marriage ended in divorce as well and we also learn that his first wife died in a car accident with their son after the divorce.  The Great Depression hit and the Kane empire collapsed. He holed up in Xanadu, still trying to keep his paper going but the public didn’t trust him anymore nor want to listen to him.  Charles Kane always stated that he was an “American” and he wanted to be for the people. He ended up dying alone in Xanadu at the age of 70.

            The newsreel abruptly stops and the screen opens up on half a dozen newsmen in a small screening room. This is the start of the plot. The rest of the film alternates between the plot and the story of Kane, as it is uncovered in mostly chronological order. One man, apparently the head of a newspaper, is not satisfied with the newsreel. He wants to know who KANE was, not what he was.   He assigns one of his reporters to investigate Kane’s last words and find out what they mean. He thinks that maybe these words can sum up who Kane really was. This sets off the rest of the movie; the search for “rosebud”.

            The reporter, who is a major character in the plot, although he is so flat that we never even get much of a look at his face, first goes to see Susan, who refuses to talk. This satellite scene is not an important one and the film could survive without it, as we do not learn any new information from it. The next scene opens on the Thatcher Library where the reporter goes into a very film noir looking room to read a journal from the library. From the journal we get our first in depth look at Kane. We learn of his humble beginnings. As a young child Charles’ parents gave him away to a bank after they came into some money. This is the inciting incident that sets off the course of the rest of Kane’s life. His parents are minor, flat characters. We don’t learn much about them other than a hint that the reason for giving their son away is that the father may have been abusive and the mother used their new found money to try and give her son a better life. The banker, Mr. Thatcher, takes the boy away to the east coast, and the child leaves behind his life. The story transitions from his old life to his new one with a shot of his old sled being covered in snow to a cut of Christmas with Thatcher giving the ungrateful, unhappy boy a new sled. Thatcher is a flat character, he is only driven by money in the story, but he is a major character.

            At age 25 Charles Kane was given full responsibility of the Thatcher fortune. He didn’t want any of the money, but he did wish to keep Thatcher’s newspaper, The Inquirer. This point in the plot is a hub for the course that Kane’s life is about to embark upon. A satellite that the plot goes into is how Kane uses the Inquirer to attack Thatcher’s greed and also how Kane wishes to use the paper to help the workingman. Thatcher’s journal then tells that Kane eventually ran out of money and while still the head of the paper, he had to relinquish financial control over to Thatcher. This scene is an important satellite. We learn how Charles perceived himself; he didn’t like being rich and thought he was not a good person. This scene is one that is out of chronological order from the rest of the movie where characters narrate us through earlier events.

            The next scene goes back to the plot. The reporter goes to see Mr. Bernstein, Kane’s general manager. Bernstein is another major character but he is very flat; all we know of him is how he interacts with Kane.  Bernstein tells of Kane’s first day at the paper with his college buddy, Jed. There is a satellite scene of Kane asserting his position and taking over the old editor’s office. The next scene, an important satellite scene, shows Kane writing out his personal declaration of principles. He swears to tell the news honestly, and with truth, and to be a fighting champion for people’s rights. This scene adds another dimension to the protagonist who has so far been presented in only negative light.

            As Bernstein’s story continues, we see that the Inquirer has a rival paper that has a higher circulation. We see a close up of the Chronicle’s staff photo and it cuts to them coming to life as the scene transitions to the next, where we learn that Kane has hired all these men over to his paper. Then there is a party to celebrate this victory. This scene is filmed in real time with a lot of long shots of the party and dancers. This scene has diegetic music; the dancing girls sing a song about “good old Charlie Kane.” This is a satellite scene that just adds some extra texture until it closes in on Jed and Bernstein. Jed is worried about the men Charles just hired and how different their politics are. Bernstein assures him that Kane will change them over to his politics, but Jed ominously says maybe they will end up changing Kane. Bernstein’s narrative ends with a satellite scene of Kane returning from a trip, getting a trophy from his staff who missed him, then hurrying out to his new wife, Emily Norton. Although the scene is a satellite, the information that Kane has a new wife is a hub.

