But A Moment

You'll always be my child-I think of you each day,
Even though you must remain so very far away.
A love as strong as this, I've never felt before;
But you had to go away-up through heaven's door.
You'll never have to suffer, or feel pain or hate,
just peace and love and happiness-
God has given you this fate.
I hope that you can feel just how much I care;
And, When my days are over, in a flash-I will be there.
Pure unbounding joy! We'll never have to part.
You'll be right by my side-And not just in my heart.
But, until that day, when my dream is real-
I think I understand, just how I should feel...
"Mom, I am fine!" this must be what you would say-
"Please don't be so sad, we'll meet again one day:
I'm with God above - so don't cry for me,
Our parting is but a moment compared to eternity."

   - Author Unknown

FORGOTTEN? - NEVER!

Friends may think we have forgotten
When at times they see us smile.
Little do they know the heartaches
That our smiles hide all the while.

Beautiful memories are wonderful things.
That last till the longest day.
They never wear out.
They never get lost and
can never be given away.

To some you may forgotten.
To others apart of the past.
But to those who loved
and lost you...
Your memory will always last.

  - Author Unknown

God's Littlest Spirit

"You're a Special Little Spirit,"
the great Master said,
As he gently caressed the curly brown hair
of the Little Spirit's head.

"You need to go to Earth
to spend some time, you know,
A place I send most Spirits
to help them learn to grow."

The Little Spirit, in sadness,
slowly bowed her curly head,
And from her eye a tear did steal
and down her cheek it slid.

"Don't you fret now little one,
I won't let you stay too long,
I'll bring you back to help me here,
you'll hardly know that you've been gone.

You're my choicest Little Spirit,
you're the apple of my eye."
And He wiped the tear and gently kissed
His Little Spirit good-bye.

"I'm back," Little Spirit whispered,
as she climbed onto her Master's knee,
And the Master said, "I told you,
you would not be long away from me."

And then, the Lord, He noticed
still another tear welled in her eye.
"Why are you so sad, Little Spirit,
whatever should make you cry?"

"I'm glad I'm back," Little Spirit said,
"but Master you must surely know,
When your Angel came to get me,
I didn't want to go.

I know you said you needed me
and that I'd be gone the shortest while,
But Lord, why couldn't I have had
a little longer trial?"

The Master let Little Spirit
slip down from off His knee,
Then took the Little Spirits hand and said,
"Come walk with me."

The Little Spirit and her Lord
walked slowly hand in hand,
As He tried his best to explain to her
His great and marvelous plan.

"Now Lord, I don't mean to argue,
I understand that you needed me home.
But I left in such a hurry,
Now everyone is so alone.

I didn't let my parents
know how much I loved them so.
I was much too small to tell them, Lord,
how will they ever know?

They feel that they've been cheated,
and in a way, so do I.
Not getting to share any more than we did,
how can I tell them why?"

I know your heart is heavy
with this message you need to share.
But you need not worry anymore,
I'll watch over your loved ones there.

I'll send them loving comfort
as a strong and helping hand.
That will give them peace and ease their hearts,
so they will understand.

"I'll tell them that you're pure,
as pure as Heaven's Gold,
And that I needed you very much
to keep Heaven from getting cold."

  - Author Unknown

GRIEVING SILENTLY

Why must I grieve silently,
When my heart is so loudly screaming?
The emptiness I feel is consuming me,
Oh God, how I wish I were dreaming.
The silence around me is deafening,
For nobody knows what to say,
To comfort this agony I'm feeling,
Since my daughter went away.
And each day the sun continues to rise,
And the earth is still turning,
Though my world has come to a screeching halt,
No one can ease my yearning.
For a part of me has vanished,
And a part of my heart has died,
And no one can hear my heartache,
Or feel the turmoil I carry inside.
And I'll go on grieving silently,
And exist on a different plane,
And I'll keep my love for her deep in my heart,
Until we see each other again.

- Author Unknown

I Am So Tired. . .

I am tired of crying for my child.
I am tired of being depressed.
I am tired of longing for my child.
I am tired of not being happy.
I am tired of telling people that my daughter is dead.
I am tired of my daughter being dead.
I am tired of not being able to remember what joy feels like.
I am tired of being angry.
I am tired of feeling guilty.
I am tired of missing my daughter.
I am tired of being told that it is a blessing to have an angel in heaven.
I am tired of being misunderstood.
I am tired of having to explain myself when I am depressed.
Again, I am tired of being depressed.
I am so tired of death.
I am tired of grieving.
I am tired of grief.
I am tired of asking why.
I am tired of not getting an answer.
I am tired of having to learn to live without my daughter.
I am tired of being indirectly told to "get over it".
I am tired of re-living the night of my daughter's death over and
over, complete with tears and emotional upheaval.
I am sooooooooo tired of not being able to remember...
every moment of her life.
I am tired of being tired.

- Author Unknown

Little One, Little One

Little one, little one,
Where have you gone?
Your going has darkened
The brightest dawn.
Why did you leave us
So soon, so soon?
Where can we look for you?
Over the moon?
On butterflies' wings?
In the heart of a rose?
Who knows, who knows
Where a little one goes?

Where have I gone,
I am not so small.
My soul is as wide
As the world is tall.
I have gone to answer
The call, the call
Of the One who takes
Care of us all.
Wherever you look,
You will find me there -
In the heart of a rose,
In the heart of a prayer.
On butterflies' wings,
On wings of my own,
To you, I'm gone,
But I'm never alone -
I'm over the moon.
I am home.

- Author Unknown