Why?

Why do I always wanna die?

Is it because this world is full of hate?

Why do I always cry?

Is it because no one bothers to see my inner beauty?

Why do I always cut myself?

Is it because i would rather have physical pain than inner pain?

Why do people always leave me by myself?

Is it because I am not a pleasant person to be around?

Why do I always cry myself to sleep every night?

Is it because God took away my only love?

Why is it, when i'm sad I always grab the knife?

Is it because I want to be with my love again?

Why do I always make the wrong decisions in my life?

Is it because I want attention?

Why do I always start the fight?

Is it because no one understands me?

Why do I sometimes make myself hurl?

Is it because i would rather be hungry?

Why am I such an unhappy girl?

Is it because I have gone through so much pain when i'm only 14?

Why am I about to kill myself?

Is it because no one bothers to listen to me?

Why are the lights getting dimmer?

Is it because i'm about to die?
              -I guess so-

   -die for love-       
I sit in the park where I dwell
For this boy I love so well
He took my heart away from me
Now he wants to set me free
I see a girl on his lap
He says things to her he never said to me
I ran home to cry on my bed
Not a word to mother was said
Father came home late that night
He looked at me from left to right
He saw me hanging from a rope
He took his knife to cut me down
And on my dress a note was found:
Dig my grave Dig it deep
Dig my grave From head to feet
And on the top place a dove
And remember this, I died for love….

Bad Time

I am walking by myself in the park
When I see movement ahead in the dark.

A man looks at me and he smiles
He's been stalking me for the last three miles.

I look at him and fear enters my mind
I sense his intentions will not be kind.

He pulls out his hand, now here comes the gun
He takes two then three shots and I'm done.

I'm dead because my only crime
Is that I came at a lousy time.

Silent cries

My room is dark

As I await your call

My phone isn't ringing

It hasn't rung at all

My heart is pounding

Why aren't you calling?

My eyes fill with water

But my mouth makes no noise

I don’t want to cry

But I feel I have no choice-

I want no one to hear me

Yet, I want someone to care

But the person I am waiting for

Never seems to be there

Where are you and why aren’t you calling?

I'm holed up in my corner

Confused and bawling

Why don’t you love me?

Why don’t you care?

When will I finally realize

What you do to me... isn’t fair?

I can't control my emotions

And I can't control your life

I look out my bedroom door

Only to see

There’s a knife on my kitchen floor

I pick it up

I feel no more

And, all the sudden, I'm on the floor

Surrounded by blood

My body goes numb

Why- over a guy

Must I act so dumb?

I can no longer cry, nor can I sigh

Why did I do this over a guy?

My phone starts to ring

But I cannot get up

The answering machine picks up

It's you and, "we're done."

I can't feel a thing

My body still numb

I cannot cry I have no tears

My eyes are dry at last

and finally... I die