            Cut back to the plot; Bernstein tells the reporter to go talk to Jed. He finds Jed in a retirement home. Jed speaks freely of his old friend saying that he was Kane’s only friend and even he thought Kane was a swine. Jed is a major character and as the film progresses his character rounds out. Jed tells the reporter that Charles never gave anything of himself to anyone, had no convictions or beliefs, outside of himself. Jed’s voice carries over into the story as he tells of Kane and his first wife. The scene shows us Charles and Emily at the breakfast table chatting playfully. This scene is shown in compressed time; we witness the decline of their marriage over several years in only a few minutes. The scene cuts back and forth between medium close shots of Kane and of Emily talking across the table. Each cut signifies the passage of time with change of costume and the character’s demeanor. The scene end’s with the pair completely at odds with each other shown explicitly by the fact that she is reading the Inquirer’s rival paper the Chronicle. The scene dissolves back into the plot with Jed’s voice overlapping again telling us more information about Kane. Jed’s character traits are revealed in the way that he describes his former friend. He tells the reporter that Kane just wanted love, but that he didn’t have any to give.

            The story picks up again and introduces Susan Alexander. There is a satellite scene showing how Susan and Charles met; she sees him on the street covered in mud that a passing car splashed on him and invites him to some to her place to clean up. They get to know each other and we learn that Kane’s mother just died and he was on his way to pick up some of her things from storage. We can infer that this is the start of his sentimental collecting of everything he could get his hands on.  Meeting Susan is an important hub in the story. Susan is a major round character. We learn a lot about her internal character later on in how she deals with Kane.

            Next, Kane runs for governor. He runs a smear campaign against his opponent Gettys, a minor flat character. Gettys retaliates by blackmailing Kane; he tells him he will make his relationship with Susan public. The information ends up getting out and Emily divorces Kane. Kane also loses the election. Then there is a real time scene with an intoxicated Jed confronting Kane about what he has read in the paper, and the realization about Kane needing to be loved by everyone and thus makes it so that no one can love him, is presented again. Kane marries Susan and builds her an opera house because her singing is so terrible no one will cast her. After the big opening, Jed writes a bad review, an honest review, but passes out before he finishes. Charles finishes it for him, giving an honest review of Susan’s performance, and then fires Jed. This is an important rising action toward the climax. Kane is started to alienate himself now, from even his closest friends. Cut back to Jed in the present, he tells the reporter that Kane wrote the review that way to try and prove that he was still honest and believed in the truth. Jed says that Kane was always trying to prove something; he tried to prove everyone wrong by building the opera house for Susan and making her into a real performer as a way of validating his relationship with her ending his first marriage. When all of his attempts to prove himself, to be loved, didn’t work out, he built Xanadu, his own world that he could control and make his paradise.

            The next part in the plot, the reporter goes back to talk to Susan again. This time she is more willing to talk. She talks about her singing career, how she never wanted it, never wanted that opera house; it was all Kane’s idea. Everything was Kane’s idea, she says, except her leaving him, which leads us into her telling of the story. Charles forced her to keep going with her career even though she wasn’t talented. Her performance was a bust, she hated singing, but Kane wouldn’t allow her to quit. She attempted suicide and Kane finally relented. They moved into Xanadu and complete isolation. Susan passes all her time with jigsaw puzzles. The passage of time for Susan while in Xanadu, is shown with a compressed time scene of close shots of puzzles in various stages of completion, creating a montage accompanied by a rhythmic nondiegetic music that reinforces the feeling of boredom. Kane decides to throw a party to break the boredom.  During the party we see Susan packing her things, getting ready to leave Kane. He confronts her and she calls him on his issues of trying to buy people. She tells him he never gave her love but wanted it from her. All the conflict from their marriage explodes in this scene and we learn more about both characters. Susan shows that she has grown stronger and smarter and walks out on Kane. He tells her she cant do this to him, and her final words to him are, oh yes I can.  Back to the plot, the reporter asks about rosebud and Susan says to go ask the butler at Xanadu.

