A bit about myself, and why I created this website.

I created this website on a whim really. I already have 3 other sites as well as help out on numerous ones.

I want to help other's who suffer from mental health and think that the road has ended for them, that they feel they can recover, whether it's from anxiety or from another mental health disorder, please know that you can move on and live with this.

I was diagnosed at the age of 16 with Depression, clinical depression that ranged from mild to severe. I was put on the anti-depressant Zoloft, I was on that drug for about 6 yrs, at that point it stopped working and I had to switch to something else. I was also diagnosed with Seasonal Affective Disorder (S.A.D) which is the winter blues/ winter depression.

I do light therapy for my S.A.D in the "dark months" which for me start in September and last until sometime April.

I used to be really bad and at times I was thinking of hurting myself, I did do some self-harm, nothing that would severely hurt me, at the time I didn't even know that hitting your leg when angry or upset was self injury, but it is. I stopped doing anything like that once I found out that was self harm.

I battled depression really for 10+ yrs now. I got out of my hole or started to when I was about 18. I suffered from Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD), well I still do with the occasionally panic attacks. I was diagnosed with this when I was diagnosed with depression, when I was 16.

I hard a rough time dealing with anxiety. I didn't want to deal with it really, I just wanted it to go away, I didn't want to continue feeling the way that I did because I went outside, or I had to go somewhere. It was terrifying.

I became I guess you could say a hermit at the age of 16. I never left my room, I stayed in my pajama's all day and night. I occasionally showered, I ate in my room, slept alot. My parent's were scared and worried. Before I was brought to my family doctor to find out what was wrong with me I would get really bad headaches, always complain that I was sick, my head hurt, I was nauseated and so forth. I would get severe panic attacks at school, I couldn't complete school at the age of 16. If I knew what I know now about anxiety I would have completed my education. But by then my anxiety was out of control. I went through all the testing, checking for cancer because of my headaches, my doctor told me that I was suffering from anxiety and recommended me to my current psychiatrist that I am still seeing to this day.

Later on I was diagnosed with Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder due to trauma of an abusive relationship when I was 16 yrs old. I also deal with assaults, and sexual harassment, also being traumatized while I was in grade 9.

After therapy, alot of it and learning to cope everyday with the blues, having anxiety symptoms or PTSD symptoms I was able to keep things under wraps. I was able to talk to myself out of being anxious, I rarely now have panic attacks, my depression is under control thanks to meds and my light therapy during the winter months, and about 2 yrs ago I came over a huge hump in recovery for PTSD when I no longer felt stuck in the past, being afraid etc.

Later I will write how I recovered from anxiety, depression and PTSD and throughout the site you can find information on how to deal with these things among others.

Some of the site is still under construction, I mentioned this on the main Home page, but please come back from time to time and see the updates that I have done.

If you'd like to share any of your recovery stories with me and would like others to read it as well please contact me, or post in the guestbook with your address and I will get back to you.