Age 5

Little plastic rings
A friend as the preacher
Kisses as a birdy sings
Pulled apart by the teacher

Age 10

A scribbled heart
Notes with X's and O's
Never ever apart
Beating down shared foes

Age 15

A date to a show
Kissing in the dark
Hoping parents will not know
That on her neck lies a mark

AGe 20

Kneeling upon a knee
Taking her hand
Kissing it gently
And slipping on a wedding band

I was in group therapy the other day
So they told me to stand up and have my say
I said "Hello" and told them my name
And told them my addiction without any shame

They eyed me with a curious look
As if I was a theiving crook
One even went and said I didn't belong
But I told him he was very wrong

I said "This class is for addicts."
I don't see where the my story conflicts
Because I am in way over my head
This problem I am starting to dread

You see I can't eat nor can I sleep
Truth is I am in too deep
I can't be separated from my habit
Oh and how I "gotta" have it

I start to shiver and shake
And my senses awake
I know if I don't have it, I will die
No worries though I am in good supply

Then I smiled, "This feeling I can't get rid off."
"Hello everyone, I am addicted to LOVE."

Dear God,
I pray tonight asking for something
I ask not for myself, so don't be alarmed
When I pray, I always ask for forgiveness for my sins
But tonight I will keep those sins, and ask for something else
You see there is this little girl, about four years old
And her family misses her very much
I know somethings are out of your hands
But all I ask is that Maddy knows how much she is loved
Let her know we have not forgot, she is in everyones heart
All across the world
Let her feel our love
And God? Please bring her home.

Dreaming
of only you
The sweetest of all songs
plays softly nearby as we dance
Slowly, so full of love for each other 
Locking eyes, leaning in, kissing
Losing you so slowly
For I was just
Dreaming

Walking down the road
Tears of bitter sadness running down my cheeks,
I think I lost part of myself that day,
Because without you I am incomplete.
I gave you all I had
But you decided to turn away
And when you finally saw me I was already gone.
I told you I wouldn't wait
Because I refused to be your backup
I told you I wouldn't wait
Because I didn't have the time
So I slowly watched the sand slipping away.
And I took once last look at you,
As the final grain drifted down.
And then I turned and never looked back
Here I am, but only a fraction of me is
Left.

Here this is, before your eyes
Don't worry I'll try not to feed you lies
I am 5'7'' hazel eyes and blonde hair
I'll tell you my story, so pull up a chair

I am fourteen and live with my best friend
You could be one but that depends
I love to have fun and act like a "tard"
Because being an idiot is not very hard
I guess I am a "little" sarcastic too
But heck that's nothing new
I love to rock out to music, anything is fine
Hell I even like Patsy Cline
I love to write and love to talk
Despise spaghetti and hate to be stalked
I have 3 sisters and 1 brother
And my dad doesnt live with my mother
I support my country with all my heart
Curse the soldiers and I'll rip you apart
There is so much more to me
Drop me a message and you'll soon see
Anywho I should probably end
But I want to ask, Will you be my new friend?

We kiss slowly, ever so slowly
I shudder with fear and delight
Passion ignited by a wordless touch
How can I feel this much?
I shake, shiver but not with cold
Your fingers creating your love 
Tracing the pattern upon my skin.
And I know this is love
By the way you look at me.
You have such a tender look,
When you gaze at me
Looking into my heart and soul
Saying you would never hurt me
But still I feel pain
But with it brings such extasy
How I am hooked on you!
May the words we speak alway be true
And as the night goes on
Everything fades away
Leaving behind pain and misery
For there is no room for it tonight
All that there is, is you and me
I sleep craddled in strong, yet tender arms
While you gaze upon my face, softened by sleep
May we remember this exact moment always
For this is as close to perfect as it gets

Self infliction, my escape
Damn the memories taking shape
Scream to clear the mind
But memories tangled, can’t unwind
I feel the mask starting to crack
Scared to even look back
The truth overwhelms the soul
The past has taken its toll
Leaving no where for me to live
I have no way to forgive
Save me from this distress
All the thoughts I can’t suppress
Leave me here to die alone
This is the way, I’ve always known

I walked down the street
Paying no mind
Then I looked at my feet
And a surprise I did find

Decorated with a heart
It was an orange note
So I tore the envelope apart
And this is what someone had wrote

"My dearest love, I miss you so
It feels like another world here.
Again, I'm sorry I had to go
But I will return, have no fear.
And forever, together we will be
With a life of our own
Just wait and see
This is just a short postpone."

The date said 1969
So many years ago
The address said Lucy McCline
She is someone I know

She is known as the hermit around here
Always locked up inside her house
Then my eyes started to tear
As I remembered her departed spouse

I had never seen him with my eyes
So I guess he never made it back
I guess that's why she cries
And always wears WIDOW black

He gazes out upon the field
There lies the memories he tries to forget
He holds the sword that he has so many times weild
And the smell of blood and the sweat

Every night as he closes his eyes to sleep
He cannot forget the past
He sees the bodies thrown in a heap
And wonders if each breath will be the last

But still he stands tall and strong
Unable to crumble under the burden upon his back
He knows he must go along
But still the remorse piles with every attack

He is doomed, chained to his fate
He is a killer that must defend
He is so bitter and filled with hate
But he is stuck The Warrior until the end

I know you love me, I love you too
But you see a mistake in everything that I do
You want what is best, what is right
But still all we do is fight
You say that you feel like hitting me
I tell you to go ahead, that I agree
You won’t get help for your drinking
You hardly eat and your body is shrinking
You say you will die without it
But I think you will die if you don’t quit
How can this addiction be so bad?
I try to think of the good times we had
I bring home a report card filled with A’s
But I don’t give it to you cause its one of those days
I mention one bad thing, among all the good
And you get mad cause I didn’t do what I should
I know your life has not be easy from the start
But please the pain is tearing me apart
I know you try your best, but we still are poor
I know every dollar is a chore
I know you’re not proud and I am to blame
I’m sorry from the day you gave me my name
But I love you Mom, more than you know
And you haven’t been happy since a long time ago