            The reporter asks the butler if he knows about rosebud. He says he heard Kane say it once, and goes into the story. The butler is a flat minor character. He tells about the day Susan left. Kane went on a rampage, tearing up her room. There is nondiegetic music that accompanies his rage. This is the climax of the movie. Kane has finally completely isolated himself and goes into a sort of catatonic state after his rampage. He has nothing left and no one around to try and buy love from. He has learned that the way he has related to the world; bullying people, collecting people and things, has all led to this final isolation. Kane was his own antagonist. He tried to fill the void left by being given away as a child with artificial love and material possessions. Human emotion, the part of people that drives them to seek out companionship and contentment, was ultimately Kane’s antagonist because he didn’t know how to deal with it properly. He didn’t know how to get or give love with out buying it because he learned at an early age how highly some people regard money and how they will use it to their advantage.

            After Kane is done tearing up Susan’s room he grabs one thing that he does not smash; a snow globe. He holds it and walks out past all the party guests that have gathered by the door, not acknowledging their presence and only muttering the word “rosebud” as he walks away.  The film goes back to the plot and the falling action. The reporter and the other newspaper people are milling about Xanadu taking photos of everything for the paper. They start going through Kane’s vast collection. The reporter openly gives up the search for rosebud saying that Kane was just a man who had everything he wanted and lost it and “rosebud” is just a missing piece of a puzzle and likely nothing important.  The scene cuts to workmen going through Kane’s collection and picking out things they think are worthless junk and tossing them into a furnace. They pick up an old sled and toss it in. The film comes to its resolution as the camera closes in on the name on the sled, being eaten up by the flames. It says “Rosebud”. The newsman in the beginning of the movie was right; one word can sum up a man. Kane’s boyhood sled represented everything he lost, everything he didn’t have, and everything he wanted. The film closes with nondiegetic music. A melancholy tune plays us out as the camera cuts to an exterior shot of the chimney as the smoke of Kane’s lost childhood rises from it.


Becky Polenberg

CINE 105

Film analysis Unit 2

 

 

 

            The film Children of Men is a futuristic story about the disintegration and prospective rebirth of society. The film opens with the disembodied voice of a newscaster relating the state of the world in which we are about to enter. We hear about Baby Diego, the youngest person on earth, and that he has been killed. The scene opens on a coffee shop and the protagonist, Theo and we follow him outside where we watch the coffee shop explode moments after he exits. The entirety of the movie, the camera follows Theo as he moves through his environment. The film is shot entirely with handheld cameras, giving us a more intimate view of the main characters and allowing us to be right in the middle of the action with them. As we follow Theo through decimated city streets, we start to get a feel for his world. Through design, the characters are presented to us in a believable, verisimilistic future environment. The lighting is one of the first elements that catches the viewer’s attention. The light is low-key, natural light, with lots of contrast and shadow with a cold blue and sometimes yellow tint to everything, creating a sense of isolation and polluted air.  Next, you notice the set design. The film takes place mainly in a city setting in Britain. The buildings are dark, crumbling and looming above the people on the streets. There is technology present everywhere in the form of large, projected TV screens and scrolling propaganda tickers. The costumes are all the same dark, muted colors of the buildings, blending everyone into the background. There is no fashion; the people are dressed functionally and indistinguishable from one another.

            The film’s framing is closed. There is a sense that the people hear are restricted to the general area and do not have freedom in their lives. The decomposition of society has restricted people’s movements and the abundance of people, technology and debris in one city creates a tangible heaviness to the character’s surroundings. This feeling is reinforced by the images we see in Theo’s environment. We learn much more about this world, at the beginning of the film, from these images than we do from character action or dialogue. First we see that every TV and computer screen is playing images of baby Diego, cementing his symbolic importance to the people. As Theo walks into work shortly after the explosion, he passes by a large bulls-eye poster on the wall; seemingly foreshadowing what action is to come. At Theo’s apartment we learn from images playing on the television that the world is destroyed and “Only Britain soldiers on.” Further information is presented by voices from an unseen television on the bus Theo’s riding, that Britain is unwelcoming to any immigrants seeking safe harbor in the only city left, and that any that are found should be turned in to be imprisoned. Other images tell us that every person must present their identity card and transit papers for any traveling. As Theo rides along on the train, we see through the windows graffiti spray painted everywhere. More information is presented about the state of society through the graffiti saying, “Avoiding infertility tests is a crime” and “ Last one to die, please turn out the light.” When Theo exits the train we are introduced to another main character, Jasper. Right away we see that Jasper’s costuming is different; more comfortable and relaxed, with lighter colors, and he has long, untamed white hair. As they ride along in Jasper’s car, the contrast between the characters becomes more evident as we hear him speak jokingly and with a lighter tone of voice. Jasper lives in hiding away from the city as we see in long shots of the car driving through green countryside. (Long shots are used continuously during traveling shots to show the changing location of the characters and the contrast between the oppressive city and the welcoming country roads.)  Here he is freer than Theo is in the city, accounting for why he has a more relaxed attitude. At Jasper’s house we are presented again with images that reveal more back story than what the characters have revealed to us. The camera pans along a wall covered in news clipping and photos telling us more about Theo, Jasper, and Jasper’s wife, whom we haven’t seen yet. We see a photo of Theo with a woman and young child, creating some mystery as to who they are; a photo of Jasper receiving a political award; a news clipping of a photojournalist who was tortured, who turns out to be Jasper’s wife who is now in a catatonic state.

            The composition of the film corresponds to the rule of thirds. There is action on all three planes throughout the film. Employing a wide angle lens, the DP keeps all three planes in focus throughout the movie. Vertically the shots are well balanced also, and continually have much texture to each scene to hold your

 

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interest and ground you in that world. One scene that has strong composition and meaning for where the characters are placed is the scene in which Julian is about be buried. After abruptly being reunited with his former wife, Theo more abruptly loses her when she is shot in the neck during a playful interaction between them as they are riding in a car. As Julian’s friends, Miriam and Kee are giving her a sort of last rites, Theo walks off on his own. He kneels down in the foreground next to a tree and Miriam and Kee along with Julian’s body, are out of focus in the far background. Theo starts to breakdown. He is isolated on the screen and in his emotion. Looming over his shoulder we can see the others in the background and Theo quickly regains his composure. The others are intruding on his ability to allow himself to feel his grief and we also get a sense by the placement of the characters, that the others are not as close to the feeling of loss as Theo is.

            A key scene in the film that employs a variety of camera angles and shots is the scene toward the end of the film where Theo goes into a building under fire, to rescue Kee. Throughout the film Theo, Kee and others who were their allies, were shot with high angle shots, relaying their powerlessness and self preserving submissiveness to the many soldiers they encountered. During this sequence there is a power shift. Kee has had her baby and the renegade group who want her baby to use for a political uprising have caught up to her and Theo and captured her. Theo finds her and they start to try and find their way out of the building. Luke, the leader of the renegade group, is positioned on the floor by a window he is shooting out of. He says they need the baby for the uprising. He starts to break down a bit, saying her forgot what babies look and feel like. He starts to babble and the camera shifts its POV to a high angle shot on Luke and we know that he is no longer a threat. Kee and Theo leave him behind as the camera zoom out on him. As they walk through the gunfire the baby begins to cry. The other people in the building hear. We see a close up of Theo’s face as he looks upon the people and realizes just what this baby means to them. Theo and Kee walk through the hallway and the people, ducking and kneeling below, are all parting the way for them. We finally get a sense of what this birth really means to this infertile world by seeing the reaction of all these people. Hands reach out to tentatively touch the baby, people weep, and everyone is still and watching with awe as Kee and her baby pass by. As the trio descends the stairs they pass soldiers ready to shoot until they see the tiny bundle. Now they too are shown with a high angle shot while Kee and Theo are finally shot with a low angle shot. They are elevated above the others by the miraculous existence of this new baby. The soldiers almost bow down as they pass, some crossing themselves as though at church. Everyone becomes quiet and still. The firing ceases showing us that the soldiers know that Kee and her baby gaining safe passage is what’s most important now. Their humanity in that moment is palpable.  The screen is balanced with Kee and Theo in the middle of rows of soldiers parting the way. This baby proves new hope for society and everyone knows it. But things are not healed that simply and an explosion takes everyone’s attention back to their fighting.

            Children of Men is overall a very innovation, captivating, and superbly photographed, designed, and written work of art.


Becky Polenberg         

CINE 105

Seven Samurai analysis

 

            The editing in the movie Seven Samurai is very smooth and complementary in regards to the way it was cut and the sound mixing. The rhythm of the shots together is very even and paced a bit slow. Only a few times in the film does the succession of cuts speed up; one is when the bandits invade the village, the cuts are more rapid to cover all the action that is taking place and create a more hectic feeling.

            There is an abundance of ambient sound is the film. No scene has absolute silence. If you are not hearing dialogue or music, you are hearing the wind, rain, birds, fire crackling or stream trickling in the background. Some of the dialogue, it is obvious that it was rerecorded later; the sound doesn’t match up precisely with the actors. One place this is obvious is towards the end of the film when one of the samurai is killed and another is mourning him. His cries continue even though his facial expression does not match the sound that is supposed to be coming from him. Another instance in the movie where you can tell the sound was put in later is when you see the bandits riding their horses through the village. The sound of the horses’ hooves is constant and unchanging, clattering loudly as if on solid ground even when they are riding through mud, which makes me think the sound was pulled from a library of sound effects.

            Nondiegetic music is used through out the film. Diegetic music is used twice; once in the beginning we see a man playing his instrument inside a barn when the villagers are searching for samurai, then again at the end of the film when the village is saved and everyone is planting crops. This diegetic music adds to the sorrowful and uplifting moods in the scenes it is in.  The nondiegetic music adds accompaniment to traveling scenes and scenes where we are introduced to characters. The same music is used repeatedly for some characters such as Kikuchiyo, the farmer samurai, and Shino, the villager’s daughter. Kikuchiyo’s music is playful and up-tempo and Shino’s has a feminine, romantic feel to it. The music matches the mood of the scenes it is used in and adds some comic relief in scenes with Kikuchiyo when he is embarrassing himself trying to be macho. Shino’s character is the only one that every time we see her she is accompanied by music, which plays into the romantic feelings that we know are between her and the youngest samurai.

            There are instances where the music does not change to enhance the action on the screen. The scene where Shino is discovered as being a girl, the music stays constant and doesn’t change with the palpable change of atmosphere between the characters. The same goes for the scene when the samurai are burning down the bandits’ hideout and one man discovers the woman inside is his wife.

            During the second half of the movie the music comes and goes unpredictably. Scenes that could be enhanced by music don’t have any and other scenes that don’t necessarily need musical accompaniment to enhance them, have music. There are also prolonged absences of music, such as during the start of the invasion when the bandits are circling the village. More time passes between music accompaniments during this half of the movie than the first half.

            The shot transitions used in the film are constant. Most scenes which cut between time and/or space are transitioned with a wipe across the screen from right to left(sometimes varying with left to right). There are also a few dissolves during more poignant scene transitions and a couple fade outs and fade ins. The cuts used are mostly cut on action and most cuts don’t have a lot of time lapse between the actions. One instance where this is not true is when Kikuchiyo is holding a baby they are rescuing and the action is cut from that scene directly to that night. Its doesn’t go with the continuity of all the other cuts as so much time has passed and we are left to guess at what happened during all that time between the two scenes.  Another instance of discontinuity is toward the beginning of the film when the first samurai is rescuing a child from a bandit. He goes into the shack where the bandit is and we see the bandit come out and stubble to the ground after being fatally stabbed. The action goes into slow motion, the only time in the film that this happens.

            During a pivotal scene in the last battle, there is no added sound to strengthen the visual images. There is no dramatic music as the hero, Kikuchiyo falls, to emphasize the importance of what is happening. What we do hear is the rain, the horses hooves, and the shouts of the men, all of which we can see the sounds’ sources. Kikuchiyo charges to kill the bandits’ leader after one of his comrades is shot. Kikuchiyo gets shot as he charges, and we hear his gasps and cut to his friends calling to him. While he’s walking toward the bandit we see the bandit from behind, exiting the barn then a cut to the two men still inside the barn. It’s a very quick cut but is an example of discontinuity. Kikuchiyo stabs the bandit and the cuts on action don’t match up here. We see the bandit get stabbed, cut to him falling off the bridge, then cut to Kikuchiyo’s body. There isn’t a smooth flow of action. This discontinuity calls attention to the action and was possibly done to be stylistic.

            All together Seven Samurai did not have a lot of complicated editing. It was kept simple with cuts, transitions and sound, which complements the scenery and the proud, simple lives of the characters. 


The opening melody
Sweet melancholy
Do you remember times
Saturday mornings
Wake up
Bass through the floor
To my room
Creak down stairs
\Pine sol mop water
The feel of wood floor
Square tiles
Beneath my finger tips
Lounging on
Window sills
That no longer exist
Do you remember
Like I remember
Lemonade sunshine
Birds outside
Clear air
Distant memory
Everythings ok
Just let me
Live there for a little longer
 I have nothing else
Why don't you miss it
 Like I do
Emotional immaturity
Cant get past
I remember skies
Reflected in our eyes
I know its gona make
Me cry
Everytime
Jump on couches
 Air guitar
 Pressure
We'll be friends
Forever
Wont we?
 I have scars
On my face
 Cant you see
I must
Put to rest F
riday nights
Hot pizza
Sparkling soda
Security
Family
When the music plays
 Once upon a time
Only in my
Lonliest dreams.
30-Apr-08


see becky. see becky take the GED.

..sitting here. But not just sitting. Jumpy, nervous energy. Twitchy withdrawal. I wonder if anyone notices. If they think maybe Im just coming off of something. Looking at the clock, wondering when this will start. How long it will take. If I can make it. Hoping I have the strength to stay in this chair and not jump up and bolt out that door. Its looking really good right now, that door. Freedom and sunshine on the other side. Relief. Home. Imprisonment. I cant leave. Drumming fingers, bouncing legs, staring eyes. Just hand out the goddamn test already and let me take it. I know how to fill out my name already, can we move on? Head feels light. Im shaky now. But I cant leave. I could but I wont let myself. Have to prove it to me that I can function like everyone else. That I am better than this. I will not have to come back and take it again. I dont like to do things twice. I need to get it on the first try. I dont know why, I just do. Great, Im gonna be here till three. Ok, now I can start. Distract me reading comprehension skills. Damn this is easy. Are they for real? Is this really equal to a real diploma? Coz hell, anyone can do this. Now my diploma wont mean as much coz this test is so damn easy. But my test isnt really the grade. i could care less.

Its me being here. pushing myself. to the top of this mountain. they dont know my test isnt on paper. And that, already, im acing it. or maybe at least getting a B... plus.

 


 In need of restraints?

No

You cant feel this

Remember

We swore

Never

Get tangled

In something

Too messy

Disconnect

The way to be

For us

I’ll hold you down

If I have to

Im deciding

And ive decided

Were not getting into this

Don’t tell me

 you ache

this aint the time

 for that

danger lurks

that I don’t need

wont take

that rip-gut

feeling

swallow yourself

down deep

be smart

be cool

don’t get sick

float above

its better there

 

9. one of those ‘you had to be there’ deals

Church basement curses

What was lurking

Beneath fresh paint

And new skin

That penetrated through

To the darkest blood

Followed

took its chance

Sneak attack

strangle

Bring down fire

Our young lives

Caught in the web

Eternal

Connected

Through the choking fog

And triumph

That we’re still here

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Complete
Deconstuction
Needed
In order
To build back up
Again
Better.
If only
Bits
Mangled
But still
Functioning
On any level
Gets ingnored
Move on
With broken parts.
Total failure
Of mind
Body
Spirit
Devine
Intervention
So I
Could have a chance
At total
Renovation
To be
More
Than ever
All
Of my own making

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